@TwittleBee I think you're still in with a big chance though? Do you think it's just too early if you are less DPO than you originally thought. Though I've no idea about the positive tests you did 
How is your temp this morning?
Sorry you're not feeling well. That really sucks on top of everything.
@Kinsters I don't know about your chart. It's so hard to tell without more temps. I saw that article on FB but it was a screenshot of the headline (helpful...) and I never actually googled it to find the article so thank you, I will have a read of it.
@edidxb you could still be gearing up for ov. If FF is to be believed, I ov'd on CD32. Or CD34 if I go with Ovu so it can take time.
I have put a spanner in the works with DP 😓 Last night we were in bed and I was performing my usual 'let's get on it' hints.id also loaded up the pre-seed just in case I am still in ovulation window.
He said "no sexy things tonight as I've not showered after runnng"
I was fine. But I opened up my ovu app to check if TTC wise we'd be okay with it being two days in a row of no BD. But DP saw it and said "oh you're in The Zone are you...". Then got upset that this is too much pressure and this is how his friend and his wife split up etc...
and now I feel shit because as much as I desperately want another baby our sex life is about us first and babies second. I genuinely have a high sex drive and would do it all day everyday with him if I could!
But he thinks it is just about baby making. In the past he's told me I treat him like a sperm donor and I have been so scared that he'd feel the same this time.
This one blip could make him pull the plug on this and I've been so careful not to put pressure on him. But I looked at that stupid app which was bad timing, and now this has happened.
He gets depressed very very easily and experience has taught me that this could very easily push him away for a good few days, sometimes weeks.
I've been awake since 5am laying there worrying about it. I'm also really weepy and desperate to burst into tears but that will push him away further so I've been trying not to cry.
Reading back it seems so melodramatic but I genuinely thrive being close and intimate with him and I'm not very good at dealing with him pushing me away.
On top of that we had a day of First World Problems. First we had a water outage, then we had gas engineers at the door explaining about a gas leak outside our house, so we had no gas all day until about 8pm (it was freezing!) Then, when they finally turned our gas on and left, our bloody internet cut off! We are convinced they cut something while digging around under the pavement but we can't work out where it happened (there's still a gaping hole in pavement so can see pipes and wires.
So we have to do the Sky, BT, Gas company dance today 😓
And I stupidly thought, while lying there in bed this morning, that I'd come downstairs and watch the third series of Delicious on catch up but can't because no sodding Internet!!! 😡
MOAN
MOAN
MOAN
I have more gripes from yesterday but I don't want to push you lot away as well as DP! 😂