The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

DS is 2.9 and my life saver!

oh christ, i dont know what to say. welcome to the hut, i sincerely wish you didnt have to be here.

how old is ds?
and never feel like you shouldnt be sad or jealous. you have every right to be.

I've just found this thread and I think you are all fab. I wish i'd known you during my seven years and 10 ivf attempts to have my ds. But now feeling down as have spent 2 years 3ivf attempts trying for DC2 most of my friends have had their families years ago my godchild hits double figures this year and all those people I met when I had DS have had second children. I love my DS and know how lucky I am to have him but i want him to have a sibling. My sex life has been utterly destroyed by IVF and trying to conceive - we haven't had sex since I got pregnant with ds. Most of the time I am really upbeat but recently a really good friend and I am happy for her got pregnant with her first cycle of ivf with one embryo and I just thought why isn't it me.

thank you, shall look into that now!

i really dont blamer you for wanting to ge3t straight back into it. i normally advise against it, but in this case i think you are doing the right thing x

Oh dont worry about me I'm quite bouncy really. I am oving this weekend. Already!!!!
So I am hoping to have MC and BFP within the same month. Hows that for optomistic. So sorry but cant spell today.

Lissie I have just watched south news/meridian and they were talking about a company which helped a lady get pregnant after 2 years recurrant MC. Suppliments. She now has a boy & a girl within 12 months!! Foresight I think. Look up on meridian websight. It was on after main news on itv.
Could all be bollocks though

thanks, oh i feel crap now. you are going through it and I'M winging. how are you?

Thats ok you are allowed an off day. You are not a failure. You have a physical reason for your troubles. Nothing you can do about that.
Here's a large pink gin and an olive. Drink up love.

oh thank you , sorry i had to run, had a lesson. just fed up of ttc now and feeling like such a rubbish excuse for a woman every month. i know its not rational, but this is officially 2y ttc, ive been pg 6 times and have no baby to show for it.

feeling a bit sorry for myself today.

ronshar, im so sorry you are here again.

lol duchesse, you are not alone. this month i valiently waited til Dday before wee-ing, but my patience didnt pay off, CD1 (again) dh is being a wnker about his tests (again) and i feel shtty for moaning when i have so much already, but its just not enough (ps, add me to your facebook friends and we can play scrabulous together)

i have decided to only keep one test in my sock draw. Only to be used in emregencies.
That way I can save myself £50 a month on unecessary wee stick buying.

I think I am addicted to the negative hormones released after getting a BFN. Seeing as I have had loads of those for the past 6 months. And only 3 BFPs. I dont like my odds much!!

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I dont think anything I say will be good enough.
We all share your pain Duchesse.

oh babe.

no such thing as only. you could ring epu and tell them you werent sure of your dates. im so pissed off for you x

I was only exactly 5. I had only know for 5 days so not exactly established.
It is more the death of a dream you know. I know it was just a tiny bean with no heartbeat but even so.
My DH excellent as always, patted my hand and said "I really dont understand all these womens things. We can try again".

not at all. its totally understandable. my cousin is 33, her ds was 3mo when she found out she was knocked up again and she went on a drinking binge in the hope that "nature would take its course", shes just found out that the baby has a hole in its heart, and im furious with her for being so flippant and cruel. people have no idea how precious the life that grows inside you is, and i cant believe that you are going through this again. how many weeks are you?

Hey Lissie. You are a star. I love you more each day.
I am feeling a bit over-emotional now.

I am feeling a little bit shite because on Wednesday my mum told me my cousin was 6 weeks pregnant. My first thought was not how wonderful for her. It was, what a bitch, she left school pregnant. Now has another total wanker for a boyfriend and is on baby number 4.
Does that make me a bad person who deserves to be losing another baby myself.

I am now under the table having drunk all the Pinot, finished off the pink gin and am routing around under the sofa for the bottle of Absinth that I saw a while ago.

scrap that last post.

im so sorry, this isnt fair. its shit and you dont deserve this. im here for you x

whats up ronshar?

There is allways a time and a place for Pink Gin. It is a miracle cure. My Pinot certainly is not helping. Off to finish the bottle!

the classy touch of the pink gin briefly lifts spirits and changes glower to light frown.

If anyone asks I am the person slouched in the other corner with a bottle of Rose Pinot (cant lower standards just because I am pissed off).