Staying Sane - Positivity during TTC journey

@Boboelephant Ahh I can imagine how frustrating that has been . Also sometimes you really have to push doctors to help you find answers, sometimes they can't give you anything but you never know if they just won't or can't. So frustrating.

@Eastend2015 glad the scan went OK! I love a good celebratory maccy Ds! I don't know the song but the phase is a very good one and something my mum is always telling me.

@Delilah7 I think your body is telling you alot has gone on. There's some great quotes on here to read through but basically, focus on what good things you have right now, find good things to do, have fun with people you love and don't worry about what you don't know. There's nothing you can do right now, just let your body do what it needs to do xx

Morning sunshine ladies. Scan all good this morning, HB seen and bang on for dates. So relieved!!! Feeling a lot more real now. On the topic of meanings- Went for a celebratory maccy Ds with DH and that silly “if it’s meant to be it’ll be” song was on the radio- does anyone know the one I mean? It’s sortof country music. Anyway it’s been on my playlist the last few months and even though it’s cheesy it’s kept me smiling

@CookieWaffle I know how you feel. I've been on this journey for almost 2 years now and not being able to have the answer or find the solution is very tricky. Especially when you are told there is not a simple answer. I am working very hard on accepting what I don't understand and trying to remain hopeful and ready for when it is my time! Great news about pos opk. Fingers crossed! I'm hoping I get mine in the next 2 days too.
@KnitKitty aww you are so lovely. What a sweet thing to do donating your blanket ❤ I also love your positivity. Like the idea of teaching growing vegetables- one of the things I'm so proud of at the moment is that we just dug up about 40 potatoes from our vegie patch and our tomato plants are about 6 feet tall! It is making me so happy.
@sweetpea0318 woohoo for static smiley!! Also glad you are feeling better and focusing on good positive self rewarding things. Also love yoga yin and always feel so good after it. Good luck with your PMA!
@Delilah7 that's a special memory. Hope af turns up for you soon. The limbo is very hard.
So we did meditation today at work and the mantra was 'everything I desire is within me'. Loved it and thought it was very appropriate. We have our eggs, our uterus to grow baby, our bodies are designed to nourish baby, the strength of loss and hope and we just need to believe and focus!
The other one I am repeating after what has come up on the other thread with some of us having reiki/reflexology and cleansing bleeds is 'I release all emotional blocks that stop me conceiving a baby'

Want this cycle over with so confused with my body 😭😭😭 keeps telling me I'm pregnant again and I'm not

@CookieWaffle @KnitKitty thank you ladies xxxx

@Delilah7 oh that made me tear up, that's so beautiful xx

@KnitKitty I'm lucky I'm not a big cake person, if it was a chocolate show I might find it more tricky!

The ovulation pains (that only appeared since TTC!) are in full flow today. We've done our bit. Now time to let nature take its course. Also time to find plenty of distractions!

@KnitKitty thanks lovely. I'm 5 weeks without a period today with no sign and I'm normally regular as clockwork which is why they're keep an eye on me. Also think I ovulated around 13th or 14th based on EWCM & ovulation pains. We have just had sex as and when we feel like it which was a lot after. Made us very close....
that's what I want. Need it to turn up so I can move forward with this journey.
Your quote ' my only sunshine ' image down below made me cry. I sang that to my nannie as she was dying and it was our song. I needed to see that ❤️

Agreed @cookiewaffle surely our bodies shouldn’t be such total mysteries?! It would probably help lots of girls self esteem/ self image at school if cycles could be taught more sensitively.

@KnitKitty I'm totally like, what I don't know frustrates me! However I have been utterly fascinated by my cycle tracking. I've loved it, I've learned so much about what happens to my body each month. I'm amazed they never taught us all this at school.

Welcome aboard @Delilah7!

Ahh glad it appeared @sweetpea0318! Mine does seem to vary each month. Sounds like all great and positive things you're doing there. I decided to start a diet plan and I'm already feeling more energy and generally happier after being without sweet stuff for a week. Hopefully this continues!

Am overly excited at the moment about seeing another positive opk this month. However weirdly my temp hasn't risen today. This month has been a record though of 3 goes so let's hope the chances are good!

Morning lovely ladies,

So I got my smiley face opk this morning - only a day later than expected but my reaction yesterday has made me think. Although I’m saying that I’m cool as a cucumber about ttc at the moment, my immediate reaction & quick descent into the crazy shows that perhaps under the surface I’m not as calm as I think I am. So I’m going to step up my self care again a I’ve let it slide a little bit these last few months - as of today I’m back to eating well, positive daily affirmations, restarting my gratitude diary, and weekly yoga - I used to do yoga yin regularly but haven’t done so for months so that is going to change! New morning, new me, new PMA!
With that in mind, these are my affirmations for today:
‘I trust my body. It knows how to conceive a healthy baby.’
‘I release all built up emotional patterns that prevent me connecting to my inner self’

Have a lovely day everyone xx

Hi ladies. Wondering if I could join
See a few ladies I know @ChaosMoon @CookieWaffle @Crossfitgirl so these know my story.
Been TTCing 3 months. Fell pregnant last month and unfortunately miscarriage start of this month. I'm ridiculously fed up of this journey this month due to thinking I've ovulated. Body telling me I'm pregnant again. Doing my head in! Hoping my period will come soon as it hasn't since miscarriage ( 5 weeks ago ). Hope you all have had a good journey and sorry if you just haven't. Love keeping people positive. ❤️

@Eastend2015 I'm 7 + 3. It sucks that your morning sickness calming down its a source of anxiety, not a win. I completely get it though. I found this amazing charity called Tommy's - have you come across them? Their pregnancy health information has the Information Standard, which basically means it's guaranteed to be based on science - a rarity with pregnancy info. But mainly they're a miscarriage and still birth charity. They have a midwife led helpline, so they're great if you want to talk to someone about your anxieties or have any questions. Might be worth giving them a call.

Thanks @CookieWaffle. Our bodies really are amazing aren't they? But I totally get what you mean about wanting to understand it better. My body is me - why am I keeping secrets from myself? It's funny but DH codes, and he's exactly the same about wanting to understand things - including his body - and fix anything that isn't quite right. I'd never connected the two before! I'm glad the understanding you have is helping thus far.

Sorry you had a difficult morning @sweetpea0318. I hope this afternoon's gotten better.

Hey @Boboelephant, I know what you mean about needing a break from here. I've been quietly lurking for the past couple of weeks, mostly to find out how others are getting on. Its hard to come up with something to write when feeling rubbish.

Ah @ChaosMoon I'm so happy for you, I can't believe a heartbeat already! That's pretty exciting and a little scary! Hope you start to feel a bit better soon xx

@sweetpea0318 sorry you're feeling a bit rubbish, I hope it turns up soon to ease your mind xx

Ahh @Eastend2015 sorry you've been a bit unwell xx

Our bodies are amazing things and hugely complex, so much so that with all the years of research we still don't know everything about them and why they do things the way they do it. It's frustrating for someone like me who deals with computers and languages all the time and if there's a problem I just go into the code and fix it, I hate not knowing why something is not working and want to know the solution. This process has taught me a valuable lesson in just accepting I can't always fix things and make things work instantly. I'm not totally there yet but at least I understand why I feel the way I do which eases my mind a little.

That being said I'll still be investigating other solutions when the time comes! I'm trying to hold out a little longer!

Congratulations on the job @knitkitty! That’s really great news and will be a fantastic distraction from ttc madness. I’ve been in my new job since end of July and it has def helped me - if nothing else I’m just too busy to be constantly googling random things!

I’m feeling a little bit shaky this morning - I think it’s because I normally get my positive opk on cd 17 (today) & still no sign of it. I’m sure it will just be a bit late as has happened before but it does knock me a little bit when things don’t happen as expected. Think I need to do a little re-read of this thread and get my positive vibes going again!

@chaosmoon that’s brilliant news! How far along are you now?

Thanks @knitkitty, I felt terrible on Saturday- kept throwing up and couldn’t even hold down water. It was so bad I thought I actually had a bug. Since then things have eased quite a bit so now I’m worried that things aren’t progressing. Unfortunately strong symptoms haven’t always meant a good outcome for us and given how variable things have been I don’t know what to think!! As you suggested- trying to re-read the affirmations in this thread and accept what will be will be. When do you start the new job? What are you knitting?

😊 Thanks @Boboelephant

@ChaosMoon thankyou and a massive congratulations to you on your bfp and seeing a heartbeat!!! How exciting!!!

I'm good thanks @KnitKitty. Cramping and nausea still going strong but I don't care because I'm still riding the high of seeing a heartbeat on mt follow up scan on Friday. In reality, we saw a smudge that could've been anything and a flicker that the doctor tells us was a heartbeat, but even that was awesome. Roll on the 12 week one so there's something recognisable!

Your OH is wise. It's a good decision to carry on and not worry about it.

Welcome @Boboelephant. I'm sorry to hear about your loss and I'm not surprised you have darker times. But it's great that you've got yourself to a more positive place now. I'm glad you've found your way here too.

@KnitKitty haha thanks hun. We can be each other's little fan club then! 🐱🐘❤ Congratulations on the new job!! 👏👏

Hello all! I'm a bit late joining the party but I just stumbled across this thread and it feels like fate. I have been on the TTC after pregnancy loss thread for a long time and recognise lots of names on here. Hello! 👋 I also remember this thread being mentioned but I think I wasn't in a great place mentally so didn't look then.
I've taken a bit of a MN break recently to get my head back in the right place. I didn't feel positive and didn't want to write about that as I felt like if I talked about being negative I would be feeding those thoughts. I am feeling much happier now and plan to focus on the good in my life, be as healthy as I can, laugh every day, enjoy my DH and DS and continue to believe that I can get pregnant again and it WILL happen. So I was looking for something... and I found you lovely ladies! And I love that the person that started is none other than the lovely @KnitKitty. Also a fan girl here! ☺
@TedLife I agree with you so much and your comment was an eye opener for me. I have referred to af as the witch many times without really thinking. I saw this affirmation which sums up what you said well.
'My period reminds me my body is functioning properly.'
I will try and remember this if it's not my month this time.
And for now- 'I choose to heal from past hurts and disappointments'