@SullyWifey if you use words like "agony" to describe your pains, you need to follow through with that referral, endo or not. Such pains are not normal and it's best to have it looked into, especially if you're ttc. It sounds like you're scared of the endo diagnosis, but wouldn't you rather know and have Dr's help you? Fingers crossed for you!
@Delilah7 hugs! Try to find some calming foods or teas. It's normal to worry but nothing wrong with finding ways to worry less. Depending on how your brain works, maybe YouTube videos help, maybe special foods do, maybe watch a funny movie or two. Anything you can do, do it. At the least, it'll all take your mind off stress for a bit.