The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

morning all

have decided that it is definitely a good thing about the test results. am agreeing with mich, better that nothing is wrong and it's just being awkward. seems it's not that i can't conceive just struggle to hang on, hoping won't have to wait too much longer for next conception eh??

hope you can get minimal effort maximum gain ronshar am trying that myself but it is so difficult to be so chilled when it comes to it isn't it?

Hello Santasmissus. At least the results show nothing is broken! Just down to practice now

I have not given up on the TTC but I am now not actively going out of my way to keep track of days etc. I have reached the point where I think I have had two healthy pregnancies with out effort and two MC's after trying hard.!! I am going with the first option now as seems to work better for me.
It is very easy to say that but it is very difficult to actually carry it out

I am hopeing to use Christmas as a brilliant distraction technique. Who knows what santa might bring down the chimney.

evening all. hello wheely loonng time no see (i met you on mc thread a little while ago and you directed me to ttc after mc - i was non-festive shreksmissus).

test results back today, no blood prob linking pre-eclampsia and mc - good thing i suppose - was kinda hoping it was something treatable; seems i just have poor obstetric history.

wish i could forget ttc altogether it's the only sure way to get up-the-duff but therein lies the problem coz i want it too badly and i just can't give it up...yet. am developing some resignation though. can't even book a skiing holiday (am v ronshar) as dh has buggered knees.

Lissie, my DS is a slave to propaganda and now tells people if they ask about a little brother or sister, 'but I don't want one' . It's amazing people have the nerve to ask. (After all I thought that asking a couple if they are trying for a baby and asking whether you are pregnant were the two questions totally off limits.) I usually answer it took us 7 years and 10 ivf attempts to have him, so its not exactly a walk in the park to have another one. We are trying though fourth ivf (post DS who is almost 3) attempt in Jan. just punch them next time.

Wheely I think that is the way to go. Lissie - bet you felt like screaming "I'm bloody trying".

Morning ladies. I know this is the hut and all that but it is gloriuosly sunny and I will not let the whole baby shit stuff ruin my good mood.
I met Popsy for champagne. OOOOO she is lovely.
Wheely, we have been hiding out here like fugitives (ronshar looks over her shoulder). I am pleased YOU found us.
I dont know what day it is, dont want to know and quite frankly dont care.
We have booked ski trip for Feb. If that doesnt work nothing will

shit days all round then? went to sil's 30th birthday party today, 2 new(ish) babies there and was asked casually when we were thinking of a sibling for ds, coz he loves babies soooo much. fucking social politics.

and I intend to stay drinking red wine and eating choc (interspersed with champagne and turkey) until the new year.

LL - I know, I keep thinking, I can't imagine ever being pregnant again. I am so fed up of this taking over everything - I so hope I don't look back on dd's toddler years as the ttc no. 2 years.

DH has been instructed not to think of coming home without red wine and choc.

Oh dear. I need a swear box tonight

Note the absence of new novelty smileys - I'm not feeling fucking festive!

Worse still - I am now starting to think will I ever be

yes it has hasn't it - I can so clearly remembering thinking this time last year... hmm not sure if I want to be pg this month as I don't want to be 7 weeks at christmas as it'll just be a worry..... and obviously i wasn't and here we are a year later and still not. This year I'm thinking - will I be by NEXT Christmas..

Yes I was thinking how strange it is that I have had such a shit year, yet it has flown by

thanks LL - I have a longish cycle but CD1 always seems to come around v. quickly.

Hi Wheely Sorry you are on CD1 again

HI all - so this is where you're all hiding (Wheely peers over contact lenses at the ttc after m/c posse) - think this may well be my spiritual home at the mo. CD1 AGAIN. Cycle, can't remember. Arse.

Hello to those who don't know me - in a nutshell, I had a m/c July 06 and have been ttc ever since. Have a dd who is 3 next month.

Will give it one more month and then we're going to book a skiing holiday - missed it last season as I would have been due in March and then thought I'd be pg again and then couldn't face the idea of it when neither occurred but this year I've had enough of life on hold.

I so wish I could give up trying.

Ha Ha. We shall see later!

Well sorry to disappoint but you are not even nearly nuts - I speak with authority

I am with you there Lady. Whole tub of B&J. Still feel crap, oh well.
I shall let you know what they tell me. Probably that I am nuts If they only knew the half of it!!!

I have been feeling very miserable tonight. I don't know if it was the -ve digital opk that sparked it, but as I am only CD11 I shouldn't be getting upset really. I think it might have more to do with the knowledge that I would be 8 months pg at this stage. With January nearly upon us I feel quite low.

Ronshar - hope you get some answers with the allergy testing. I thought about getting this done too.

Mich - I'm 36 next month, so similar age. It's good that you are an optimist - helps you to change the emphasis from "no live babies yet?" to "no live babies yet" - iyswim

My DH is also a much better cook than me. He really enjoys it. But he loves chips. I do not. I am a pasta girl. Either way they make me fatter than I should be so whatever, as my DD1 tells me all the time

Chips and gravy Lissie. Yummy. I can always make room for that.
Symptom spot away, I am the last person to tell you otherwise. Just be realistic about your chances. I am telling my self it is better to not get pregnant again until I have got some answers from the quacks. That is just a smoke screen mind you. I am getting desparate again. I can feel it riseing up inside me like a poison.

My dh is a much better cook than me but even I can whip up something from Nigella Express. Saying that my favourite meal is Fishfinger Sandwiches so I'm envious of your DD's this evening, somehow I don't think DH would thank me for it

lol we are having pork chops and chips with gravy

might pop onto the mc thread. just finding it tough to be positive and dont want to "infect" them. no word from hospital yet finding it tough not to symptom spot

I love Nigella as she really doesnt give a shit does she! I have never read an Annabell Karmel book in my life. I firmly believe my DDs have only made it to 8 & 3 because I never cooked for them as babies. What wrong with HIPP jars???