The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

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Shreksmissus - I hear you! I've browsed the work police on maternity benefits and such over and over the last few months. Wishful thinking, on my part, I guess.
DH & I talked about me being a SAHM when we had our second baby, but we haven't had the baby yet. We did have 2 miscarriages, and it has made me feel like it's never going to happen. So we decided at the end of May, I'm going to be SAHM regardless, as DS is 18 months and I don't want to miss this time at home with him just because we're waiting (still) to have another baby. But good grief this ttc is draining emotionally - and I'm so tired of it! I just want to get pregnant and have a baby - it's not like I'm trying to bring about world peace or anything! Why does it have to be soooooo difficult!!

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Hi, just popping in - not good day, not bad.. just rather blah. Viksam, never had, so can't help with advice, but hope it all goes well with minimum discomfort during and after.
I am not prepared to give up TTC, but does anyone else feel like they are blocking out their lives in 2 week increments?? 2 weeks waiting to ovulate, then 2 weeks waiting to see if you're pregnant. And I can tell myself I won't obsess, but it's not possible to just shut off that part of the brain. And I'm trying to cut down on chocolate and caffeine - so basically miserable on that score!

Hi guys, i posted on here ages ago hope u dont mind me coming in again. I totally understand about the DH thing, mine would have been horrified to have had to do his sample at the hospital, it took me long enough to talk him into it in the first place!
I have taken up a cancelled appointment at the hospital tomorrow for a lap and dye, i have had 2 appointments cancelled recently due to hospital being over full. I am a little nervouse and unsure of what to expect, any advice anyone??

hi perky, can't he just do it there? hope the wrist injury isn't related in anyway.

so much chat without me - i was busy sitting in shitty meetings with shitty people bliss!

Just wolfed late lunch so feel sick and fat and too indigested to go to gym hah!

I also am in denial - though cos cycles so weird never know where I am (popsy grabs diary to check)...I am currently on cd26 of a 35-48 length cycle and had ewcm on cd7-10 didn't believe could be right so didn't make an attempt to get at it fecking brilliant

herby you have special dispenation to be ultra f-d off with it all from me - is like being a milk monitor or a ftc tsar - we all need a reminder that we're not the most unlucky person we know (infact my BF has been told at 32 that has no eggs after chemo 7 years ago - thing is they tested her last year and were fine...I am so angry at the blase way they told her, that they made her wait 6 years before they got round to fertility treatment which she had to fight tooth and nail for cos they said you'll be fine - bastards ! - she is my pull yourself together pops reality check - oh and ronny of course)

Off home to feed DH steak, brocolli and zinc tablets in prep for tomoz - he is cycling his swimmers to the hozzy (with a broken wrist - i could write a bloody book on this i tell you) cos you have to have them there by nine and within half an hour of doing the deed so to speak - is an hour in car in rush hour so impossible - I really really hope they are okay cos I think he'll be devastated - i think I can cope with it better if me if you know what i mean

have a good evening ladies
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Oh, and duchesse. Sorry if I snapped at you. It was just a bad moment. There's no monopoly on despondency in the hut, after all!

I can imagine that in a couple of years, biology and weariness with the whole shebang will mean I'll really, actually, give up in my head, rather than just pretending to, so that it will happen by accident! If you know what I mean...

I'm also looking at adoption, and I think the process of going through that will mean I can let go of the ttc business naturally.

sorry duchesse. reason i ask is that i set myself a deadline of next month and not sure if i should stick to it or not.

anyone listening to the book of the week on radio 4 'waiting for daisy'?

duchesse - how on earth do you give up. i did try to but the pointless hoping continued.

herb - i soo know aobut fueling the fires of madness i bought 50 (yes 50) cheapo tests off ebay last week specifically for the crazy fire.

Oh, and to answer your kind enquiries ladies, AF still not here. Was due yesterday. Boob inflation going up and down like a whore's drawers. Funny pinching pains here and there. Bawled my eyes out in kitchen last night about lost babies.

Lord only knows what's going on. Can't bring myself to test, as if it's negative all the 'is it too early' uncertainty will just fuel the fires of madness.

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Er... Duchesse. That's me. No kids, probably ever. And having a career doesn't come close to being recompense.

The mad bad crazy world of baby making!!!

even teh month dh was away i convinced myself the 'boys' could hang out for a few days.

Yes I fool myself it will happen each month

You are in exactly the right place for that kind of thinking!
We all tell ourselves this month will be different but to our endless surprise it is still SHITE. We are still not pregnant. They tell us it is all down to luck. I say luck is rubbish

August birthdays are great. It rains every year. Oh apart from last year it rained that night!

can i just ask if everyone on here is relentlessly optimistic - cos i am. i say relentless cos every month i convince myself it is going to happen and am shattered when itisn't.

I think we should just skip January too. I can have my birthday in the summer instead