TTC after pregnancy loss - thread 27 - BFPs are coming!

@KnitKitty Lovely to hear from you. I know what you mean about needing a break for ones sanity. I've decided not to do any more fertility treatment until April at earliest, even if RMC results are available before then, because I need some time out!

Thanks @Mistymeow and @Dimblebimble. We're back home now. Did stuff to try distract the mind from what yesterday should have been but it was impossible. I did see a rainbow though .......... wish it was a sign but I am not pregnant. Didn't help that at dinner there was a heavily pregnant waitresses why is my face being rubbed in it?. I can't escape pregnant women and babies. Driving home today all I could think was we should have a car seat with our newborn strapped in at the back and we should have been on our way back from hospital not from a night away in Oxford. I did buy a little soft toy monkey in the Blenheim Palace gift shop as he was so cute and I thought our little bean would have loved him.

@KnitKitty good to hear your update, glad to hear the new job is going well and that the break from TTC is having some benefits. I know what you mean though, I have now passed the anniversary of my first BFP and will soon by the anniversary of my first loss. I will have been on this thread a whole year soon too, feels like things are moving forward for so many but standing still for me. Am also just checking in occasionally as not TTC until thyroid is in healthy range. I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you when you do start TTC again x

@Lilimum6 I'll message you her details. I really enjoy it xxx

@KnitKitty hi hun good to hear from you. I think I know how you feel slightly it seems we ve been on this thread for ever doesn't it. I too feel like this is never going to happen. The DH keeps saying "positive thinking" but that doesn't seem to numb the feelings does it?
I hope your appointments go well keep us posted. And I'm glad your new job is working out well for you x ☓

Hi ladies,

Thank you to those who asked after me.

@RedRobin7, the job is going well thank you. It seems to be a lot more relaxing than my old job so I'm really pleased I made the change.

@MistyMeow Wonderful news! Congratulations. Don't worry about the spotting... They're not interested in bleeding unless it's red, heavy and accompanied by cramping. Try to do some meditation to stay calm. Take each day/hour/minute at a time. I have everything crossed for you that this pregnancy is a successful one.

@Yukka and SerenaOverjoyed Thank you for posting undates on your pregnancies. I'm so pleased that things are going well for both of you. It really gives me encouragement.

@Lilimum6 I am so, so sorry for what you're going through. Stay strong. Hugs xxx

@Boboelephant How are you hun? Where are you up to with the IVF now?

Sorry I haven't mentioned everyone else by name but I am thinking of you all and routing for you.
Hello to the new people on this thread. I hope you find comfort here and get your rainbows soon.

Not much to report for me. Just hanging around waiting for my endocrinology appointment in March. Still no date through for my recurrent miscarriage follow up yet.
Trying to stay distracted with other things and have decided that I won't be trying again until May. My sister is getting married at the end of April so I don't want to be an emotional wreck for that and I'm assuming that endocrinology are going to want to put me on some sort of meds and then check if they're working, so I'll need to give that time to work.
I'm not feeling impatient though. I don't want to be trying at the moment. It's such a hard roller coaster of emotions and I just feel like I'm never going to have a successful pregnancy so the thought of trying again isn't really appealing.
It's a whole year since I got pregnant the first time now, so I've lapped myself which feels crap, but I'm just trying not to think about it and not having TTC on my mind all the time is helping.
I've also got the added bonus of having lost a bit of weight and my skin has cleared up now that my hormones have been given time to settle down a bit after being pregnant almost every other month last year.

Sorry I'm not on much anymore. Will still drop by from time to time.

@Laney79 where did you go for hun and what does the treatment cost. I'll give anything a go

@Lilimum6 I'm really sorry to hear that. Very wrong of them to say yes and then say no, particularly with your history. I'm livid on your behalf!

I've been for reflexology today which was great. So relaxing. Seems to have helped with AF cramping too (thankfully-she's been a real b**tch this month). CD2 and boy is it heavy. Ugh. I just hope it's the body having a good clear out. X

@Laney79 no hun they will not budge on it. But now I just want to get it done.

I can imagine @Lilimum6 any luck with getting them to use ultrasound on Tuesday?

@Dimblebimble hugs. And hoping it's just a blip and all is ok xxx

I had a stronger line today but just had some red spotting :( guessing that's not a good sign especially so early on

@Laney79 nothing except that horrid orange stuff hun. I probably shouldn't but I can't wait to get Tuesday over with now

@Lilimum6 I take 200mg total of co-enzyme q10 so 2x100mg tablets. I take that with pregnacare preconception his n hers, 4mg folic acid and a top up of vitamin D. Considering adding zinc and omega 3 fish oil and switching from folic acid to folate.

How are you doing? Any movement? Xxx

Just checking in ladies.

@Laney79 and @Yukka was the 200mg of q10 or 2x 200mg. I take pregnacare conception, Q10, omega 3, asprin, vitamin d and spartone (iron for anemia). Is there anything else I should think about

Dimblebimble my hubby keeps saying the same to me too. I also am an anxious person anyway, and it also got worse after Mc. The last couple of days I’ve been a bit better but still get moments of panic where I google anything and everything trying to find answers and outcomes! My hb keeps telling me to stay positive and I am really trying but it’s easier said than done sometimes for the men and I don’t mean that horribly because they have Been through the heartbreak too! But we are scared because our body’s had to go through hell last time too as well as our minds! Also when your the one growing a life you can’t exactly ignore the little niggles, ever growing boobs, mood swings and the rest! I’m too scared to book my early scan I keep putting It off - must do soon!!nobody tells you conceiving and then pregnancy was this worrying and it’s even worse when you have been through what we all have ! 😶 Us women are warriers xxx

Think of you too @InDreamland , hope you're doing okay today

@Mistymeow if your period is due, could it just be that? When I first started spotting with my last mc I did a lot of research I read somewhere that you can get a tiny bit of spotting when your period would have come while your body adjusts (and some people get one every month, not just the first month). I think they call it breakthrough bleeding, but I could be completely wrong. Or perhaps old implantation bleeding?

I'm quite an anxious person in general so while my plan is just to carry on as normal and not think about it until the first scan (if I get that far) I'm finding it hard. Dh says just don't think about it, and we haven't really talked about it, but when your body is experiencing cramping or other symptoms it's hard to ignore.

@tinypaws I hope the blood tests bring you some reassurance and there is a course of action soon. Take care.
@InDreamland thinking of you today. Lovely idea to spend a night away together.
@Dimblebimble I think we are at the same stage. I haven’t tested and I won’t be testing because those internet cheapies are no good really (dye varies). It will cause you more anxiety interpreting it. I can understand getting the digi but again it doesn’t tell the whole picture. The anxiety is hard, isn’t it. I’m still panicking about this brown spotting but there isn’t anything I can do except wait it out. I’m seeing the GP on Wednesday so will speak to him about it.

@Yukka did you do any specific kind of acupuncture? As in, did you find someone who specialises in fertility? I'd be interested to give it a go, but not sure where to start/what to look for!

P.s. clear blue agreed to replace my faulty digital tests but they're not sending them to Monday 😖. If this ever happens to anyone else (both tests faulty) keep the box as they only do this if you give them a certain number off it.

@Yukka @Laney79 thank you for the reassurance and hand hold ladies It's still a clear line, but after last time it worries me that it may be going in the wrong direction. I'm wondering whether to get another digital weeks indicator, rather than a frer, and see whether it's showing 2-3 weeks which it should be by now.

They are still pretty clear @Dimblebimble - could you ask your gp/epau to do bloods to check for you? I wonder if the amount you've drunk the night before might have an impact? There does come a point where my tests just didn't get any darker, not for any sinister reason, I think it was just well over the threshold level for the test.

@yukka I've done them all with first morning urine. I've attached pics of yesterday and two from today ( I did a second one in case it was a faulty test)

My period is due today. I was going to do a frer on weekend but the problem is it won't tell me whether the hcg is going down or not...