The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

Opening evening sounds great @BettySwoll0cks - nice idea to meet a consultant in a non commital environment. Hope it goes well

Just had an accident leading my horse in from the field... he spooked and I fell, my jeans are ripped to shreds and I've properly cut my knees & grazed my wrists to elbow. I'm pretty sure I landed on knees and elbows not stomach but it happened so quickly I'm not 100% sure. Having a proper panic now, I really hope everything is ok 😢😢

@BettySwoll0cks open evening sounds interesting, hope you find a good consultant I hope my body decides what it’s doing soon!

No news either way yet @Bentley111 I am utterly shattered though so taking that as a good sign 🤞

Thanks for asking @Bentley111, it went fine thanks I got her to print out all the tests and results that I've had so far so that I can take them along to the consultant appt (whenever that may be). I'm going to the fertility clinic open evening in a fortnight's time and will get to meet the consultants and find out a bit more about what they offer - almost certain I will go for an initial consultation privately as the NHS waiting times are murder.

How did your appt go @Betty?

Any news @Dartmoor?

Awwww @DartmoorDoughnut fingers crossed for you, but I've had that 3 times now, vvfl then a late, heavy period. I also assume that it's a chemical when it happens. A huge hug and lets hope either the line gets stronger pronto, or AF comes so you can move on with a new cycle x

Yep @Bentley111 I’m thinking chemical tbh

@InDreamland oh bless you 😢 everything crossed you get your rainbow baby soon

I only DTD on CD14, not 100% on ov, thought it was then but had lots of watery CM from CD14 up until CD19 so anyone’s guess really! Either way AF should’ve shown up on the 29th April ...

I feel your frustration @Dartmoor - this is exactly the situation I had last month. I did put it down to a chem in the end when AF finally decided to show 5 days later.
It could be a late implant? They do say you implant anywhere between 6-12dpo.

@InDreamland - keep strong,
You're doing all the right things visiting clinics and having treatment, all variables that weren't present last year? It sounds like the Lister is great so I'm sure they'll look after you and do everything in their power to ensure you're not a stat xx

Thanks @Bentley111 and @DartmoorDoughnut. I wonder if I'm getting super anxious and down about it all because of the 3 pregnancy bombs recently plus this cycle last year was the one I got my first BFP but ended in MC #1. I just really wanted to be pregnant again with no.3 and my rainbow by now. With July approaching fast and due date of baby no.2 being the same date as the first anniversary of mc #1 my head is just all over the place and so scared I'll be that statistic that just has no luck.

@DartmoorDoughnut how many DPO are you now? You're not out until the witch shows. Fx for you.

@Bentley111 this photo was dead on the 3minutes, there is definitely something there, would be easier to cope if there was a definite -ve tbh, this limbo is so confusing

@InDreamland you're on the right path... with a bit of luck the antibiotics will do their job and the acupuncture will work too. 39 isn't old! So many women have babies well into their 40's, you have every chance x

@BettySwoll0cks good luck today, I'm thinking of you x

How frustrating @DartmoorDoughnut - no af is the best sign though! There's definitely something on that test.

@InDreamland and @BettySwoll0cks big (((hugs))) TTC is shit

I have no idea what’s going on, there is a line but it’s only pale 🤷🏻‍♀️ So essentially I’m not sure if I am or not ... no AF yet going so that’s good I guess!

@BettySwoll0cks, right back at ya! Sure is shite. Glad to hear you're doing something proactive. I'm so glad we went to the Lister and got private testing done. They did push IVF but when we said we weren't at that place we got the private urologist referral which found the issue that's put us both on antibiotics which we hope will help. We've just started acupuncture too. Gotta do something to feel I'm not just carrying on like normal. TBH though I'm not confident I'll ever have a living child and will only ever be the mother to 2 angel babies. I'm 39 now too so really feel like we've lost our chance of ever having a family.

Fist bumps @InDreamland. Shit isn't it?

I had a call from Cambridge IVF today. The wait for an NHS appointment will be 18 weeks plus so I am shopping around for a private consultant appt. Just need to feel as though I'm doing everything I can to make this work. Seeing my GP in the morning so she can go through all the tests we've done so far and what it's been for (I've lost track now) and then I'll pursue the rest through the private system. I'm nearly 40 so I feel like I want to give this one last shot 😔

I'm with you @BettySwoll0cks xxx

Am I the only one left? 🙈

Tentative congratulations @Kinsters and @Bentley111. Fx for sticky beans.

@DartmoorDoughtnut hope a stronger line shows soon.

@Bentley111 wow that's great!! Congrats!!

I can definitely see something... would be a big coincidence to have 2 evaps

Just in case anyone wants to squint

Well my due date by LMP would be 6th Jan so whilst it would be amazing to be bump buddies with you and Kinsters I think realistically I’m not and my body is being weird not going to stop me POAS in the morning though!

That's somewhat positive I guess?

Considering you weren't tracking, you don't know when O was exactly so it could have been late... so hcg may just be building now.

Fx'd we'll have 3 bfp's within a week, that would be fab

I had a very very faint line, definitely looks as if it has some colour but not even as strong as yours! Admittedly it was possibly the weakest wee I’ve ever done, almost colourless but I couldn’t make myself wait! Will see what the morning brings but I’m thinking it was maybe something but not quite there IYKWIM so I’m getting faint lines as there is some hcg maybe? Fuck knows frankly but AF hasn’t turned up as she is always regular so something is going on!

Thanks Dartmoor... any news yet?

@Bentley111 amazing! Congratulations