Anyone starting the TWW #2

@Missgoldilocks sorry you're feeling like this again, there are no words it's just really unfair.
@Annny27 nearly time for you to start DTD then... of the joys eh! It's not fun is it 😴
I was hoping AF would come this past weekend, I was bloated and had cramps weds/thurs which was a sure sign... she didn't... BUT yesterday when I wiped I had light brown discharge... and this morning too and there was a tiny bit of red in with the brown.. so fingers crossed she comes today!! Just over 4 weeks now since my surgery

Xx

@missgoldilocks oh its just the worst when you notice signs that mean your period might be on the way :( I think its actually worse than your period arriving :(

Let's hops she stays away though! Ttc is the worst time :(

@anny27 hey girl, how are you? I'm not good honestly, 8dpo and my pre af cramps have started like clock work. I just feel defeated and me and oh are just arguing and stressed it's all just shit right now and I don't have the energy

how are you all doing girls? @Gems7 @Missgoldilocks @PrettyTulip

Cd6 for me so probably start dtd tomorrow haha

@missgoldilocks fingers crossed for you!!! Because my ovulation can vary a bit I have to start having sex cd7 so we don't miss it incase it happens early on cd12 like it has some months haha

@anny27 😂😂😂😂😂 I love that!! We've been going around empty houses for viewings and a few times I was like dammit I wish it was fertile week I'd fuck you on this dining table right here right now! Then the balcony woohoo I love a new place to have sex hahahaha alas I'm not fertile though lol maybe pregnant, pray for me!!!!! 😬😬😬😬😬😬

If I'm not, I'm not having sex until fertile week comes round again so we have a good month of building sexual energy because we are both burnt out lol

@missgoldilocks yeah I find 3dpo-9dpo I am pretty hopeful and then it's downhill haha. am okay, I always felt REALLY shit on cd1, crying and wallowing haha. But then as period nears to an end I am looking forward to fertile week.

I am trying to tell myself I am only 28 and I have plenty of time but it doesn't help when you want a baby NOW sort of thing haha!

Told my husband we are gonna have sex on our dining room chair because we have had such "ttc boring sex" the past few months 🤣

@gems7 @robbo93 any sign of your periods girls?

@Annny27 well 1dpo and 2dpo I was pretty down because I just thought it's not going to happen again and I've been eating everything for gods sake. I feel OK now at 5dpo but I'm just at that stage where I want to feel something to confirm if I am 😭😭 I just have this gut feeling that it's not going to happen naturally for me but it could just be anxiety talking. How are you? Xx

How are you feeling in the tww @Missgoldilocks ?

I am not gonna do any vitamins or things this month but potentially if we don't catch this month i will!

@anny27 yeah! They have herbal teas too, like I take dong quai which is a supplement and it helps to circulate blood around the womb. Let me tell you it works, I was taking too much for like a week and I felt my womb contracting it was crazy! Anyway now I take the correct amount, one pill after period to ovulation then stop. I just had my smear and the doc said my cervix looks very healthy maybe it helped! Also reflexology? I've heard that's good too. I had acupuncture the needles aren't scary and I'm scared of needles you don't feel them going in its fine.

I had a friend who had 4 cp in a row, she got cupping done and I kid you not she showed me the pictures of a massive blood clot that came out of her back!!! I was like woooooow!! Low and behold she got pregnant first go after that! (she didn't have sex for a few months but when she did she fell from one go)
I'm going to look into it myself now

Yeah that could be something! I know I ovulate every month, DH obvs has working speed because I got pregnant so perhaps I just need a helping hand with getting my body in tip top condition!

Not sure about acupuncture. I have heard a lot of people talk about it but I don't know if I would be scared of the needles haha.

Gonna do some research whilst I am on my period for best steps for next month!

@Annny27 hmm would you try holistic first? Acupuncture like I said above? I think because you've been pregnant you know you can get pregnant and your tubes are obviously clear, maybe you should start with a Chinese herbal doctor a bit of acupuncture maybe some herbs that help build your wall for the egg to nestle into?? Just a thought a little cheaper perhaps xx

@anny27 ahh I'm sorry 😞🙄❤️ onto the next bloody cycle! I'm seriously considering acupuncture, would you get it?

@missgoldilocks I am Deffo gonna ask for a massage haha! Deserve one

Thinking of going private for my tests, found a local consultant whose charges are like £200 per consultation. Its not too expensive but obvs it all adds up

@Annny27 😩☹️❤️ sorry chick xx
Get your oh to give you a massage, I literally felt like breaking down all day (I did have a cry in the morning) then I asked him to give me a belly massage and send good energy in there lol I feel better x

period arrived.....gah atleast its here now but still frustrating!

Need to rename this thread "sick and tired with no hope" 🤣🤣

@Missgoldilocks no AF hasn't arrived properly yet and its kinda giving me false hope that its implantation now 😬😬 will test tomorrow if she hasn't arrived, I will be 15dpo then.

Omg the positive twst dreams are the worst because you wake up like ahh what if its a sign....its never a sign haha. Yep its fathers day on Sunday too so will be feeling sad that DH isn't a dad 💗

@PrettyTulip its annoying not knowing where we are haha

@Gems7 i am glad the vagina is feeling back to normal:D bet your OH was pleased haha!

Yep miscarriage is cruel cruel cruel, but also so is months of bfn, bfn, bfn.......aren't we lucky that we've got to experience both 🙄🙄😬

@Gems7 @anny27 @PrettyTulip we just all are having a shit time with it aren't we! Sorry to hear about that gems 🤗 me and oh fell out too, he said I was sad all day which I wasn't I was trying to make jokes etc and have a good day but yes I'm sad because I feel like I'm not going to get pregnant without ivf. I don't understand why that's so hard to understand? I'm not allowed to be sad? He can be a right prick sometimes. Anyway last night I dreamt I got a bfp 😩😭😭 I did three different tests, 2 was positive and the digi was negative. I was soooo happy 😊 then I woke up 😞

@anny27 has your af properly come or??

Sorry you're all feeling shit girls 😟
I'm not much better just in a different position.
Fell out with OH and we didn't speak for most of the weekend, we are okay now but it's just been a rubbish few days, it's hard sometimes, we both have different mindsets. He's quite logical and methodical and calm in life whereas I bulldoze through it and say exactly what I think and my emotions are always out there for all to see, plus We are both grieving at the moment, it's just so shit. Was supposed to go to his parents on Sunday but I didn't go so now they probs think I'm a massive bitch too 🙈
I honestly thought nothing was worse than going month after month with no BFP but honestly at the minute I think this is worse, getting your BFP and feeling those emotions that we all dream of only to have it snatched away again and miscarry.
I'm probably talking shit and in a few months will be moaning my arse off every month about not getting pregnant again 🤣
ITS ALL JUST SO SHIT!!!!!

Waiting for first AF still this Saturday will be 4 weeks since the surgery. On a brighter note though my vagina feels okay again, the thrush has gone woohooooooo 🥳
And me and OH DTD last night for the first time in over 3 months woohooooooo 🥳

@Annny27 @PrettyTulip you girls had anymore bleeding/ brown discharge this morning?

@Missgoldilocks big hugs, count to 10, fingers crossed FW flys by

Xxxxx

@Annny27 I'm the same as you hun, had 1 day where I wiped brown mucus then nothing, next day was red mucus but nothing after the one wipe and then the day after that was one wipe of brown again (and then nothing today!) WTF is going on with us 🤨🤣

@anny27 maybe implantation!?

I know I really hate this ☹️ I just can't be happy till I know I am. Once I'm past fertile week I'm just depressed thinning I'm not pregnant

I am confused because I had definite red blood yesterday and now its just brown again.....so not sure if period is being really weird or not? So I am either 13dpo or cd2 haha 🤣🤣

@missgoldilocks itz heartbreaking you get a glimmer of hope around ovulation and then you are just like ahhh well waiting for AF now!

Hey girls how are we all? @Gems7 @PrettyTulip @anny27??

I'm not gonna lie and Im probably being an idiot but I just feel so sad. Like Im 2dpo and all I want to do is cry because I just feel like I know its not going to happen again its breaking my heart so bad. I just can't be positive anymore and I just feel so sad I can't shake it! My nipples are killing me and that happens after ovulation sometimes but I'm like hoping that it means something 😔😔😭

@anny27 I know I know its so shiiiiiit and I'm sick of it too!!! God 😩🙄 I'm sorry you're feeling like this 🤗
Yeah I'm 1dpo. Managed to dtd last night so we did it 3 times during fertile week. I don't have much hope but let's see what happens

period arrived. Fml

Hate hate hate this so much! Want to scream and cry and just fall into a depression pit. Dramatic but its true haha!

@Missgoldilocks are you 1dpo now?