Over 40 TTC - lots of baby dust for us...3!

Sending lots of hugs @EllieJaye ❤️❤️

Just a quick update from me. Clearblue Digital is still only showing 1-2 weeks since conception since the first one I did 11 days ago.

Cheaper tests are showing similar results over the last few days but not progression. A little fainter today if anything. They've never shown a really strong positive

I know there are success stories around this kind of thing but I'm a realist after 2 previous miscarriages and those stories are wonderful exceptions but not the most likely outcome.
I'm now 26dpo, 5 weeks 3 days in. Hcg should be doubling at its fastest rate at this point.

I really didn't want to have to go to the doctors but I think I need my levels confirming now so I can prepare myself. Hope for a natural end this time. I so desperately don't want to have to face going to hospital again.

Urgh. So fed up :'(

I decided yesterday to start ovulation testing agin after 3 days of increasing ewcm. I had low fertility yesterday and high today! I ran out of strips earlier in this cycle (13-18 May had high before I ran out). Guessing my body tried to ovulate but couldn't? Maybe spotting last week was some odd breakthrough bleeding? More confused than ever.

@MaryShelley1818 I had my first aged 39 too. Wishing you lots of luck x

Hi@MaryShelley1818 our first are about the same age- aren't they just wonderful at this age?! I also had my first at 39

@BooseysMom it wasn't me, just back from a late shift, on early tomorrow.. will catch up properly tomorrow... sending lots of love ladies 💕

Welcome @MaryShelley1818 and good luck 💐

Welcome @MaryShelley1818 always room! Wishing you all the best ❤️

Sorry to hear about your experience with PND - not dissimilar to mine...we didn't start trying again until DD was over a year...it took me that long just to start sort of feeling like myself again.

Lots of lovely ladies on here and babies! xx

Hi ladies! Room for another one?
Congratulations on the BfPs and beautiful babies so far, definitely gives me hope.

I turned 41 last month and am currently ttc#2. I got together with DH Sept 2016 (childhood sweetheart I hadn’t seen for 12yrs), CP in Dec 2016, then got pregnant with DS 3mths later and gave birth at 39 in December 2017.
Got married in December 2018 and DS turned 1 so started ttc for a sibling for him straight after. Unfortunately I had a terrible breakdown in January due to building PND and crippling anxiety so we put our plans on hold for me to get better and now that I’m genuinely feeling 100% again we’ve been trying again for a couple of months.

I’m absolutely desperate for a sibling for DS but if it doesn’t happen and always feel just so lucky that I have my little boy. He’s the light of my life.

Oh Orchid, of course! I'd forgotten her. I remember sending a few msgs to see if she responded but nothing. Yes, I hope she's ok

I think it was orchid. She had IVF then disappeared. Hopefully she got a BFP and didn't tell us so as not jinx it, thar has happened before, people have vanished then comee back 9 months later with a birth announcement 🤣

@KristieP2018 so sorry it's BFN after all. Just sucks.
@sheshootssheimplores sorry you had BFN too. Onwards and upwards.
@BooseysMom thought it was @orchid. She just disappeared. I remembered she said she would get back to us to tell her TTC outcome. But never seen her since. Hope she's ok.
@mellongoose so sorry you're leaving. Take care of yourself

Who started the very first thread? Was it Chat or Cleo or someone else? It's been going so long I can't remember!

@KristieP2018.. sorry you have a bfn. It's esp tough when you have had the spotting and faint line. It's so strange as I have all the symptoms of ovulation but never a BFP .. I think it must be Peri knocking on my door. I've had more than enough time seeing as I'm 47 and am blessed to have DS.

@mellongoose.. sorry to hear you're leaving us and it is indeed a very brave decision to make. I wish you so much love & happiness .. i will miss you on this thread x

I'm at this moment sitting close to two new mums and am in silent tears knowing I'm at the point in my life where I'm on the verge of peri. But i'm trying to console myself with the fact that DS has just shown me he can swim using floats which I've never seen before. This after just two school lessons! He has never wanted to learn before. So a first today for him.

Love to all x

AF here for me too yesterday. Felt okay as I tested around 9/10 dpo and was negative. So I was just waiting for the witch to appear 🤭

This cycle was 26 days long, last cycle (chemical pregnancy) 28 days long. Still feeling good re. the HRT as previously my cycles were between 23-26 days long.

Just confirming. Bfn on clearblue. Even took a digital too to make my brain believe it and it said not pregnant. Hopefully af will come soon and whatever is causing my symptoms will go away.

@mellongoose I’m not sure if that’s the right word, but I think you’ve made a hard and very brave decision.

I really hope you find true peace.

Woke up to AF. Finally here! CD1 and TTC naturally this cycle and if nothing we start preparations for DE next cycle, with potential embryo transfer in August.
@KristieP2018 hope the line gets darker!

I ended up taking my other frer and there was a slightly more noticeable line but still can't see much. I thought it was pink. I've now convinced myself I didn't ovulate. Had ewcm last two days so I took another cb ovulation test this morning but it still shows low fertility. My cb hpt will be here later today and I'll test once with those. I have no clue what that spotting was a week ago. [Sad] It's so stupid to have all these symptoms and not be pregnant. I wonder if peri is trying to get me now.

Thinking of you mellon, it's not easy coming to the decision, especially after what you have been through x

Thank you @Constance1234 @BooseysMom and @karryk . Big group hug , that would be nice 🤗🤗

Lots of hugs and love @Russkispy and @MellonGoose ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Sending hugs to all who need them. This journey is hard 

Hi ladies,

Just checking in to say I think I'm checking out. I turned 43 last week and DH will be 50 next year. The loss of our precious little girl has put the frightners on us. We simply cannot go through it again.

We have DD (4). She's my world. I've spent the last week testing out my new decision on my everyday life. It feels ok. I've let go.

My delivery should have been a couple of weeks ago. It was really hard. My mum made her a memorial stone which now sits on my GP's grave. She's not coming back and I have to be ok with that.

I want to re-emphasise that the spina bifida was NOT age related. If we have a happy accident and everything goes ok then I might be back on here! But I think I have stopped striving for it.

Baby dust to all of you. Thank you for your kind words and support during my darkest months. I wish you all every happiness. I'm sure I'll still be reading 😉 xxx

@Russkispy.. sending you a virtual hug and wishing DD happy birthday for Sunday. Hold her close x