The July 19ers - All aboard the rollercoaster for a 3rd lucky thread

@Betty I have been told by so many medics that AF can go weird generally so after mc it can be even more messed up.

@Pegase I really hope that is not the case and you still have a chance this one is nestled in and comfortable.

@Kinsters hopefully you've DTD enough. Hope the thrush clears up quickly.

@rather I watched a few of her interviews and found them really chilling, made my blood run cold. The things she said about the Manchester bombing, no remorse, in fact she smirked, no compassion and tried to justify it. No good wishes or love sent to her family here. Then had the nerve to say the British people should have sympathy for her. I really feel for that baby and all the others out there. That child needs a safe and loving environment to grown up in. Can't do anything about nature but certainly can try to nurture in a way that gives them the best chance of turning into a kind, loving and tolerant human being. It's heartbreaking to know so many children out there have such little hope of a stable, safe and healthy future.

@frazzle I am so tempted by fish and chips. Unlike you though I've been unhealthy today. Bowl of coco pops, cashew nuts and fish finger butty.

Hey ladies
I have a load to catch up with today!!

@Frazzlerock every time I had a moment on here (positive or negative) I worry I'm pushing people off, but I've learned that everyone on here is here to support.
I honestly don't know what I'd do without being able to speak rant on here!
I felt awful after declaring my bfp so outwardly and I'm sorry if that hasn't helped your stress. I really hope you won't leave and I really hope you feel a little brighter soon.

@ratherbeshowjumping that sounds awful. I'm glad you have the sense to go and lock yourself away in the car. I have a tendency for my training bravado to kick in and my mouth works quicker than my legs which is something I hate about myself sometimes as I forget I don't always have to brave the confrontation!!

@Kinsters Thrush!! Eugh!!! I honestly think you should try a yakult!!

X post @Kinsters, sorry your thrush is back but at least you managed to dtd. If there's that much ewcm, hopefully you'll O in the next day or two so fab timing!

@InDreamland, I was thinking that earlier... Have you watched the interview? She didn't even glance at the baby once. I appreciate she is traumatised and is likely suffering with a plethora of problems, not least PND, but she showed no love at all

@Frazzle so pleased you're feeling slightly more positive x

Still no positive opk for me despite loads of ewcm yesterday. Idk if I missed the surge or maybe ovulation stalled because of travelling (which I've read can happen).

Dtd this evening but I think I'll have to give it a rest tomorrow because thrush is definitely back and it's quite sore (not during so much but afterwards - ouch! 😭)

@InDreamland pretty rubbish but forced myself to take a walk in the sunshine with DD to cheer up. She said she would really like us to have a baby as she has nobody to play with

Am currently thinking through all the potential recurrent miscarriage / IVF treatment pathways which is cheery when I still need management of the current mc situation

Awwwww @frazzle sorry you are feeling down. No one here wants you to go (especially me- my ovusense just arrived and I will need help working out what it's telling me 😛) but if it's too painful seeing others fall pg then that's fair enough if you want to protect yourself.

This is the weirdest AF I've ever had. Extreme bleeding and now next to nothing (day 4) mind you I did have some clotting pills. It's just getting heavier and weirder all the time, is it my age??

@rather that sounds so scary. Glad you're safe.

@frazzle I just want to wrap you up in hugs. I'm sure many of us who've been through similar feel the same at times. That's why i don't post here as much as everyone else. I don't wanna constantly moan or just offload my anxieties on others. How you feel is natural given what you've gone through. Don't be hard on yourself.

@pegase how are you today?

So that ISIS girl had her baby .........I must be nuts thinking a kind British journalist could bring that baby back here and I could adopt him and bring him up in a safe loving environment.

Wow that's quite a list of supplements/ meds @edidxb.

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Small world rather - I wonder whether we ever passed each other on the streets!

@Frazzlerock don't go! You don't just come on and moan- you are really supportive to all of us!

Trust me we all feel really low at times and it can't be helped. Currently feel like I have been sleeping through my own life since October. Obsessive googling doesn't help!

It was horrific wasn't it. I remember my DSF being called out whilst we were opening presents on Christmas morning as her body had been found.

I was in my first year there when she passed away. Strange to think we could have passed each other etc at uni/out and about.

It is lovely, but you're right, lots of strange ones....

Yes rather, it was Joanna. So awful and the timing of it being right around Christmas as well. I often think about her and her family.

I studied at Bristol and was in my second year when she was killed. I was working at a job over the Christmas holidays where I'd often lock up by myself after dark and walk home. Bristol was a lovely place and I'd love to move back there someday but I swear its weirdos per capita is higher than anywhere else I've lived. Mostly harmless/funny people but you can never really tell can you.

Thanks everyone, I'm absolutely fine, just really shaken up!

@Kin, I didn't know you lived in Bristol (obviously not right now!)... I'm guessing you mean Joanna Yates? My DSF was one of the lead investigators on that case, it was really awful I used to walk out of uni with my keys in my fist... the campus I was at was literally minutes from her flat. Terrifying.
You are right though, there isn't much in the way of protection...

@Frazzle, first and foremost, everyone here gets it. We're all here for you. I understand the pressure of not being able to tell DP and it eating up inside you knowing that little egg is just rolling away and they don't seem to care/understand. Moan and rant and rave all you want, get it all off your chest, we'll do our best to lift you, just as I'm sure you've lifted all of us at some point.
I had my strop last month where I was certain I wanted to go on the pill and just give up ttc. If it wasn't for this group, I probably would have. Please don't leave or feel like you're bringing us down, I'd hate for you to feel sad and not have anyone to offload to xx

@Kinsters yay for DH coming home on time!

@Rather that must have been absolutely terrifying, I am so sorry that happened to you!

@Frazzle, please don’t leave, I completely understand how you feel, but this really can happen for you, if only we all had a crystal ball! Sending you loads of love and hugs xxx

Frazzle I think we are all having our fair share or coming on here for emotional support / ranting etc. Jeez, I was moaning only a couple pages back about my DH. And it is totally understandable why you bring up the past 3 years so much, it is so raw to you still especially with your DP's recent behaviour bringing it all straight back up about questioning TTC etc! Please do keep talking to us all about how you feel, we are here to support you and we care about you

Kin oh I am always carrying my keys in my fists if I am alone. DH says I am an idiot for worrying so much but it is easier for him not to worry so much at 6'4" !

Sorry for cross posting Frazzle. You're 100% not a miserable attention seeking twat. What you're (we're) going through is the absolute pits and the fact your DP is not so supportive makes it even worse for you. Plus how long this has been dragging on for you, it must be so so difficult and depressing. Don't feel you should stop posting because you're not in a good place right now, this is exactly the place to try and offload some of that stress so we can all support each other to getting to our BFPs.

rather that sounds terrifying, I'm glad you're OK and hope that it doesn't make you feel unsafe to spend time alone with your horses.

I feel like in the UK we don't have many options for protecting ourselves (not that I'd want guns or anything to be legal but maybe pepper spray?). I guess a rape alarm is a handy thing to carry but won't always be practical - although neither would pepper spray. I remember a few years ago in Bristol when a woman was killed and they were hunting for the guy who did it and I was so terrified walking home alone each night that I kept my keys in my fist.