Staying Sane - Positivity during TTC journey

Yep, that's good line progression right there Angelmirale! Now step slowly away from the tests before you get obsessive! Can you believe your eyes yet? How are you feeling, any symptoms to speak of?

VenusStar yoga class with DH sounds lovely! Hope it's good!

Frazzelrock you make me chuckle as your use of "woo", yes I think a bit of "woo" is good for you. It's important to look after mind, body and spirit. I had acupuncture many years ago and it wasn't my thing, but I'm glad I tried it. It's definitely a good thing to do at least once, and a lot of people swear by it, so give it a go!
All your feelings and worries are totally understandable. And being given the go-ahead to TTC again after so long not being able to must feel a bit like a kid being let lose in a massive toy shop to find that one toy its been asking for for months. You know it's hidden in there somewhere, but it might take some time to find and you're all excitable and frustrated all at the same time. But as with looking frantically for something you've lost and not finding it because you're in a panic, I think it's easier to conceive when you're not feeling too frantic about it too. Meditation, massages, reiki, acupuncture, reading books, watching films, writing a journal, making things... it all helps keep you calm and take your mind off things. Good luck with quieting the mind. It's a difficult thing to learn how to do, but once you can do it it's a skill that stays with you for life.
Try changing that mantra of yours to "I have faith, and I am at peace." Whenever you find you're getting frazzled, pause, take 3 slow breaths and repeat this to yourself until those voices in your head quieten down.

CookieWaffle I had a chemical a couple of months ago... two months after MMC and the second day of my period I got to work, one of my colleagues asked me how I was and I burst into tears. I totally understand needing some time off. You must take care of yourself and let yourself feel the feelings. You're doing so well, and you can see the silver linings of it already, which is good. But you also have to allow yourself to grieve and heal emotionally so you can "move on" (for want of a better phrase) feeling stronger. Hugs xxx
Neck and shoulder massage sounds amazing.

I love that all you Sunshine Ladies are really looking after yourselves.

I've been trying to not be closed emotionally (after the advice of the reiki practitioner). I had a wobble last night and let it out rather than trying to take my mind off it, and today I felt a wave of emotion while at work and took myself off to a quite corner. A couple of colleagues found me and gave me hugs and cheered me up. I am truly, truly, blessed with the colleagues I have. They're an amazing bunch of supportive and funny women and I am so lucky to have them around me. That's my positive thing for the day, my gratitude of the support I receive at work.

This is incredible news Angelmiracle!!!

I wish you a very happy and healthy pregnancy.
I know this is the TTC boards, but feel free to stick around to share the positivity for as long as you want to. :)

This has really made me happy this evening!

Hi again Sunshine Ladies

I just got back from having my reiki session.

It was nice and relaxing. The lady was lovely. We had a long chat about why I was there at the start and discussed the MC and my strange gynae history and my need for balance in my life at the moment and how I'm trying to focus not only on TTC again or the MC but on other things as well.

She said a few lovely things. One was that MC was like losing a spirit, which touched me.

She also said when pregnant the pregnancy becomes part of you and it's hard to find who you are again afterwards without the pregnancy and probably my womb and ovary are also missing the baby and being part of that creative process. She told me to visualise my womb and ovary and welcome them to me when she had her hands placed over that area.

She also used a crystal pendulum over my chakras at the beginning of the session and actually paused to tell me that my 3rd eye was wide open, but I'd closed off my emotions. She said creating a pregnancy was sort of the ultimate way of being creative and she thought I'd completely shut off that in other areas of my life to help me "move on" and expected I felt a bit nothingy about everything at the moment. (Not quite how she put it, but it's the phrase I'm using!)

This is completely true. I was very low for a couple of months after MC and then decided it was time to pull my socks up and "move on" but I've just been struggling with feeling like everything is stagnant and unfulfilling.
I found it hard when my sister announced her engagement and the fact she was soon getting a puppy a couple of weeks ago. Lots of people have been getting promotions or new jobs and leaving my place of work recently, and I've been feeling a bit left behind and like nothing good or unexpectedly wonderful ever happens to me. I've just generally been battling the blah! Although, meditation has been helping and I have been feeling more upbeat than I had been (if that's not too much of an oxymoron)

She said while she understood the strategy and the need for it at the time, she felt it wasn't serving me well anymore and I need to not be scared of opening up again. She said I should just be me and everything else will fall into place.

During the session I was very relaxed and then a couple of times out of nowhere I started crying silent tears. It was a lovely gentle release.
I've realised on my way home I haven't really been thinking much about the baby I lost and have been rationalising away my feelings and putting it to one side. So I've just been spending some time thinking about Little Pea and I think I'll get out the scan again later and possibly have a good cry if I need it.

Glad I went.
Feeling very relaxed too.

Hi again CookieWaffle sending you hugs this morning.
I wish my OH was an ice cream enabler! I really fancy some Ben and Jerry's Peanut-butter Cup ice cream... UUUuuuuummmmmm!

Quote for today:

"Be the energy you want to attract." Unknown

Just watched the video Frazzelrock, it's really wonderful!

This is exactly what this thread is about.

When I first started TTC I was excited and nervous, but in a good way.
After losing my first pregnancy I felt very low for a while and had been noticing thoughts of doom and gloom about any future pregnancies and doubting my ability to get pregnant again or for it to be successful if I do fall pregnant again.
I know these are just thoughts, and I don't want these thoughts to be the ones I listen to.
This thread is about finding that excitement again, knowing that any experience I have from now onward has nothing to do with the experiences I've had in the past. I might as well have just stopped taking the pill. I've got a clean slate, a fresh start, and that's why we shouldn't feel disappointment when AF arrives, but excitement because we're given a brand new chance all over again!
We can choose if we listen to the positive voice or the negative one, and I chose to listen to my positive voice today.

I think I'm rambling now and not sure I'm putting across the point I wanted to make, but anyway, thank you for sharing the video, it's great!

Hi ladies!

Sorry I've not posted for a few days. I've been working all weekend and life got a bit busy.

Frazzelrock I'm glad AF finally arrived. Hope it's not been a bad one. I have had the same feeling about counselling in the past; unless you just need to talk to someone about how you're feeling I don't see it as very useful therapy for me since I easily talk through things with my OH and family and friends, but I think it can be useful for anyone who finds it hard opening up to close friends and family and who needs to hear someone say that they understand how they're feeling. The most useful therapy I ever had was psychotherapy. It actually dealt more with solutions than the problems themselves, and I think that's what your life coaching sounds like. It might give it a go some time.

The cat is doing really well. Settling in and I've met him and got purrs from him! My mum is really happy to have a cat around again. Her last cat died at the age of 21 a couple of years ago.

How is the fertility yoga going?

VenusStar I tried acupuncture a long time ago (more than 10 years ago) and didn't really enjoy it, apart from the massage at the end. But I don't think I was willing to give it a good enough go. I wasn't very good at relaxing back then so I just found it tedious! lol! I'm glad it's working for you. I hope it is putting your body and cycles into better balance. Good luck with your new cycle!!!

Wow, I don't think I have the guts to throw myself out of a plane ChaosMoon but I can imagine it's exhilarating if you've got the guts to do it!!! What an amazing experience!

I've had a lovely weekend. I've been at work, which has been fine and a colleague I like working with got back off holiday so it's been lovely having her back around.
Yesterday evening my OH and my family went to a French restaurant to celebrate the 14th July (French bank holiday) and I had a nice time with them.
I've been in my FW this week, and have managed to stay calm about it and not obsess about trying to DTD as often as possible or anything. OH doesn't have the highest sex drive so I had a couple of days pencilled in to try and seduce him! As expected it didn't go quite to plan, but I didn't panic and actually he surprised me with a morning session today! It feels so much better not nagging him about it and feeling that it was more pleasurable than a chore.
I should ovulate tomorrow if my cycle is the same as the last couple of months, so fingers crossed today's canoodling did the trick!

I have my reiki session tomorrow afternoon so I will let you know how that goes! I'm quite excited!

I hope you've all been having a lovely weekend!

ChaosMoon that's excellent news about your colleagues! What a relief! :)

You know how they say you should do something that scares you or try something new every day? Do you ever try to push yourself out of your comfort zone?
I do tend to find I have the best days when I push myself a little more.

I've just sent an email to a reiki practitioner to ask about availability for a session. I've not tried it before and I felt nervous even enquiring about it, but that's my thing for the day.

Anyone else pushing their boundaries today or this week?

Quotes for today:

“It’s ok to be scared. Being scared means you’re about to do something really, really brave.” Unknown

“Leaving your comfort zone is hard. Staying broke is hard. Pick your hard.” Unknown

“Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” Neale Donald Walsch

“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.” Unknown

“When was the last time you did something for the first time?”