TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 29 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's!

Thinking of you today @Russkispy xxxx

@Russkispy I'm so so sorry. I hope you are getting all the support you need. I know what you mean about your DC being so precious. Whilst we still hurt and grieve so much for the ones we have lost, we are so unbelievably lucky for the ones we have.

@frillyfarmer I hope that the bleeding stops/eases up and that it is not what you think. I have my fingers crossed for you.

@VenusStarr it’s difficult AF is a reminder you’re not pg but positive your cycle is showing signs of being healthy

@ruskippy I am so sorry you’ve had such sad news. Look after one another

@frillyfarmer fingers crossed everything is ok for you

What a sh*t day

Look after yourselves xx

@KnitKitty hello again lovely to hear from you! I'm glad to hear you finally have a treatment plan and are feeling about starting to try again. In terms of projects to keep you occupied I'm doing a postgraduate diploma which is keeping me pretty busy but not so great for the stress levels 😂 I find gardening really therapeutic, especially fruit and veg which can be done even in small pots in small gardens or balconies etc.

@Boboelephant really pleased to hear your update, please keep us updated about how you are. After the journey you had to getting pregnant again you give me hope that it might happen one day even for us old cheeses

@russksipy @frillyfarmer really sorry to hear your news, this world is so cruel. I hope you have lots of support surrounding you in real life.

@Russkispy I'm so so sorry. What sad news. This is just so shit. Sending you lots of hugs!

@FrillyFarmer sorry about the bleeding, really hope it's okay and bean is still tucked away safely. Hope you can see someone at EPU soon.

@Russkispy I'm so sorry to read this. Please look after yourself!

@frillyfarmer same applies, although I'm praying this bleeding doesn't mean the worst. Please take great care of yourself x

Big hugs @frillyfarmer xxx be kind to yourself xxx

Thank you for all your messages and support! It means a lot 😢
@frillyfarmer sorry to read this.

@MyHeartIsBrokeButIHaveSomeGlue @Mistymeow thanks ladies. I know you're both right - I did bleed quite a bit with DS, but it's getting progressively heavier so I'm fairly confident it's another early loss for me. I'm just so low right now, I cant believe it's happened again.

@frillyfarmer obviously no one can say for sure and I don't want to give you false hope but I have been pregnant three times (excluding this week's positive test which I am still ignoring). With my MC last year there was no bleeding until after scan revealed at 10 weeks baby had stopped growing. With ectopic I bled constantly from 4.5 weeks until surgery. But with my only successful pregnancy I bled all the way through until 24 weeks. Sometimes massively. I know that I can't know for sure but just to show how every pregnancy can be so different. I am keeping all crossed for you xxxxxx

@russkispy I am so sorry to read this. I really thought this was it for you. What a rubbish road you've been on. I hope from now on things start to look up, and I'm so glad you have your DD and DH looking after you.
@Daisyboo70 I hope this is your BFP, good luck! The lines can look quite faint early on.
@frillyfarmer oh no, I'm sorry to hear that. You're doing the right thing seeing the GP for blood tests. I really hope its just an irritated cervix and not a miscarriage. I won't say "bleeding can be normal in early pregnancy" because when you've already miscarried you have no faith that any spotting can be "normal". Glad you are at home resting. Please let us know how you're doing.

What is it with unsympathetic medical staff this week. I noticed this weekend that the medication I was taking to help DDs heart was still on my repeat list. I was not expecting it to still be there. Cardiologist took me off it as soon as DD died. I went to GP surgery to get it removed and was told I need a GP appointment, managed to downgrade it to a telephone one. What has really annoyed me is that the receptionist was not sympathetic to my upset at all. I understand she evidently can't do it but she could have been nicer about it.

On the TTC front AF is due somewhere between Friday and Sunday, and IL's are here for the weekend so I think I'm going to test Friday morning so I hopefully don't need to do while they are here.

@Daisyboo70 yeah it's following more or less the same pattern as my MC in Jan. I've got a blood test with GP tomorrow and then they will monitor my HCG depending on how the bleeding progresses. At the moment it's more than spotting but nothing like a period, coupled with the dreaded back pain which for me is never good news early on.

I've come home, I was getting emotional and we have clients in the office this afternoon. I'm just so gutted, and I'm terrified there is something wrong with my fucking body. Twice this year and it's only just May. Give me a fucking break.

@frillyfarmer it happened to me at 5wks in February, I found my gp rubbish and rang the local epu. Unfortunately for me it wasn't good news. But they do say some ladies bleed in early pregnancy. Stay positive and ask you surgery for you local epu number

@VenusStarr no follow up scheduled I'm going to check again in 2 days if af doesn't show.

@Russkispy so very sorry! Thinking of you! So unfair and totally shitty x

@Russkispy I'm so so sorry. Heartbreaking news.

I hope this is genuine too @Daisyboo70, do you have any follow up with the doctor about taking the clomid? Are you going to test again tomorrow?

Sorry to hear you're bleeding @frillyfarmer. I probably would contact the GP but totally understand if you don't

How are you feeling today @MyHeartIsBrokeButIHaveSomeGlue?

@Russkispy I feel heartbroken for you. I'm so sorry that life can be so cruel and fucking unfair!! My DD has always been my strength, our little miracles. Lots of cuddles and keep posting on here. Sending you much love xxx

@frillyfarmer you poor thing. It could all be absolutely fine but I know that feeling of doom. Can you make an excuse and go home if you don't want to be at work? Is it heavy bleeding or just when you wipe?

@VenusStarr opk and femometer say I ov'd on the 16th, we took clomid day 5-9. I'm hoping it's not a corpus luteum cyst and is genuine but I don't feel the same as I did last time

Thanks for asking after me @Mistymeow I started bleeding this morning at 5+3. I'm at work, I honestly don't know what to do. I've got a tonne of papers to chuck myself into but I don't know whether it's even worth calling the GP at this early stage. I'm fucking angry at my body right now, haven't really processed it yet.

@Russkispy I'm so so sorry, look after yourself xx

Fingers crossed @Daisyboo70 🤞 do you track ovulation? It could be you're slightly later this month. Hope you get positive news.

Oh @Russkispy I am so so sorry 💔 I'm so sad for you. Sending lots of love ❤️❤️ Xx