Still TTC your first baby? New thread for toomuch's mobile!!

Poppy - is you dh really keen now? Mine wanted to wait until he was older for so long but now that we've decided he is really excited about it all!!

Fi - very jealous of your day at Legoland! What sort of qualifications do you need to become a nanny//childminer/whatever you are (no offence intended - just not sure what to call you)

Padfoot - positive thinking is good!! Just think of the perfect timing for you hols! When are you going to take the clomid?

MT - what kind of a show were you doing? I'm very impressed by how much you do - I need to become more pro-active!!

Thanks MT

Padfoot - are you on clomid because you are not ovulating?? What are the indications for it???

Hi. Just in from doing show (extra hobby that helps pay some bills). Just realised what this looks like. Cooking Show. (Pampered Chef). I now smell slightly of garlic (yum yum) and pesto. Nothing like having a nearly full time job, lots of extra hobbies, 2yo and doing that, but its fun when its going well....

Padfoot - sounds like good news, hope it goes well for you, certainly worked for a friend who (in the profession) thought that she would need more intervention. Happy bonging on holiday!

Poppy/Toomuch - very good friends of ours were trying when we first were - and we were all taking some time. I had my 1st mc in August, followed by 3 months of not getting better then eventually (after several visits to the Doctor (Oh it will sort itself out)) having 2nd D&C and then carted off to Sheffield for chemo for molar pregnancy. It was completely devastating to find out that she was pregnant. Dh told me on New Years Eve - on the basis that all the shit was in one year, and, hopefully, the following year couldn't be so bad. Although I wanted to feel pleased for her, it was so hard, and, despite knowing that she had been trying for a similar time and hadn't had a straightforward time, it still felt unfair that it wasn't me.

Now, despite ds, (but following 2nd mc) it still feels unfair when I see someone with two or more children smoking or giving clearly inappropriate food to todlers.

So you're not alone.

Fi: sounds great. Can't wait to take ds there, although might leave it for a few years so that he can appreciate it a bit better. However, please don't think it's necessarily all roses. As you can imagine, after our problem start, we love ds to bits and feel incredibly lucky (we had decided that we'd try to adopt if molar pregnancy came back, so didn't count on getting our own (genetically) child. However, its not always smooth going... There are times when he drives me spare, and I sometimes have to walk away (at the weekend when dh is there - but have to cope on days off) - he is an individual with his own mind and it can be very difficult at times. I find that its harder work on my 'days off' than it is when I am at work, even though I have a profession that is challenging and interesting.

I'm here now but I guess you've gone oh well.
I'm on CD1 again AF arrived on CD18 Grrr! On a positive note I can start clomid tomorrow and we'll be bonging on holiday (when I was expecting AF to arrive) so not all bad (can you tell I'm desperately trying to find a positive angle to all this?)

boo-hoo.

no-one around!

K then, off for a bath and early bed..am shattered!!!!

Hello, hope you all had your washes you smelly lot ( at padfoot and toomuch!)

now heres a story to make you jealous-

Today i spent the whole day at legoland! I started work at 8.15am and finished at 7.30pm because we got stuck in traffic, but i dont mind because i had the best time ever and my chrages had giggly fits and smiles all day! I love my job, I love kids, and I just want to say girls this is what its all about- beautiful children! I cant wait (hope!) for it to happen to me and all of you!

lots of lovely legoland luck (o.k, im clutching at every ounce of luck i find, and seeing as there were thousands of children around me today, im sure some positive energy was absorbed!)

Now then, anyone around for a chat? or have i missed you all?

Feeling much better now have ditched the prep and enjoying a beer!! Hurrah heres to getting fat eating fried food and living on the sofa!!!!

Has anyone heard from Treenie???

Toomuch- boys don't seem to get the same urges as us, mine took alot of convincing as well.

Thanks for the hug MT - I know I haven't been trying for long but I've longed for a baby for a couple of years now but it's only been the last month that DH was ready to start trying so it seems like longer!

Poppy - good luck with the interview prep! Know what you mean - it seems like everyone is pregnant at the moment other than us!

Toomuch - it is really difficult when your friends are pregnant because you are really genuinely happy for them but then you get this sadness for yourself. My best friend is 5 months pregnant now and I'm so pleased for her but after we meet up it leaves me feeling alittle empty.

Glad I'm not the only one. Just came back from an appointment at the hospital, they are going to refer me on as it's been a year now. To get to the main entrance I have to weave my way past 5 or 6 heavily pregnant people who were chain smoking outside. Not in the best frame of mind to deal with it.

Feel really fed up with it all and would love to have a break from work and just do travelling for awhile. Instead am trying to finish prep for an interview I have next week to get a promotion. Heart is definately not in it!!!

Toomuch - ((((hugs))))

Also feeling a bit jealous as I've just had lunch with 2 pregnant friends!! Very of their bumps

I feel really sorry for the poor babies! What chance have they got if their mothers don't even care when they are cute little babies..

Its unfair isn't it.

Thank goodness I am not the only one who feels aggrieved when I see poor excuses for parents!

Once in a supermarket carpark I made a loud comment about a woman pushing her child with a cigarette in her hand right next to their head.
My DH was ushering me along as quickly as he could. Bless him.

That is so true, a friend of a friend fell pg after being told she could not have children because she had had Chylmidia (can't spell that but you know what I mean) she smoked, took drugs and drank. She had a perfectly healthy baby.

Now she nevers looks after the baby it is always with the grandparents. He has never slept in a cot, as a baby he was allowed to sleep in a car seat. I know I should not judge but it seems so unfair that she should be blessed with a baby.

BB! If it hurts then it must be doing some good! I really need to start getting fit before I get my bfp otherwise I'm doomed I know what you mean about body image and I'm not that bad I just wish I was a couple of stone lighter and had a flat belly

Poppy/MT - I know what you mean about maybe being too healthy - the people who seem to fall pregnant at the drop of a hat seem to be the chainsmoking alcoholic grease lovers - so unfair!! But never mind - we'll get there in the end!

Its something that I found really difficult after 1st mc (before ds arrived) - and, in fact, before that when we'd been trying ages and nothing had happened. At this stage I was quite fit, not much overweight (ie thin for me!), drinking very moderately, eating well, not smoking..... Then there was a secretary at work who 'accidently' got pg and when she was clearly pregnant, saw her in the bar at lunchtime sharing a bottle of wine with a colleage (yes, a bottle between them at lunchtime - and she was having at least her share) and chain smoking. It just felt so unfair.

Even now I have to restrain myself from commenting to mothers I see pushing pushchairs and smoking over their children (or feeding them packets of normal crisps when they are clearly under 2 etc etc etc)

Sorry, rant over for the morning!

Baby bratt - definately agree with you. I see lots of different bodies in my job and no-one ever seems to like their own body.

I have given up on the gym as well as have aggravated back and am hobbling around. Look like an 80 year old.

Did anyone see the 'we're killing our kids' prog on Monday (very sad watching these type of progs). There was a women who ate deep fried chips everyday and smoked 20 a day and was getting pregnant left right and centre. Sometimes think we are too healthy! Maybe I should start drinking more, not exercising and slobbing on sofa!! Hurrah sound like loads more fun!!!

Right well I am now convinced that the gym is bad for you. My muscles are so stiff I cannot move.

Radio went well. Although I talk through my nose so I constantly sound like I have a cold.

Im very envious about your veggie patch MT.

Nice to see you Ready

Toomuch I have discovered since working in the shop that women have a very distorted sense of self, the reflection we see in the mirror is not how others see us! I am sure you are not fat and frumpy

Hi to everyone else.

Ready - yes feeling fine! Relaxed after my crazy start to the week wondering every minute whether I was pregnant but I'm hoping that that was just a one of crazy episode

Pm - yes stay with us and share everything!!

Toomuchtimeonline - I am ok? How about yourself? Relaxed I hope?

PinkMartini - Stay here as long as you need to. Very excited for you!!

Aw PM - We've got everything crossed for you to have a carefree happy pregnancy! Enjoy!

Thanks everyone -

Feel all fuzzy all over and desperate to tell everyone but holding my tongue (Very difficult for me) Certainly don't feel like I belong in the AN thread - this is my home!

Have been having lots of AF like twinges - now on the 8ww - have made docs appt haven't got a clue what else but everything feels very unreal.

You're right though, it must have been the Glastonbury luck.

Hey Ready [huuuuge wave] How are you?

MT - Sounds fab!! You should be very proud of doing your own raised bed - I'm very