The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

sorry, missed that. better now thanks. ds is potty training so ive been mopping up sh*t and p#ss all day

hey im ok thankyou, had a little break . makes me less stressy, y'know? i did try saying hi to you the other day, but i think you were a bit . how are you?

hi scorpio, hows things? havent seen you for ages

just saying hello to everyone in here, im holding on

my emails on my profile.

Lissie - hope the clomid works out. I wish I knew what to say that could help, but have a virtual drink anyway.

Ready - have emailed you from alternative address, maybe that will work?

mslucy - hope the tests go well next week.

hi to everyone else, if you are here with me.

I know it's silly thinking I'm a failure - I will snap out of it soon.

Fingers crossed everything goes well with the consultant Lissie - I've not subscribed to the CAT facility, but thanks for the sweet offer.
There are so many wonderful people on MN aren't there - I am so pleased I found it.

Ok, soppy moment over

I've asked for help too - have more tests next week.

I feel pleased I've done it - I felt a failure before but now feel glad I'm actually doing something.

Most people I know have problems - probably because most of my friends are older - so in my world treatment is normal.

I had one my ds without any help, but that was not without its troubles (m/c before he arrived).

yes some people can pop out kids without any trouble, but are crap in other ways (looks/brains/personality bypass/evil etc)

I'd love to be one of those people but I'm not.

So what.

go back on the 30th, next step is clomid, see if it will regulate my ov.

nothing to worry about re tests, it is NOT failure (do know what you mean tho) you wouldnt worry about taking paracetamol for a headache or an xray for a broken leg, sometimes we need a bit of help. you can CAT me anytime you know...

goes for all of you!

Rainbowdays - What's going on elsewhere on ttc then? Have I missed another flurry of BFPs? Oh by the way, I have emailed you twice, and it keeps bouncing back - have you reached your limit or something? Or is it a problem my end?

MsLucy - Sounds like retail therapy has helped you, always helps me, for a while at least. Your dress sounds lovely - real glam! enjoy the wedding!

Lissie - What has the consultant said to you about what you are going through? Or have they been useless?
I guess I am just low because I had my gynae appointment, and the ball is rolling, will have an HSG first... I suppose I should be happy, but it's had the opposite effect. I feel like such a failure, like we couldn't do it on our own, we needed to ask for help. I never ask for help.

Warning -do not venture to read other ttc threads at the moment, too depressing, come here and share the vat of fantastic white wine and the boxes of luxury belgian chocs instead.

hello ladies.

seems a bit gloomy in here today - well it is the hut, so what can I expect.

Had progesterone test this am - all over and done with in seconds.

Have to go back there on Tues for scan - not sure when I get the results. Had test done last year in Harley St - cost me £££s and levels were totally normal. Don't think that's the problem.

Anyways, had day off, had lunch with a big fat gay I used to work with. In Nandos. I love Nandos. Then had call from this woman who lives in a flat dh owns who has to move because she is - wait for it - pregnant. I feel utterly surrounded - first my bloody sister in law with her twins, now the tenant.

Apparently it was a shock because she doesn't have normal periods - I felt happiness for her as I sensed another potential hut dweller rather than a smug " I only have to sit on a man's knee" type.

Anyway, rather than get in a gloom, I bought myself a fab dress from Camden Market, of all places. It's a bit goth/a bit Lily Allen - black, tight bodice, flared skirt, fab red flowers embroidered on it. And it was only 35 quid. I felt almost glamorous in it. I shall wear it on Sat to a friend's wedding reception and banish all dreary ttc thoughts from my mind.

I'm not usually one for retail therapy, but for once it worked a treat.

not too bad-ish. really think now that its pointless taking FA/asprin/stopping drinking etc. none of it helps.

imaptience, will do you good to have month or so off ttc (easy for me to say i know)

ready, whats up?

Sorry for those I missed out...

What a bunch of low-bees we all are... ok, I know this is going to sound geeky, and I apologise in advance... but to paraphrase Rachel from Friends... Today it's rock bottom, 50 feet of crap and then me... pretty much sums up how I am feeling right now. I don't think I am alone am I?

Impatience - sorry and your DP will miss out over the summer, but I hope you have a nice time. Try to relax and enjoy yourselves.

Rainbowdays - Sorry your DH is going away. It's poo. Of course you will miss him, but ttc is at the forefront of our minds, so it seems like that is the priority. Don't beat yourself up.

Padfoot - I've bought Pimms, Vodka, Jack Daniels and Tia Maria... some coke, lemonade and I thought all this mixing of spirits should get us well and truly shit-faced! Got to love the escapist alcoholism

Duchesse - Are you ok? very quiet?

MsLucy - When do you get the results of your prog level? Fingers crossed for a high number.

scorpio - nice to see you. hope you are ok? break do you good?

Latenightowl - totally!! I just couldn't stop staring at the bumps - they probably thought I was a total freak!

Joliegirl - You still there?

Sticki - Any more toblerone going spare?

Lissie - How are you?

We're a bit low in the Impatient house too: We're going away for a couple of weeks which means we'll miss both of our insem times, and we know our donor is away the month after so dp will miss her chance then too. I MIGHT squeeze one in (so to speak!) but we know that we've basically got the summer off TTC. This is tough on dp because by then her good friend will have a huge bump. And for me, well, I just don't think I'll ever get pregnant.

We're both trying to look on the bright side and think of all the things we can enjoy over the summer without TTC hanging over us. I think it might do us some good. And it might mean that I drift away from you lovely ladies for a bit as I exercise that most wonderful of coping strategies: denial!

Good luck all till whenever I speak to you again. (Who am I kidding, I'll be back in an hour )

uurrrgggg Ok duvet and vodka I can do, hope that we get blotto very soon. My dh has just gone away for a month and I am here thinking not "will I miss him" but "does that mean I miss the next opportunity to get pg" !!!! Really I do love him but I am back in the two week torture and know that likelyhood of anything this month is somewhere between miniscule and nil. Still try to keep saying that I should be leaving it a month after the m/c anyway, but that is not what my body is saying.

Ready - it's a king size duvet so you're welcome to share but you might need your own vodka, mine's almost gone

It was actually CD18 today, not 19 (I wouldn't have even made the prog test had I been having one this month)
On the plus side (trying to find one) I can start clomid tomorrow, so here's hoping I don't feel crap on it as it's a v.big week at work next week and I wasn't expecting AF (and therefore clomid) til after that.

how totally crap.

Poor you.

Mine's due in a week or so and I'm sure I can feel the tell tale twinges already.

have progesterone test tomorrow at hosp - will be interested to see if it's normal.

Oh padfoot, so sorry sweetheart. That is pants. Big hug. Budge up under that duvet, and don't be hogging all that vodka.

Hi all,
Have reached a new low - AF has arrived today on CD19. The thing that annoys me most - that this is the first time I have had a "irregular cycle" which is a symptom of not ov-ing. Now if that had happened a year ago I might have known something was wrong and got it checked out. Now I know I'm not ov'ing my body starts giving me symptoms when for the last 18 months I thought everything was fine (28-31 day cycles). What a crap sense of timing my body has.
Have brought my duvet and a large bottle of vodka, I'm taking up permenant residence in the hut.

thought i would check in and say hi. have been a bit quiet on here lately, nice break!

Impatience - love pingogram! I too can confirm that I had heard it would hurt and then nothing just a bit uncomfortable but he did put 2 shots of liquid in (sorry tmi??) cos he hadnt sorted out the dose - NHS - not private - and then said I had a slow system like he was flushing out a car engine!ahhhh -
I do admit though to being curious at watching it all on screen - at least it confirmed I had a womb and it was womb shaped iykwim. Which at my early journey of TTC was a relief...

Hi Ready - yep how insensitiv is that eh - the NHS are willing to give us counselling and therapy to help us come to terms with our FTC and then stick us in a room full of blooming ladies - what sort of therapy do you think that is???

Ready, I have no copyright on pingogram, or FTC indeed! use away!