The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

Maybe I should change my name today to NOT HAPPY??
Impy - I bet you passed those exams, dincha? Eh? Well done. A++++ all round?

Ooooh. Tell us your news Exam results????

I am happy today, but because I have had two bits of excellent news today, neither of which are baby-related.

I won't try to cheer you up: FTC really is absolute shite and I recognise all too well what you describe. I haven't been able to try for months for various reasons, and week by week someone else overtakes me by announcing their pregnancy. Most are on their second. I might have to go and make a whole new circle of non-ttc or ftc friends, because it's very hard to bear. Grrrr.

Anyway, my commiserations for your cd1. Here is a piping hot homemade strawberry and apple crumble. Hope it helps x

Soreheart - I am NOT HAPPY either. In a more weird way. Just floating along, waiting. Sigh. I keep thinking how no-one ever said it would be this hard. Sorry you are NOT HAPPY too.

Ha, Ready! I might be the only one but I'm NOT HAPPY today. Tired mainly. I'll join you in a pink gin, yummy. I'll be asleep before 2 at this rate!

Hello NMM, And herumph. When it's bad, it's bad, isn't it? I've heard about 3 new baby girls being born this week. I am truly happy for all concerned but it's just an act when I say it out loud. Some sort of disconect between brain and heart.
How far have you been chasing medical support and information? I know that my situation is reasonably clear, I am pretty old although tests say 'Fine' but DP has poor swimmers so chances are very slim.
Work is very busy and quite stressful - I would really like to just curl up and doze somewhere.

nomore - [clinks glasses of pink gin] - I am feeling ambivalent towards it all at the moment, as we have not actively tried this cycle. But I am with you on starting to question whether a baby is ever going to come. I too am sick of hearing about other people's pregnancies and/or babies. So sorry that the clomid didn't work this month.

LNO Are you about? Did you carry on with the IVF this month with the 5 follicles? Sorry about your levels. I don't really know much about it all, but still sorry that you are going through it.

Where is everyone else? Don't tell me everyone is super happy and no longer dwelling in the hut

Hi girls, I need to re-instate the hut please, I have brough loads of green and blacks along with loads of pink gin to tempt you back because I need you
Back to cd1 again and am beginning to wonder if ttc is really what I should be doing. In 20 cycles I have never even managed a BFP (don't mind not having a m/c but in some ways at least it would prove I could get pg - am not trying to upset anyone who has sorry it's just the way my mind is working at the mo) I'm well screwed up about it all and am beginning to wonder if a baby is really worth all this heartache, but I'm not sure I could stop trying either. Can't seem to concentrate at work and am constantly being bombarded with other people announcing pgs. Even the lady serving me in Boots was telling me about her daughter expecting her first. I was really and wanted to tell her to f**k off but am too polite, so I'm unloading in here instead.
Off to see how much gin it is humanly possible to consume...

LNO - go for it. It's worth it. The old adage still works - that you'll always feel good knowing you did everything in your power to make things happen....

Scorpio, if you're still reading this thread!! Congratulations! Marvelous news.
I'm on a 2ww. Feels unlikely but you never know.

hi all, just checking in, LNO sorry to hear that. its truly pants!

Sorry to hear that LNO. Pretending everything is fine and normal when inside you're screaming is very hard. I hope things work out ok, or you come up with a plan on Mon that isn't too hard to bear. I can't believe we're talking about Oct already...

Thanks. i wish you luck too x

hi just popped head round corner to say well done and congratulations Scorpio!

It seems pretty quiet in here, is that cos you are all getting ready for a wicked party weekend?

Im feeling pretty despondent as fsh levels were higher this time than before - now 11.6 and that was after 3 months on DHEA so taking drugs til Monday and we will decide then on either to continue with this cycle of IVF or stop and try again in Oct. Docs opinion is that we may as well try cos there are 5 potential follies whereas in Oct it could be worse needless to say I cried all the way home and next day tried to be smily at work - its s*#t - isnt it. Non of my work colleagues have the faintest idea

better go - dont want to disturb the cleaners any longer...
LNO

Time is weird like that. I'm really pleased for you

it took 6 months-felt like forever, but now feels quite quick iyswim?

Oh Scorpio, that's brilliant! I raise my absinthe to your happy and healthy pregnancy x You can't have any

Hi

i would just like to say i got my bfp yesterday

Thankyou all for helping me when i was at my most despondent and down-you were all amazing. would love to keep in touch?

Stupid people. If I ever manage to get PG I will defo not do that as will remember how annoying and dull it was.

Kensgirl - Town Planner.

EllieG - people can be sooooo insensitive can't they - I had this even though people knew that I'd had mc followed by mp and 4 months chemo and not allowed to ttc for 1yr afterwards...

OOOOhh - the baby's kicking... I feel so sick this morning. I'm decorating the nursery.... I'm going to choose some baby clothes in the sales - look what I got etc etc etc etc....

Insensitive, thoughtless, lucky, ungrateful........

Hello - can I join in for a minute? I was feeling reasonably chilled today after god knows how long cos I've just come back from holiday until my PG supervisor came and went on and on and on at me about her latest PG news and how she is having a scan next week and how she felt her baby kick at the weekend and now I just want to cry in the toilets.
Sorry for lack of punctuation, I do know how to but forgot to use in my grumpiness. PLUS I am trying to give up smoking today, my most favourite thing in the world.

What do you do, Mistlethrush?

Luckily in a new job in a firm that I feel I fit in.

Last boss female, unmarried, no children. Never got on well - I think that she was worried about competition from other women, whilst she felt less competitive with men or something. Anyway, it was that job I resigned from and immediately got pregnant with ds. She never spoke to me in the month I was working my notice, and didn't even say goodbye. Glad to be out of it.

Mistlethrush, thats awful! how couldyour boss do that to you?

At lest here on mn everyone understands other peoples emotions.

I'm going to grab myself a nice glass of Shiraz and join in on.

I've been ttc for six months (I know thats a hell of a lot less than you guys).

Three women in my circle of close friends and family have recently found out they were pregnant. None of them planned, all considered abortions! I hate them. I mean I love them as they as family/friends but how awful. They don't want their babies I want a baby I am ttc and they get themselves pregnant at the drop of a hat on the pill ect. I makes me mad.

I would love to be pg, I would relish everyday of morning sickness. How can they complain. You need a licence to drive a car but not to make a baby. It sucks it really sucks.

mistlethrush I really feel for you I can't belive your boss did that to you.

Kensgirl - If I were you I wouldn't want to go on the holiday either I couldnt imagine anything worse.