TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 30 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

Feeling very emotional today, feeling terrified that I'll lose this baby too. At tea my toddler said 'I think mummy tired' which I think sums up how I've been today. I tried to go to bed early but then my stomach decided it was hungry so just had a second tea of cottage pie.

Shame you didn't get your curry @InDreamland, hope your headache is gone tomorrow.

@InDreamland I pretty much go off food for 20 weeks 🙈
Generally potato waffles and chocolate/crisps are my saviour.

Lol @Treaclepie19 what do you crave when pregnant?

@hayleyfx thank you. Wow, 6+6 is lovely news. Glad to hear you're getting regular scans. Does it help to keep anxiety at bay? Hope you're feeling well.

@Frillyfarmer thank you x

@Mistymeow @KnitKitty lol, funny that I actually craved curry a lot in my first pregnancy, I couldn't get enough of it. DH didn't want curry tonight so ended up at another restaurant and had BBQ ribs with sweet potato fries, yummy, but would've preferred a curry. I do remember getting some headaches before when pregnant. Ah well. Can't complain. I am going to just see what happens given AF isn't due for another 2-3 days.

So did anyone have curry?

I'm helping out at the church tomorrow and it can be physical work at times. Hope I shake this headache. Also got gym class tomorrow morning.

Eat your curry!
I go off curry when I'm pregnant 😱

@InDreamland Headaches can be a pregnancy symptom. It could also be the anxiety, so make sure you're doing anything you can to relax your body even if you can't relax your mind.
I always fancy curry when I'm pregnant... In fact you've made me want one now...

@InDreamland 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 third time lucky for you xxx

@indreamland the headache is likely to be hormonal.

EAT THE CURRY!!

@InDreamland that’s definitely a line! I’m so excited for you. Keeping everything crossed. Good luck!

@Boboelephant I had no idea you were pregnant... and with twins!! How amazing. I’m so happy for you, I know all the struggles you went through and you totally deserve this. I’m glad all is going well. Such lovely news x

Thanks everyone 🥰 had another scan today as I couldn’t help myself 🤣 baby now measuring 6+6, 8-9mm and little heartbeat still there 😁 next scan is in 1 and a half weeks.

@KnitKitty @Beaglemum93 @AliceRR @Treaclepie19 @Mistymeow thank you. All the ladies here really are the best. Amazing how a bunch of strangers can be so amazingly supportive.

So I think the anxiety is getting to me. Had a headache all day. I thought I was dehydrated but have drunk 2 litres so can't be that now.

Fancy a curry though for dinner.

@indreamland this is exactly why the thread exists so please don’t feel you are being selfish! Definite pink lines and I am tentatively excited for you. The strip tests have hardly any dye in them but I can still see something on it. I think you are wise to wait until Monday if you can, because by that time you should get a clearer line. You need that reassurance. So take it one day at a time and good luck!
@alicerr I think we can all relate to your post. It’s very easy to get obsessed with ttc after a loss but it’s very detrimental to your mental health and can cause delayed ovulation and further stress. After my last loss I’ve focussed on mindfulness which is helping. I hope you’re feeling ok.
@rubyroot sorry to hear of your losses. Glad you are currently pregnant but understand your worry. There are a few ladies on this thread in early pregnancy who are also very anxious.

@InDreamland you're not being selfish!
We're all here to support each other.
Will be keeping everything crossed for you.

@InDreamland Thank you. Those are all positives so I really hope it sticks for you 🤞 xx

@InDreamland tentative congratulations! Fingers crossed for you that this is the one. Third time lucky - that's what I keep trying to tell myself!

@InDreamland Stay strong. It's early days. I understand you not feeling hopeful, but miracles DO happen. We can do all your hoping for you for now. Big hugs xxx

@KnitKitty @Pop1234 @Bluebelltulip @Russkispy thank you. I think after the terrible news on Tuesday I just don't believe this will result in our rainbow. The results mean that this is more likely than not to turn into loss #3. Given AF is due Monday I think I need to wait to see if next week I get a proper clear line rather than these faint ones. Must try focus on other things (like that's going to happen).

I'm so sorry I've been so selfish this morning filling up the thread with my anxiety.

Hope you're all okay today and the pregnant ladies are having lots of morning sickness x

@InDreamland definitely lines in all tests. Tentative congratulations! Everything crossed for you!

@InDreamland I can definitely see faint lines which as you aren't due till Monday is good. Hopefully early next week you can get a darker line. Wishing you the best of luck.

@InDreamland definitely a BFP! Fingers crossed this is going to be your rainbow 🌈 🤞

@InDreamland I used the little dip-stick one which was INCREDIBLY faint and then an FRER which was definitely positive. Looks like your other IC is a bit more sensitive than the dip-stick and seems to be picking up the same amount of HCG as the FRER. There's no mistaking that there is a line there! I have absolutely everything crossed for you.

Sorry for all the posts. Is this one better? I'm super anxious now. Why did I test?

Thanks @KnitKitty. It's so hard to take a decent photo of faint lines. The ones this morning are faint but unmistakable at same time. Definitely pink lines on IC and FRER but nothing on the little dip stick IC but that one is 25mlu whereas IC stick and FRER are more sensitive.

I'm 10 or 11 DPO. AF due Monday I think.

Right, my tests this morning. Took the same IC type and got a more noticeable pink line so cracked open a FRER. This is the result using same sample. There is definitely a pink line on the FRER too but is very very faint but definitely a line. I think?

@AliceRR I will (next post will be this morning's tests ........and yes I opened a FRER). I agree it is important to try and enjoy your life. After 4 years of TTC and getting nothing I decided to just go have fun and a year later I was pregnant, ok so we lost the baby but we got pregnant. Fx you get your rainbow very very soon.

@rubyroot sorry for your losses. You're in the right place for support, all the ladies here are so lovely.