The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

hi, im still here, not ttc or ftc buit im just so damned comfy. whats up?

Just popping in to sit in the corner and sulk.

I feel guilty about feeling so utterly fecked off when I read about lovely women, the likes of Lissie, who have been through such ordeals.

But today I just can't drag my sorry arse out of the doldrums.

I know that I can get refuge in here.

ronshar, Lissie, is all I can say x

Got your CAT lissie - will aim to mail the stuff out to you this week.

oh ronshar,

tbh impy, id be happy for an apology. they are saying that the reason ds was stuck in my pelvis was because he was back to back. so why not deal with that before putting me through 3d of labour? we knew how he was lying and that he'd tried and failed to engage twice from 35w.it just doesnt make sense. tbh i dont think ivf would be the right choice for us anyway. i have no probs getting pregnant, just staying that way.

I chose the red. It is making everything numb around the edges.
Just what I wanted.
I should be sitting here complaining that my roast chicken gave me heartburn. I have 3 weeks left until edd. I am feeling the pressure of not being pregnant yet.

I get the impression a lot of us have slumped into apathy. I check regularly to see if anything's going on in the old hut, but haven't got anything worth saying really, or just can't be arsed.

Lissie, you've had a really rough time. It's a real shame that all they've got to go by is your records: I can completely see how someone looking at your records wouldn't see the whole impact and history of what's happened to you. Shame they don't have a copy of some of your threads on here! If you had a magic wand, what would you want to get from them? Would you settle for some acknowledgement of the unfortunate serious of incidences? An apology, even if it wasn't settled with any further action? Or are you after the fullblown free IVF treatment? It's really hard, having followed your story and your feelings through all this not to see you get more help, but I'm also realistic about the limits of the NHS, while feeling affection for both the NHS and you.

By the way, 'early losses easily managed at home' rather minimises it! Sounds like all you needed was a cup of tea and a crappy video... Poor you Lissie xxx

The nhs is crap isnt it!
I am going to open a big bottle of wine not decide what yet. I shall pour you a glass Lisse.

blimey, its been quite here, must be the weather. need a massive rant.

week started well, started my new course and love it, feels nice to think about non-ftc things for a bit, then recieved letter from hospital about my negligience complaint. they insist that they were in no way negligient, everything was above board and the mw's/docs acted within standards expected. they only have admission record for 1 mc so IF i have had further losses they can only assume that they were early losses easily managed at home. they didnt explain how the GBS got into my uterus or how my bladder got cut (5cm wound) my bladder was apparently not misplaced, it got stuck to everything else instead.

my edd for my ep is on the 1st, my 16yo cousin has just had a baby boy, a friend is due next week. my mum bought my other cousin to meet me in the town centre to look for maternity clothes and my best friend is pregnant with her second child.

in the meantime i try to convince myself that having another baby isnt that important, ds will be fine without a brother or sister and im not just a rubbish womb on legs.

and breathe!

Yes, I bet you would happily feel ropey as all hell for this baby xx

Thanks impatience - everything seems fine with the baby so that's the most important.

lissie - sorry for not getting back to you sooner. Got your CAT. Do you want the digital and the sticks? Please let me know and CAT me your address.

BTW, I have also found a few pregnancy tests if anyone would like those!

oh Sideways, that doesn't sound fun. Hope you're feeling much better now and everything's safe and well xx

oh crap, its all worth it tho.are you feeling better now?

Hi lissie, I'm not too bad now thanks. I'm 20 weeks but have been really ill, lost 3 stone and spend 2 weeks in hospital.

Gradually recovering though and hoping he second half will be better.

I have been keeping up with you and all the others though!

have just CAT'd you!

how are you doing?

Hello hut-dwellers, sorry to see that the Hut is still as busy as ever.

Just popped in to say that I have some ov predictor sticks and a digital kit (still in wrapper, never used) which I am willing to donate to a new home free of charge if anyone wants them.

First two to CAT me get the goods.

Virtual chocoalte fudge cake and bottle of vodka for you all to share, seeing as it's Friday!

I just found some southern comfort that dh brought back from a flight. Very happy now and probably not able to type for much longer. Cheers!

thats why i love it here. i can rant and shout (in type of course) without being judged.

Lissie, you may think you're being a bitch but you've been through more than most and you're still lovely to people. The hut wouldn't have such a stable core of people if we didn't all get good support from each other which keeps us coming back (and being spectacularly crap at conception/gestation too, of course).

With you there, Lissie!

im just sick of looking at my stats on the ttc board and feeling like shit. people are moaning after 1 cycle ttc or about being pg (starting threads about it ffs!) and i just want to scream at them "i should be thinking about going into hospital, packing my bags and worrying about piles, but im not, instead im consoling you for your 1st month not working." then i feel like a bitch because once upon a time ttc was exciting for me too.

It's why duchesse built the hut. You wish them well but want to cry at the same time. And here is where you can say that and everyone nods in agreement.

lol, doing a bit too well to be a permanant hut resident at the moment, however the 1st oct is looming. was feeling good so popped onto (one of) my old antenatal thread(s) to wish them all good luck and discovered that someone has been shipped off to hospital possibly in labour. wish i'd never bothered now.

look at that! obv not doing as well as i'd thought!

It was fine, but I did worry for a bit as I was a few glasses down when she phoned and my first thought was, oh my god, I'm still pregnant and now I've given the poor thing foetal alcohol syndrome. Did another test to confirm I was safe to drink (but not drive) and thought, off to the hut with this little tale.
You were right, Impatience. All that talk of running has kept everyone very quiet.

oh dear, thats not good.