The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

Hi ladies. Sorry I dropped off whilst on our break, I needed some time out after my birthday disaster. No sign of DH trying to make a birthday 2 yet. I hate all this, feel like I've lost all interest in anything generally. The break was good though, I needed to get away.

@ratherbeshowjumping I'm so sorry you've gone through this again, there are no words. How are you? Hope you're being looked after.

@tigsyboo your DH needs a reality check. Many pregnant women get gassy, my goodness the gas I had when I was pregnant the first time was hideous. I couldn't believe how much wind I had.

@TwittleBee glad to hear things are progressing well.

@Frazzlerock sorry you're having a difficult time. I hope your life coach can help. Be kind to yourself. Going through what we have is so hard. I find myself being more withdrawn too and I think I am a very different person to the one I was before mc#1 - people I work with who didn't know have commented but they understand when I explain about the 2 losses.

Ps @Kinsters I'm so so jealous that you're off diving 😢

Oh @tigsyboo I'm sorry you're feeling awful 🙈 as @BettySwoll0cks said, I can't imagine what he'll be like in the delivery suite!

Thanks for being so supportive everyone. I'd love to book a holiday but we've literally only just got back from one.
I'm so run down with it all, it's really beginning to get on top of me. It's taken us a year then 5 months to get a BFP, all because we just don't have enough sex. 2/3 times we have done it at the right time, I've got a BFP. So fucking frustrating. 😫
DH is being supportive & is being great but I am beginning to really seriously resent him 😢

Phew. -ve test this morning.

I've been in really bad shape this month. DS had a really bad time with the sleeping right through the middle of the months, I was up to him every hour the night before I ovulated. And I've had 2 boozy nights having tested to make sure I wasn't pg. and I've just been really bloody busy and tired, not always remembering to take my supplements etc

Urgh I don't know it just wouldn't be a good start, it wouldn't end well.

I've got a dr apt tomorrow to see if the doc thinks there is any blockages etc, I really don't feel myself!!

Why would it be a bad month @BettySwoll0cks

I had that with my last pg - was so unbelievably bloated I was in leggings from the word go, just resigned myself to looking hideous. Took a while to get back to normal after it ended too (because I obviously didn't feel shit enough!!)

AF is late. I'm normally like clockwork. Hoping it starts overnight tonight, this would not be a good month to have fallen pg

@BettySwoll0cks honestly anyone would have thought I'd took a shit next to him! To me it's just like sneezing when you have a cold... you can't help it when you are constipated! It's not a choice!

Anyway..... my DH doesn't do saying sorry (at least not within 24hrs of being a prick) however he has took it upon himself to ask what was for dinner and go and peel the veg without being asked... so he obviously feels like he has some making up to do.

I currently look around 3 dress sizes bigger than normal and I'm pretty sure it's all bloat but it's hard to tell if any of it is early bump. I'm only little and slim so I guess anything is noticeable! X

I doubt it @tigsy , no one gets away scott free. I had diarrhoea throughout the first half of my pregnancy, eventually the homeopath sorted me out. Hormones affect everybody differently. Is he still sulking?!

The pathetic thing is that he has had 2 kids already!! Clearly his ex-wife was a model pregnant species without wind or any nastiness!! Good for her.... something has to make up for her being a mutt ugly psycho..... 😂😂
I'm still farting like a trooper,but have managed to go now.... but I feel like all the spare space is now filling up with air!! I really couldn't care less about his views on my bodily functions at the mo! X

Oh @tigsyboo 🙈 I look forward to hearing how he gets on in the delivery suite then...

Yes Twittle, you're the one whose pregnant and been made redundant! Mens minds work in weird ways sometimes. I agree that the sea is terrifying - its so big and open and I hate not being able to see the bottom. I just try and suppress the fear cause scuba diving is so much fun. I've cried a few times though! But you can just pretend it's salt water in your eyes.

Tigsy your DH needs a fart in the face... 😂

Thanks Kin I am trying to be understanding, it's like he doesn't realise I also am stressing about this! I actually like working and enjoyed my job so it's devastating they got rid of me. And I just don't think I'll ever dive because I am really scared of the sea!!

Oh my god tigsy he deserves a slap round the head! What a total plonker! He wouldn't dare visit us in this house (DH and I have fast competitions sometimes haha!) - must highlight we aren't like that in public! He really needs to realise you're pregnant and it's only farts! Jeez.

Morning all
@TwittleBee nice to hear from you
Sorry DH is being a pain for you. It seems it's a theme on here.
Mine currently isn't speaking to me because.... wait for it... he is sick of me farting!! Not in general.... just in last 24hrs, while I'm hideously constipated.... and full up to the eyeballs with fibre and lactulose.... and can't 'go', am bloated beyond belief and feel horrific with the WORST trapped wind feeling in the world.... but apparently that's no excuse for farting and I should get up and leave the room. We don't have guests.... it's only him and the dog... I'm not in the mood for this right now so I told him to feel fucking free to leave the house if if offends him so bloody much as quite frankly I'd happily sit and poo myself at the moment if it meant it provided some relief from this pain!! Apparently I'm disgusted and devoid from manners. I told him he'll be devoid of his fucking head from his shoulders if he speaks to me again!! So now I'm sitting watching Friends with the dog, happily trumping away on the sofa in peace while he sulks upstairs! 😂

It must just be stress. I'd be understanding of his stress and worry but don't let him push all the blame onto you cause that's totally unfair. Its not anyone's fault, just life.

You should try scuba diving one day! It's great fun. Redang is definitely less touristy than a lot of places. It's not unheard of because you get lots of local tourists but it doesn't have that backpacker feel.

Thank you Kin is certainly surreal. And yes over a year we were TTC so not sure why he is being like this, maybe just stress. I have been so frugal though, our weekly shop has only been coming to £40 so makes me wonder how I used to spend £70 a week now!

Thank you for sharing that info, I've passed it on. I know they like going to unheard of places or different locations to the norm so does seem perfect for their honeymoon. I really have no interest or clue about diving despite my parents and sisters loving it!

I could talk about diving for hours! Maybe I'll quit my job and become a dive travel agent 😂

Aw Twittle can't believe you're in the second trimester already! That's really great that everything seems to be working out this time.

I think your DH is being really unfair to you. It's not your fault that you've lost your job and it's definitely not your fault you got pregnant again so quickly! Sure he's probably worried and stressed but saying you pushed him into it when you'd been actively trying for a year if I remember correctly is totally ridiculous of him.

The place we're going is Redang Island and we always stay at the same hotel, Coral Redang. Its a mid-range hotel, there are nicer ones on the island but the price goes up enormously. We book everything through a local dive shop called Divers Den who are fantastic and I can't recommend them enough. They have their own instructors on the island and if you book with them you get to dive with them rather than the hotel people. The hotel guides are nice as well but Sharon and AB at divers den have been diving for years and years and really know their stuff.

Job hunt still going on here, really panicking. DH is being off with me, he opened up saying he's annoyed that we are in this position with me being pregnant when he said just after Christmas he wasn't sure about having another baby anyway. I had to remind him by that point the deed had already been done. He just said he feels like I pushed him into it and now he's picking up the pieces. So I feel like shit.

Ah Kin just seen your reply to where you're going to edi. Could I ask for where it is exactly? be a good suggestion to my parents for their honeymoon maybe as they are keen and top divers.

Morning all, apologies for being so absent on here. I just feel so aware that I might be causing some upset as pregnancy is progressing well (despite regularly bleeding still).

Frazzle I so hope DP gets the job and all calms down with him on that front. 12 weeks is such a long time, bloomin heck. Will you be able to use the time to reconnect with DP and have proper discussions about TTC?

Sorry about yet another BFP Betty - btw what's a pot luck supper?

tigsy what a relief! When's your EDD? Eek about constipation, it's bloody awful isn't it. I guess just maybe try a day or two of only really getting in veg, fruit and fruit juice? Surprised the lactulose hasnt helped!

Oh Rather I am sorry your having a CP. It's hard on you no matters early. Just a reminder to class it as a MC still and it's worth talking to your GP about it so it's on record. My MW and GP said medical professions don't recognise the term CP only MC.

Certainly jealous of your long weekend away booked up Kin ! Where you off to?

Buggles something similar happened to a friend I know! So seems common. certainly complain, bloomin awful that they treated you like that.

Good luck for the test and scan edi ! My nausea weirdly dried up for a bit around then too and panicked me! It's come back strong again at 13 weeks though so urgh.

edidxb oh no, that's a shame about your sinuses. Is it something which might get better with time? We're going to an island off the east coast of Malaysia which (for us) is the perfect balance of ease of getting to, price and diving quality. There are no world famous dive sites but its still fantastic and sometimes the conditions align perfectly to give you an incredible dive. Plus it's not very famous so the dive sites tend to be pretty quiet. It's where we learnt to dive and also where we got engaged so lots of happy memories.

How much longer do you have to keep doing the clexane injections for? They sound horrible. Everyone seems to say the nausea wears off when the placenta takes over which should be around now so try not to worry (impossible I know!)

@edidxb what NIPT test are you going for? We have been looking into different ones too
I'm hideously constipated again
Haven't poo'd more than a pebble since Tuesday!! Even tried a coffee and no joy! Over last few days
Had lactulose every day
2 x fibre sachets on thurs
Bran flakes
Around 8/9 prunes
Glass of prune juice
Mushy peas...... really can't think of anything else to help!!

I am SOO bloated I look 6/7 months and can't get in anything other than my jogging bottoms. I'm so miserable with it 😩

@frazzlerock - thank you for popping in to say hello. I'm sorry things are not great, but at least the RMC have given you a plan. Depression is a horrible thing and there is no timeline I am afraid. I hope you can try something which works for you.

@ratherbe - so sorry to hear you have had a chemical. What a horrible thing to go through - as @kinsters says it is just as bad as mc. You get your hopes up and are excited and then dashed. I hope you can have something to look forward to.

@tigsyboo - so so so pleased to hear your scan went well! 7 weeks! Woo hoo! How are you feeling?

@buggles - that sounds like such a waste of a day. I'm pleased you got some free passes but I do feel like they could do more for you. I am desperate to get my nails done, get waxed, have threading, have a massage etc etc but I am holding out for 12 weeks.....

@kinsters - pleased to hear you have a plan of some nice things. Is the diving good where you are going? I used to dive but then developed an issue with my sinuses and can't equalise so it's just snorkelling for me these days.

@betty - sorry to hear of another white FRER. I hope you had a good pot luck dinner!!

My crippling nausea seems to be coming to an end - no where near as bad this week but of course that leads me to all kinds of worry. Although I still have a horrible taste in my mouth. Still tired but not quite as bad. My clexane injections I take daily are so tough. I am so squemish so find it hard and I have such awful bruises all over my stomach.

I have my 10week scan this week along with the NIPT blood tests if everything is OK with the scan. I am getting nervous already and it's not until Wednesday......but also feeling positive and that things are going to be OK so trying to stick with the positives!

@Buggles1 I'd definitely email the GM and complain and say it was a completely wasted day because they misinformed you - I love a complaint!