The Good, The Bad and The Yams!

Baby bomber friend came round last night. He’s so happy about it and of course I’m happy for him, but it made me so sad too. It was really hard not to cry when he was talking about it. And there was a second baby bomb yesterday, they are both due on the same day. Uuurrrrrggghhhhhh. Sorry to everyone else having a rough time too, it’s a bag of shite, isn’t it?

I'm feeling much better about it all the the moment - I think I've resigned myself to IVF so I'm a bit more accepting of it! I do want to give it a bit longer and maybe wait for an nhs cycle rather than go for private right now - just because it's so expensive and the drugs are a lot to put my body through so want to give our bodies a bit of extra time to try....

Dh on the other hand is really struggling with feeling at fault and inadequate. I'm not sure that mentally he will be able to keep trying naturally for that much longer - sex is so much of a mission now because he starts thinking about it.....I think he'd prefer just to get going with ivf but he does understand my reluctance.

We think we'll just review it every few months and see how it goes .... God it's all so shit!!

Cd27 today. It's 1 day over for recent cycles but my previous cycles when I had loads of endo could be 30-40-50 days long or 16 days! My clearblue advanced fertility monitor says tomorrow I'm due FP but I have in and tested. It's a BFN so given it's digital that's pretty conclusive that I'm out again 😕 stupid 97% freak sperm!

Sorry to hear that @OrcinusOrca, sounds awful. Tests can be terrifying but are least you can get to the bottom of things and remove that uncertainty. Might not end up being as bad as you expected

Feeling sooooo rubbish. Just DTD and wow I've never seen so much brown blood. I'm convinced I'm broken. Why is every cycle so problem ridden but in a different way 😭 I'm convinced I'm for the knackers yard, I can't take this. Not sure I want an ultrasound to be told my body is failing because I can tell that from periods alone. Only 7DPO. Periods were so awful after the termination I feel like it's that that did it. Can't help but wallow right now.

Thank you 😊

@FairyAnn urgh! I hope it comes around quickly for you and that you get some helpful results

Thanks @OrcinusOrca, no explanation. Just got a letter saying 'unforeseen circumstances'. 😑

@Countrygirl94 same here, got married nearly 2 years ago. Feel like I'm barren 

@FairyAnn sorry to hear you've got to wait even longer, do you know why it's been pushed back?

@Owlpatrol do you want to rant about work? I have caused a bit of a shit storm my standing up for myself and so it's been a horrid last week or so at work for me, hoping it is a bit resolved by the end of the week as I'm on annual leave next week and won't be able to get it out of my head otherwise. Nothing worse than feeling trapped if you can't do anything, hope it improves soon. I totally check what my due date would be all the time!

@nearlysummer2018 I'd count you as late from CD27!

I've got myself some acne cream from the GP, hoping that helps. I think I am spotting too, 7DPO the tiniest tiniest tinge of light brown twice today when I've gone to the loo. Hoped the B6 would stop it. My misery is starting! Felt really sluggish and rubbish today but way too soon for symptoms so maybe I'm coming on early. My due date from now would be five years to the day from the due date of the pregnancy I terminated too. Even more haunting struggling TTC. Damn brain!

@Owlpatrol just so you didn't feel crazy I did mine and it's Valentine's Day. Doing that also ensures my FP starts today so thank you 😆

Ho ladies, a weird question as to when Late is late. I'm cd26 and have zero anything except a cold. My fp has, for the last 6 cycles been 24-26 days long. Does this mean tomorrow is late if it doesn't appear? Or do I go by the longest cycle I've ever had and was till day 86? I'm only 12dpo if that helps as I got my clear blue digital peak on cd 12 and 13.

Official mad yammer alert!!!! Just checked IF I was pregnant this month id be due on my birthday. Clearly just jinxed it. Please tell me I'm not the only one who checks my due date ever month? permission to slap me with a wet fish

@bridget33 no my dp won't even do the test. I could slate him for it but I can't he really doesn't want to and because he's got two from previous doesn't think he needs to plus he's the sort of man who is very stubborn. So I have to keep gently reminding him....whilst feeling totally un pregnant. This ttc sucks!

In other news the baby bomb I've got I actually feel happy for her. Which is weird when I was first ttc I was totally green eyed monster maybe I've turned a corner or something.

I feel so un pregnant today I'm so mardy as well because my job sucks and I can't do anything about it

Hi @Hopeislost, yes that was me. Sorry you had to go through that too. Some of us seem to feel it worse than others.

We've just been told our referral appointment has been pushed back a month, so that's another month of waiting...

@OrcinusOrca feels like I've been lied too.
Doesn't help that after getting married last year everyone asked "thinking of babies yet?" I know they mean well but brushing it off now is getting hard.

@LimpLettice I've followed your journey for a while (honestly I'm not a stalker). Congratulations, I hope your having a totally boring pregnancy.

CD20 here and have only managed to DTD once this FW as my HSG was horrific and I was in agony and bleeding for a week afterwards! Thank you for whoever warned me; I think it was @FairyAnn ?

Am devastated. Second SA is abnormal with 0% motility. Am so confused as the first test was pretty much normal but the second one has seriously plummeted. Gp said to wait until we've been trying for a year and then he'll refer us for ivf. Has anyone else experienced inconsistent Sa samples?

Thank you Lexie, me too!

Countrygirl and Orcinus it sucks. Whether you are a fresh twenty something a slightly more, ahem, mature 40 something. TTC for longer than a couple of months is a bag of shit. Which is why the yam threads are so great - we all agree it is a bag of shit and you can own up to the poas at 10pm on 8dpo and that you secretly hate everyone. We know you don't really :)

@Countrygirl94 I'm 26. Feels like life is a right bitch doesn't it? Meant to be in our prime yada yada. I've been TTC about the same time as you. Not long compared to many on here, but long enough to torment yourself and be resentful when people manage to fall pregnant as easily as I sneeze

Hi all, wondering if I can join have been a lurker for a while and you all seem so nice.

Age 24, ttc #1 Cycle 8 - which I realise isn't long really. But each month is getting harder especially when this month period has arrived 9 days late, should have known it would have when tested at 1 day late and got a BFN but I stupidly got my hopes up as each day went on. Cue tears in the toilet at work

DH is possibly going away with work for a few weeks and with being 9 days late we will have no hope this month. More tears, feeling stupidly sorry for myself I'm not usually like this.

Being 24 I stupidly thought this would be easy. Stupid me!

So many baby bombs! Urgh. So frustrating when people say they been ‘trying’ for 2 months. That is not trying! 🤬

@nearlysummer I hope you’re ok? Sounds like a v stressful and upsetting weekend.

@sparkwood I think I know and hate these people! 😂

@limp congratulations! So happy for you and you can finally relax a bit more and enjoy the pregnancy. Wishing you well for the rest of it and hope you both stay healthy throughout 🎈

@tisfortired I’ve had that treatment a few times, infertility experts not concerned about it so I hope it’s all over and done with for you now. And welcome! Hope you’re not here for long- if you know what I mean!!

I’m at the start of fw, currently on holiday which makes dtd easier. Last fw we only managed 2 sex sessions so we’ve got to do more this cycle! TTC has wiped out mine and OH sex drive.

Oh no so much cake required for all of us!

@Owlpatrol sorry to hear about another bomb. I got told at the weekend by a school friend that another one went to the GP thinking she might be pregnant and was already 5 months gone! Can't imagine that.

@nearlysummer2018 can't believe what was being said..! People have NO filter sometimes 🤬

@BGDino urgh your post resonates, I've done that before. Daring to be positive then realising life is too much of a bitch for positivity to help ☹️ hope Weds goes well, let us know how you get on?

Awww love @BGDino I did that before I went for my appointment just yo be sure

I'm thinking of testing Friday or Saturday been baby bombed today by someone trying for 2 months! Yes 2! And I'm so mad about something I found out she took drugs whilst being pregnant. Life is so unfair

I really don’t know what possessed me to take a pregnancy test early this morning, considering I know I’m not ovulating, or why I was irrationally upset about it being predictably negative. I guess the optimist in me thought maybe there’s a chance I ovulated without knowing while we were overseas and got lucky with the timing and the sex. Even though the doctor part of me knows that’s incredibly unlikely.

I’d also just like to say thank you to all of you on here, though you’re (mostly I assume) on the other side of the world from me here in Sydney, you all make me feel like I’m not alone in this horribleness.

First appointment with fertility specialist on Wednesday.