TTC after recurrent miscarriage - thread 3

Oh I’ve been a ball of anxiety to be honest. Constantly wound up and stressed all the time. It’s always horrible seeing blood. I’m trying to accept that I just have a sensitive cervix which will bleed at slightest provocation.

Bean the waiting is the worst part, I hope it passes as quickly as it possibly can for you.

Drug free, you lucky thing Para

Grateful as I obviously am for access to loads of free drugs and a consultant who dishes them out like sweets, he told me I'd be on cyclogest to 20 weeks now and fragmin and aspirin to term. Yeesh.

That's good she got back to you. How have you kept your sanity with all the bleeding you've had? I nearly lost it completely with mine and it wasn't even that heavy and I had no pain. How do you maintain your zen?

It's Thursday next week. I woke up this morning realising I'm starting to get attached to the idea of being pregnant and it feels like such a risk. 10 weeks tomorrow and still such a way to go, though thankfully interspersed with milestones that we'll hopefully be able to pass this time. How have you handled that? Any wisdom gratefully received

Of course you do @beanhunter, it's the uncertainty that's the absolute head fuck. Apart from change in boob pain, do you have any other symptoms? I didn't get sore boobs till about 7 weeks this time I don't think and it's come and gone. Have you had any nausea or anything else?

@annelivesgilbert. I trust my rmc consultant. I just wish there was a way of knowing because if it’s over i need to know.

She did call me back- said if it’s stopped now just to keep and eye on it but if it starts again straight in as they need to check it’s not placental bleeding. I’ve been off aspirin since around 7 weeks as had constant bleeding on it. And obviously was having surgery so they didn’t want my cervix to be too friable for that. Had some clexane after surgery for a few weeks but am now drug free! I’m soaked after walking between buildings but also pleased to see rain! How long until your next scan now Anne?

Glad they got back to you quickly @beanhunter, having an email contact is a good idea. How do you feel about the advice? Glad it's stopped for now. You poor thing, awful being away from home with this going on never mind the other side of the world. Hope DH is looking after you.

What's happening with you today @Paranormalbouquet? Did your consultant get back to you? Are you still on aspirin? Hope you're not too worried. Sending sturdy healing thoughts to your cervix

It's been pouring all day here, I'm over the moon. Even saw some tiny blades of green grass on the way to work.

Thank you both. It’s hard to believe it might not be bad. My sore boobs have completely disappeared.

I was also told to stop aspirin when bleeding in first trimester. Several of us on the pregnancy thread have had bleeds early on- I had bleeding and spotting from 5+4 to 10 weeks. Kirinm had several very big bleeds and is now almost due. It’s not always bad news. Fingers crossed for you.

Oh bean what conflicting advice. So glad the bleeding has stopped. We're all thinking of you and keeping things crossed that everything is okay 💐 xx

Should be 5+1 today.

No bleeding after 11pm. Feel sick but think that’s lack of sleep rather than a good thing.
So rmc clinic replied to an email and said stop aspirin but continue clexane. Bloods won’t change outcome.

Clinic said only stop aspirin if more bleeding and continue clexane and get bloods done when back in the uk.

Clinic said dont change route or dose of progesterone.

So I’m going to stop the aspirin as that consultant is the one who knows about mc treatment.

I’m scared. And feel a long way from home.

Trying to figure out what to take next cycle. Thinking vitex, b6 and seven seas trying for a baby though read yesterday about soy isoflavones bringing forward ovulation and have just been reading about proceive on holland & Barratt site. Any thoughts?

@beanhunter how are you this morning? Has the bleeding settled? Im not sure what to suggest, how far along are you? Awful for you to go through but even worse when you're not on home turf where you know who to contact.
Take care lovely.

Bean I’m so sorry. I really hope you get an answer soon.

@bean I'm so sorry. Remember we're all here for you. Sending lots of love and hugs

@anne that is such great news! ditto on getting emotional on your behalf.
I'm not on progesterone as they tested it and said it looked great, so they don't feel that was the issue with the mmc. I thought I'd hear the results today, but didn't get a call so hoping that's a good thing. They'll likely call tomorrow.
@munchies I'm 5+4 so definitely early days. I've been feeling a lot of anxiety but not sure if that's just loss related or hormone related or both. This evening I did feel like I was going to throw up during dinner so I'm optimistic that means my hcg is rising even without getting the call to confirm.
@bean I'm so sorry I hope you can find some medical care.

Don’t know what to suggest bean Are you in pain? I so so hope it’s a scare and nothing properly bad. Can you get to a doctor or clinic? Some of the health care is great. Have you got insurance? Sending loads of love to you.

I’m on holiday in South Africa. With husband and daughter. Fly back Friday night.

Oh bean How scary and awful, I’m so sorry. Sending you a big gentle hug. Who’s with you? Can you get to a doctor?

We’re all here for you

Yes. On holiday in South Africa. Proper clots.

Oh @beanhunter sending huge hugs. Are you on holiday? Can you get to an EPU?

Oh no @beanhunter is it a lot? Cramps?x

I’m bleeding.

Ah we've just been the once, such a crazy but fun experience x