The Hut of Gl/doom part IV- it's still never going to happen- but ^in^ ^style^, yes

Sorry hutters, I just need to leave a message for lissie, I know she will understand.

Lissie - I am sitting here shaking like a leaf, this is my first m/c, and at only 5 weeks I keep thinking I should not be reacting this way. I was feeling so sick yesterday, I was sure that that was a good sign, I don't even know why I did the pg test this morning, the spotting was so light. But seeing it come up negative took ages to sink in, coming into work and having them repeat the test and it being negative again, I am not even sure why I am still hoping that the blood tests will show it all to be wrong. But at least in an hours time I will know for sure. Are you going to go to the epu? This sounds awful, but with your experience, I wanted to speak to someone who can understand what I am feeling right now. I don't even know what I should do today, should I tell my boss or not, oh this is horrible. I am probrably not helping you either, but I would not wish this happening to anyone. {{{hugs}}}

NO lissie, no no no........

oh my shit.

i am so sorry honey. i dont know what to say.

sending much love to you and mr.lissie

NO NO NO! Oh Lissie honey

well, im pretty sure its happened. woke up in the night with cramps and i'm bleeding properly now. thank you all for your kind words and prayers. looks like i shall never leave the hut after all.x

poor you.

fingers crossed. Just go to the dr IMMEDIATELY if you have any concerns.

Am feeling tired and grumpy after a long weekend of MIL and tantruming toddler.

Oh, and AF only came 3 days early this month!

here we go again!

Oh lissie hope every things ok. thinking of you hun xx

Oh Lissie, sending you huge hugs. I want to say that it might not necessarily be bad news but I know that won't help. So just know I'm here for you.....

any meths going? im spotting and cramping. not surprised. just fucking sick of my wretched boddy fucking me around!

thank you. im just exhausted by trying to stay upbeat and positive. tbh, i dont think my body could cope with another mc

Lissie, a person should never be able to say '... most of my m/cs...'

Come and wibble out here anytime! Its not like you haven't earned your lifetime membership (dubious award...)

I REALLY really hope everything goes well for you this time. Do keep us posted, even when there's nothing horrendous to report!

Fingers crossed for you Lissie

wherefor, i ov'd 4d early with this pg (only knew coz of pains) as impatience says not everyone ovs at CD14.

im ok. v nervous now. most of my mcs have been at between 5 & 6 weeks and im 4w4d now. keep knicker checking and am driving myself mad! will have scan in 2w and see gp on tues again to sort out all my antenatal care. im crapping myself tho. when i was pg with ds i was scanned at what i thought was 7w but the mw said she only saw a 5w foetus, didny=t occur to me that something might be wrong. wish i was still that naive and trusting.

sorry i know its a bit insensitive of me but im scared and dont know where else to go

WhereforartthouAF - The level is 30 isn't it, to say that ovulation has occurred, is it possible you tested too early? The level should be checked 7dpo, but not everyone ovulates on CD14. When do you ovulate?

Hi Lissie, you're welcome anytime.

Wherefore: of course we all know the logical answer, but I'd be thinking exactly the same as you! I really hope you get an answer soon.

hiya lissie how you feeling? I have decided to start using opks and temping as its driving me batty not knowing what is happening. bit premature prehaps but hey if it helps. How far on are you? Have you been scanned yet or anything?

just sticking my nose in to see how everyone is. am reluctant to truly leave the hut yet, can i just sit in the corner?

ok well the result was 28 (day 21 bloods) not as bad as stupid fing receptionist made out still it means i havent ovulated. The strange thing is my boobs are still realllllllyyy sore and i have had no other signs of impending af. I know its pretty near impossible if i haven't ov'd but even my pg cat (fucks sake i mean even my cat can get pg ) wants to be nowhere near me. She was like this with my friend just before she found out she was pg. God i know i sound like a psycho woman \nd i just want to slap mysel and say YOU* DID NOT OVULATE SO YOU ARE NOT PREGNANT but there is that little naughty voice inside me saying just maybe doctors can be wrong and i wasn't that far from 30

Oh my god! It's becoming very bizarre to hear so many people I've never met describing exactly how I feel...

I just did another test. I didn't even try last month, so would be 7 weeks pg... which meant I really had to accept that no line meant no pg. Stupid really, 'cause I bled and then two weeks later had cm... it's just I felt all queasy and had period cramps. Period not due for a week, so possibly I was actually pg! Of course not. What a tit. Prob just that really rich lunch I had

So now I feel rough AND am not pg. Balls.

Hi Ladies

This is my first post in the hut. I'm very gloomy this evening, sick of the whole business. It just drives me crazy in the last few days before af is due, so close to knowing but still not, swinging between being sure you're pg one minute and sure you're not the next.... aaargh! Seems like pms is rearing its ugly head, but eternal optimist fool part of me is trying to convince me it could be pg symptoms instead of pms. Realist part of me is telling silly part to shut up and accept that another month has come and gone and no luck yet again.

Ugh, so depressed and totally lacking in all energy and enthusiasm. DD was supposed to be bathed and off to bed half an hour ago but I can't be arsed to get her up the stairs.

Yes, Ready, we are both trying now! (Our donor is such a gem!) Our cycles are interleaved that the one who's just tried doesn't quite yet know whether she's pg or not when the other one has to go for it... So each month we take that risk of two. But given my enormous success rate so far we don't think it's a tremendous risk, and I really wouldn't complain about having two babies! Hey, it'd only be extremely tough for, oh, about 2 years, then it would just be normal tought, yeah..? Anyway, we'll see how it goes. I do feel a lot more relaxed about t/ftc now dp is also trying. I still hate my stupid body for not doing what it's supposed to and my stupid brain for being such a stresser, but I do now still feel that we might just get another child.

Also, it's very interesting being the partner rather than the empty-womb: I am much less obsessed, and keep wanting to say the kind of thing a lot of women on here have moaned about their men saying. Things that are supposed to be reassuring, like 'don't worry, it'll happen', and 'oh, well, there's always next month'. I would scream at dp if she ever said this to me when it was MY period arriving, but I really do feel a lot more chilled out when it's her.

And of course you know I REALLY want more children, so this is a lesson in your men not being completely unbothered by your ftc: it's just a completely different experience on this side!

A very lovely person once told me that Misery Likes Company. How true is that!!

Sorry to be completely nosy here, but Impatience are you and your partner both ttc now? Fingers crossed for you both.

Oh ready.

I love you for saying what fell all the F*ing time.

I'm so down about it all.

I do have a lovely boy (of 2) and you will too, trust me.

But I want another one and am sick and tired of people like my MIL (who arrives this afternoon in a cloud of misery) describing ds as an only child.

Dh's sister is PG too and her ds is only 1.

and she's 18 months older than me - I'm old but she's older still.

Ready, Nomore, Kensgirl, recline yourselves here and get it all out. We don't need soundproofing because we don't care who hears us scream in here. And we don't have an inclusion criteria: If you're feeling pissed off with FTC then you're at home here.

Kensgirl: peeing blood sounds just horrid.

Nomore: I have the same with CD1 tending to be on a weekend. Which means CD21 is too. AAAAarrrgh.

Ready: You're chirpiness hasn't quite run out: you put 2 happy faces in your post! Sorry it's getting you down. It's rough.

Here's another tray of drinks.

Can I join you too? Sorry to see you here Ready and Nomore.
I'm having an extremely shitty week. A friend has just had a beautiful baby girl , I'm sick of tripping over pregnant bumps every time I venture out, and my due date is looming on Sunday. I'm dreading it, all I can think of is babies, and that I don't think i'm ever going to have one. I know lots of you ladies are struggling with other things to, but please don't kick me in the shins, and banish me.

And af is due on Suday too, and I'm certain it will rear its ugly head. And I have a raging uti, and so am currently peeing blood.

Hope you get the drift.Hugs to you all.

Ready - I thought I might find you in here.

Room for another one?
Just got results of my blood tests and it looks like I didn't ov this month (don't know if that's because I never do or if it's an anovulatory cycle) but I have waited 3 cycles to get these tests done as AF keeps arriving on w/e, so I'm really angry because it just feels like another month wasted. And I don't mean in the bd-ing stakes, I mean in the finding out what's bloody wrong with my fecking body. ARRGHH, I could scream. (Actually I think the Hut needs a soundproofed room where I can do that...)