Early December testing?

@ellsbells112 i have decided to do medical management (take tablets to induce miscarriage) instead of the surgery so i will have that at the start of next week.

I am prepared for painful cramps and lots of blood but i hope it wont be something i cant cope with!

@anny27 I hope it doesnt take you long too ❤❤🤗 how is everything going? Xx

@ellsbells112 @gem7 the ttc journey is so emotional isnt it! I didnt realise before we started

It took us 4 months of ttc to conceive (obviously ended in this miscarriage!) But hoping when we try again it doesn't take long either!

@Robbo93 thank you lovely ❤🤗 I dont know whether this will give you hope but it really makes me think so I thought I'd share it! As a teenager i was in a relationship for 5 years and honestly for 4 years out of the 5 used no protection and not once got pregnant!!! I thought I couldn't have kids but at the time I wasnt trying (just young and dumb) (also bare in mind that same man has 4 kids now so he wasnt the problem either!!) And then I got with a new partner and after a year bang I feel pregnant with my son. So all of those years, no issues i presumed, didnt look into it because I didnt care at the time but now looking back I'm like oh my god?? I must have had sex loads of times when I was fertile!! Its crazy ?? I just hope it doesnt take another 5 years or something all over again!! Xx

@Ellsbells112 no-one is judging you here lovely. It will happen, it's happened for you before, it will happen again 🥰
I so understand your frustrations with conceiving straight away .. I'm now on to month 11 and infuriated with everyone who seems to just 'get pregnant without trying' .. I just tell myself my body knows itself better than I do so my body will decide when it feels it's ready for the upheaval lol 😂

@Ellsbells112 Thankyou ❤️

@Gems7 it is!! I really really hope you get yours this month!! You so deserve it chick xxx

@Ellsbells112 we sure will. Glad you're feeling better. This is my 6th month off my oral contraceptive now, people keep getting pregnant all around me and it's hard to remain positive when I'm so jealous inside and deflated each month but at least we have each other.
This TTC is an emotional rollercoaster 😘 xx

@Gems7 thank you so much ❤❤❤❤ your words literally mean the world to me right now I could cry lol 🤗 you're totally right, any month would be a great month! Ahh you've proper lifted me today! Yes...it was not an easy decision to make, I may think about it now due to trying but it's not something I regret because I am now in an amazing place to give a baby a beautiful life and my son has been able to have a life without struggle because of the decisions I've made ❤ Big hugs xxx we will all get there!! X

@Gigi318 chick how are you?? Havent heard from you in a while x

@Ellsbells112 Dont you dare apologize mrs. That's what this thread is for. So that we can talk to other lovely ladies all going through the same thing and share our crazy thoughts with one another. If I talked to my friends or partner about some of the things we discuss on here they would think I was going bonkers.
Try not to feel guilty about having a termination either. I know it’s hard but Shit happens babe, that’s life and if you weren’t in a place where you could have given another baby the amazing life that you can right now then that’s nothing to feel guilty about. I think it was a brave thing to do. You aren’t being punished, you sound extremely healthy to me, far more than I am with the jogging etc. it’s just crappy old science making things difficult at the moment but it will happen.
A July baby would be perfect you you but you know what.. if that’s not to be, then an August baby would be pretty amazing too!.. and if this isn’t our month then we buy that preseed lube and we go again 😜
Big hugs xx

@Gems7 thanks xx I just dunno I really have my heart set on this month, i really wanted a July baby as my OH has his bday in July too. I just know I'll be real upset if my period comes but i just gotta get on with it like everyone else. I literally think about it all the time and how annoying it is that I was so unhealthy when I got pregnant before and 8 stone heavier might I add! I don't smoke anymore I hardly ever drink I go gym 5 days a week! Plus like no judgement please...but I had an abortion before when I was like 22 after my son. I tried so hard to carry through with it but the situation was so shit and it happened so quickly in the wrong circumstances and I literally get upset over it every day now because I'm trying. I keep thinking...what if I ruined my chances? What if this is my punishment? I'm sorry to be such a debbie downer I just feel so low and I cant really talk about this in real life xxx 🥺😓

@Robbo93 wish I knew 🙄 I literally only ovulated a few days ago so it's nothing to do with implantation. It's probably nothing really but it bloody hurt. Xx

@Gems7 what is it?!?! I don't think mine was as bad as yours but my god it did hurt! I hope it's not a bad sign 🤞 xxx

@Robbo93 I had something similar last night. On the way home from my friends I had really sharp stabby type pains when I moved then horrendous bloating came on all of a sudden. When I got home I had to lie down for 15-20 mins until it was gone. I can usually tolerate a lot of pain but that really hurt.
Really wish we could see inside sometimes to see what was going on in there 😩

@Ellsbells112 big hugs to you mrs. You can still
do it and it is going to happen for you. You're so positive and bubbly, you keep us all going. Hope you're feeling okay this morning. Xx

@Robbo93 thanks girl, just one of those days I think. I had counselling today too so I just feel pretty down all round.

That sounds different?? Let's hope it's a good thing! Xx

@Ellsbells112 saying about cramps though, I don't normally have any cramps, bare minimum if anything and yesterday I had them so bad I was nearly in tears on my drive home as every time I moved I got a jolt of pain towards the top of the vag under the stomach area x

@Ellsbells112 don't you start thinking negative missy! It will happen for you, I'm sure! Good things come to those who wait 💐

@Robbo93 I dont know, I've heard crazy stories. Plus I implanted really early once, I must have because I felt the pregnancy feeling literally creep up on me one day but negative test result. Had to wait a week before it came up on the stick - went for an early scan a few weeks later and I was only 3 weeks.

But I don't have that overbearing feeling right now lol just really light cramping all day! I'm starting to feel down over it all though 😒 really scared that maybe I just cant anymore.

@Ellsbells112 it could be.... I'll try & stay positive & see if it helps 😁

It's too early for symptoms anyway. Waaah 😭

@Laur89 awww that sounds promising!! I hope it's a good sign for you 🙏🤞🤞🤞

@Gems7 It will get busier then but I feel so impatient already like seriously lol xx

@Robbo93 that could also be a good sign!! 🤞

I'm just twinging atm moreso to the left side with a dragging sort of feeling - I dunno but I'm not getting excited about it either lol just jotting it down

Hey ladies. Think I'm 3DPO today but not too sure. Nothing out the ordinary to report from me except I have sooooo much discharge?! I never normally have any but I constantly feel like I've wet myself 🤨 and knickers are soaked (luckily it doesnt smell so can't be noticed at work etc lol) it's soooo strange?! Xx

Hey girls, looks like were all in the first week of the tww then. Its dragging soooooo much. I am dying to test but way too early. I only have the digital clear blue test left over from last month so not going to waste it by testing early, and I'm going to be strong and not buy any cheapie tests to do early either... although I've been scanning amazon and the frer are on offer at the min.. so tempting 😂🙈 baby dust to us all!!

@charlie0692 hey hun, I either ovulated on Monday or Wednesday but am only counting myself as 1DPO today as I think it was yesterday. I'm slightly crampy today but I think that's normal, it's far too early for symptoms, this TWW is going to be a long one!
You're right @Ellsbells112 it has defo been quieter on here, I feel like it gets busier though the nearer to AF due date 👀
Fingers crossed for us all this time! Xx

@charlie0692 hey chick, everyone has gone quiet on here! I'm 5-6dpo...no symptoms. I've broken out in painful cystic acne since waking this morning 🤷‍♀️ getting a bit crampy too but I feel like that part is normal. No amazing symptoms like really sore boobs or sickness unfortunately 🥺 haha