I hate the ttc process

I found it fucking awful and really hated waiting to see if my period would come. I actually started to dread that week each month.

Hey, know how you feel, at 39 we’d been trying since sep 2017 and not even a sniff. I was hoping after using ovulation kits, having HSG, trying IUI, doing acupuncture with Chinese medicine, SPEM plan, clomid but nothing. Then found out last summer I have cysts on left ovary and possibly endo, had laparoscopy last Oct to remove, still nothing.

I’ve been so pilled up on pregnacare and other supplements but don’t have any joy. Given hubby green juices, pills and lots of Brazil nuts (which he wouldnt always eat or drink) and getting frustrated with him when he wouldnt always perform.

As a person who doesn’t always reveal such personal journeys, to my surprise I stupidly broke down in front of my MIL and SIL last spring (we aren’t close but get on) as to ttc journey and tbh since then been trying to avoid subject when MIL brings up (she’s only done twice) SIL is more sensitive and won’t quiz.

And my mum, every time I visit her she will ask “what’s going on?” I put on brave face but really I’m dying inside as it may never happen.

I hate the fertile window and honestly have lost patience that I’m starting to not give a damn BUT then that pang comes back! Likely hubby and I will have to try IVF in summer. We won’t be telling anyone about IVF as that will be too stressful.

Virtual hugs ladies 🤗

TTC is really difficult, I'm not as far time wise are in to the journey as you are OP & others but didn't want to read and run

Got invited to a friends last weekend for a hold of her newborn and got to feed him 😥 and meeting another friend this weekend with her 8 month old. 2 girls at work are about to go off on mat leave so it's baby chat central...aaah 😪

I feel your pain too. Been ttc 1st baby for 2 years in May. Aged 34, all investigations fine, offered IVF if no success by then. Seems like a friend or colleague is announcing a new pregnancy every week and it's getting harder. Also the double whammy...work in Maternity so there is literally no escape. Just keep swimming...x

It's awful isn't it.
There are some threads on here for people trying to conceive. May give you a fresh enthusiasm?
Good luck, I read once that someone else's success doesn't increase your delay. But I struggle to be around babies.
Good luck x

I hated it too. I get really stressed about it and then stress about the stress ruining things, if that makes sense!

Sorry to hear you’re struggling I hope you get some answers soon.

I'm 33 and been trying for over 18months have an infertility appt on Tuesday which I'm dreading the nearer it gets.

Its so crap. X

Have you used the clearblue ovulation tests yet? Using them was the only way I found out that I actually ovulated a few days late (and sometimes a lot late!)
The cheaper store ones never worked for me so if you haven't yet I'd recommend them! They aren't cheap though but it's worth it. Good luck!

I do totally get you. Not everyone talks about their journey and so it feels like people do just get pregnant at the click of a finger.

How long have you been ttc?