The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

padfoot i have only been ttc properly for 3 months had been being carefree since Jan with only the free months i still know what you mean by the first time lucky newbies even i think not fair and i am only on month 3! well i am 6 DPO and had spotting this morning seems to early for implantation and only managed to BD once! i am sure my body is having a fcking game with me there I was not obsessing not even looking for any signs and it throws me this bolloks! Hay-ho

I really don't blame you for staying away lissie - if only I had the strength for that. I keep wondering how 'old' friends are doing then find that the threads are all full of new people who get a BFP in 2 mins and bugger off to AN. Why do I do this to myself?

why do they torture us? am staying away from the ttc boards at the mo. no line on ov stick so this month'll be another no go. plus ive only got one tube. that halved my (already slim) chances of having another baby successfully.

Just had to be pleased about another first month of trying BFP, don't know how much longer I can keep it up (and MM if you venture in here, I'm sorry, it's not personal at all I'm just fed up of my own failing to get pg)
Feel that my body is so useless, pg is meant to be natural so why is it so bloody hard I sometimes wonder how the hell the human race continues - I guess it's all those bloody 15 year olds we keep hearing about

Good a bad case of IBM tonight so feeling really sorry for myself

of course I meant tequila not vodka (though I'll have anything that's going) I have no idea what's going on

Congrats FMN - now pass that unwanted vodka my way...ta

(tis nomore here BTW)

Just want to wallow in misery for a bit so I'm in the corner feeling sorry for myself if anyone wants me. Feel poorly today, but for the first time in 18 months my first thought was not "ooh, it might be pg" which made me feel really that I seem to have accepted that it'll never happen (ok maybe not never, but it's not going to happen any time soon)

congrats feedmenow

that's great news.

I understand as I conceived ds after a m/c

didn't tell a soul - waited until I had the scan pics and then showed everyone I knew.

it worked for me.

My main worry was that all my work colleagues would think I'd got really fat

Or else worry I was always lurking under a shawl.

Take every day as it comes - you will be fine

excellant! i know all too well what you mean. try to take it easy tho. how many weeks do you think you are?

Thank you all. It feels very bizarre - at discovery of previous pg's I have been over the moon but this is odd. I suppose that now I know that mc happens (I mean, I always knew it happened. I just never knew it could happen to me, IYSWIM)I can't help but feel rather reserved incase anything bad happens. So I'm just planning to take one day at a time. But it's horrible that a happy event can feel so tarnished by events of the past........
Anyway, as with many others, I'm planning to loiter cos I'm far too scared of a/n threads so you may just find me lurking in the corner occasionally {grin]
Have just been to sainsburys so stocked up on some Gu chocolate puds for you all, and some tequila to wash it down with.

oh FMN, so pleased for you!

Oh FMN that's fantastic!

(exam results mid Aug Lissie, but that's not nearly as interesting as FMN's bfp!)

Best wishes Feedmenow

I was going to come into the hut (armed with plenty of tasty treats!) plonk down and have a bloody good moan. But I see Feedmenow's news, and it made me smile. So I won't ruin the moment with a mardy-arsed tirade. I'll save it for later.

Have been super busy, hope everyone is ok...

Just making a very fleeting visit to let you all know that I just got a bfp. Obviously not going to be over celebratory cos I've literally only just tested and found out, plus we all know only too well that things can, and often do, go wrong. DP says I can't tell anyone (understandably)but I insisted that I be allowed to tell on MN.
Oh, and just incase Marmitemad happens to read this post (which I doubt, but you never know!) then you can tell me that you know, but you musn't tell anyone else!

good, when do you get your results of your exams?

Pretty good, thanks Lissie. Life seems to be returning to normal for me, and I'm feeling increasingly relaxed about TCC and FTC. I'm really enjoying just having the one child at the moment, and appreciate all the things we can do with him that we couldn't if we had a baby. So that's all very upbeat! Of course, we'll see how I feel in a couple of weeks or so as period approaches...

I'm trying to get my primary tests done at the hospital, but when I phoned on CD1 they said they couldn't fit me in that month, and I'll be away at CD21 so will have to get bloods done next month. It's frustrating. But life on the whole is good.

how are you impatience?

oops! The mysterious Kayjayel commenting on your medical disasters was me in disguise, Lissie (Just in case you were wondering who the hell it was!)

think we should start a league table for rubbish medical staff.

Lissie, that's terrible Given how competitive it is to get into medicine you'd think that the ones who'd got on and through would actually be decent.

yet another entry for lissie's crap doctors here

shit bb

baby I know what you mean I do sometimes think that little one will never be becsue I couldnt get the time right!