The caravan of crap! for those of us who are browned off but not to the extent of those over there in the hut

Liger I am so so sorry for your losses I cannot even begin to imagine losing a baby at 24 weeks, I hope you had a lot of support and counselling.

Please lean on us for support if you need to rant write it all down I sometimes use mumsnet as a kind of thought journal and I rabbit away mostly at myself but it's good to know there are people out there that understand something you often don't get in RL.

We cry and we also laugh together, I'm also on the ttc after miscarriage thread and ttc in September threads a lot of us cross over too

I hope you successfully stem the fluff sweetkitty!

I thought I should introduce myself properly to you all. I have a wonderful ds who is 2.4 and getting to that willfull challenging phase. I am a SAHM. Last October I lost my dd at 24 weeks of pregnancy - I'm still trying to cope with this everyday. I then had a miscarriage in April at 7 weeks, and now here I am, I don't even want to think how many cylces we have been trying but facing the anniversary of losing dd and not being pregnant again is taking me to some very dark places on my down days. Sometimes I feel like I've had every pregnancy experience going ( my pregnancy with dd was full of difficulties, early bleeding, scan showed a second empty sac, more bleeding etc) and therefore struggling to conceive is something I had hoped I wouldn't have to add to the list.

So there we have it, it feels good to have it all written down. Lurking in the caravan has kept me sane some days! Just looked at my earlier post and i can't even manage to properly! Typical!

Looney - if I was that Mum i would have seen it as my mix-up my responsibility to sort out childcare somehow. Its not fair on you.

scorpio PMSL at that too - in the best possible way! i certainly don't remember the condom on it but she was cleaning it rather thoroughly when i got there - very graphic

sweetkitty that's a great phrase from your DD!

Glad you knew what I meant scorpio and I knew what you meant if that makes any sense sometimes you have got to laugh only thing that keeps you going.

The bottom of DD1's doll has burst DD1 is distraught so I have to go stitch her up she sais "theres fluff coming out of twin babies girlie bits mummy"

Scorpio - have you deserted us on the graduate thread?

oh i know you wasn't being funny, just didnt want people to think i was making light of a serious thing.

and i agree with the men/bum thing!

Congratulations to Bobbydazzler and thelittlesoldiersmumy fabulous news!!

I wasn't trying to be mean to you scorpio sorry if it came across like that

take away the circumstances and it would be bloody funny

us women eh? I think men should have a camera rammed up their backsides see how they like it

oh yes, i do understand that those types of scans are for people who need early intervention, and that its not funny.

JJust thought the phrase was funny!

if it weren't for the circumstances I think the whole thing would be very funny

one of my friends who had IVF coined the phrase dildo cam think she had to have daily scans bless her

oh yeah....as sweetkitty said [waves at sweetkitty] - dildo cam! PMSL

Must say, I don't remember the condom on the scanner but i do remember the jelly and how cold it is. It's really strange isn't it as it's the shape of.......

pmsl @ dildo cam!

yup they put a condom and KY on dildo cam before they put it up there.

best thing was when I was having mine the sonographer was waiting for another to come in and she was moving the screen around all the time holding this bloody dildo cam inside me hmmm

jacobandlysette - well, i'm stuck now with not needing to cancel my appointment but needing to take 2 4 year olds in with me or get someone to watch them in the waiting room when I go in. Well, not managing to sort the waiting room thing and tbh, I'm quite tearful just thinking about it all (stress and lack of sleep I think) so chances are I'll blubber in surgery and I really can't do that in front of the kids. So, I may end up cancelling and trying again for Friday - gives me a little longer to find someone to help me.

Anyway, I'm so glad you went to the EPU. I didn't want to say earlier but I had a MC before ds. Started spotting and on bed rest for week and half before it happened. I was worried sick and stressed the whole time and I really don't think that's good. I mean, if everything is ok and we stress, that's risking the baby anyway!!! So, I always try and get people to not do what I did, best to stop the worry and get it checked. If something is wrong then you can deal with it sooner and if nothing is wrong, you can relax and not worry! I'm so so glad to hear everything appears ok What's the point of you being worried when it's not necessary!!

really??

Stripping doesn't get me it's the condom and KY!

ive never had an internal one.... for you!

BOBBY

LT deffo stick to your guns girl!

Bobby congratulations [grfin] I'm so pleased for you - will we be seeing you on our May thread?

Went to the EPU this morning and they have given me a provisional date of 30th april???? so am very confused and am going to stick on the due in may thread as i will probably be early anyway if last time is anything to go by.

anyway i too had an internal scan - it's not that bad actually is it TLSM? and all is fine for 5+1, and all where it should be.

see you all later - I'm off to pick us all up some choccy biccies as we appear to have run out again

Well I'm sorry but can I have a bit of a moan...................long story but I was supposed to have this Thurs/Fri off work as baby mindee on holiday - hence me waiting to go to the Dr's about this early menopause test thing. Anyway, been helping out adhoc with my first ever mindee who's come back for a few weeks. I told her mum I couldn't do this Thurs and Fri but she's got muddled up and thought I meant next week and says she NEEDS me as no other childcare. I always bend over backwards for the parents, I'm a big softie BUT this appointment is something I wanted to do alone - not somewhere a childminder takes the kiddies!! I know mum would rather I didn't go to the Dr's but I'm not bloody canceling due to her mess up (it's all clear on the email I sent her!).

So.....I SHOULD stick to my guns....SHOULDN'T I??!!

Sorry, rant over, just had plans for the next 2 days and thought today was my last day this week (bloomin tired from the overnighters last night!)

thanks Looney. I'm enjoying all the {grin} - so will let the caravan steam up a bit with all the happy faces.

BobbyDazzler

I KNEW you were coz my crystal (checked the other day) was going MENTAL swinging up and down (for yes) and it said you would get a yes from testing on the day I mentioned it but then after I posted, I did think maybe I should just leave it - very hard though!!!

I understand exactly what you mean about now being pregnant, very happy but scared - I was like this through my whole pregnancy with ds due to MC before him. He was fine though but I'm sure my worrying stopped us bonding so well as I never let myself get attached. So, my advice to you is TRY and stay happy and NOT worry. Anyway, the crystal says you're going to be fine and have no problems!!

I'm just SOOOOOOOOOOOO pleased to wake up to this news!!!!!!!!!!!

TLSM - so glad all is ok Yes, those internal ones aren't the best!!

jacobandlysette - if you find that you are worrying about the spotting, please INSIST that you are checked out. I went through a week and half of bed rest (no ds then so could actually rest) and I found that made me think too much and I found it all very hard just waiting. Now if I ever go through that again, I will insist that the worrying won't help my pregnancy and not let them make me just wait!! I really hope everything is ok!

sweetkitty - thanks And , of course it's going to need to learn my cycle before can give more green days, I was just getting carried away at having a red light!! Anyway, read the manual online and it says that you should have 2 natural cycles of set length before using it so I'm now scraping it for this month! The stick itself had a line but maybe that just means the test worked?

liger - welcome And, don't worry about bringing moods down as we're all here to support each other, that's the point of the caravan! If it helps to talk about it, then fire away!

Right, best clear up the kitchen stuff and have a wash (late start as 2 mindees decided to wake up and cry their eyes out at midnight so we're all a bit tired!)

Still for BobbyDazzler

bobbydazzler - how brilliant. I am so happy for you. I was exactly the same when pg with DD. I didn't test for well over a week because I had convinced myself that lack of period meant something else but actually it just meant I was pg! I am in middle of 2ww (or in my case 10-12 day wait) so I am hoping I get good news too!