The Good, The Bad and The Yams!

Hi pinkemi

Im new here . im sorry you are feeling so down i know that crushing feeling oh so well. Im also sorry you have not got an understanding boss . I kept it from work when i had ivf (god knows how i managed that) as they just were not sympathetic to anything . Hope you feel a little better soon xxx

Sorry to hear that @books and @pink get yourselves a nice treat and look after yourself.

I’m just booking me and OH a fancy dinner date for my next optimal fw in a deluded desperate hopeful attempt to get us both feeling romantic. Well probably just eat and drink too much to have any sex but I’ve got to try!

FP has started here too as expected. Felt so down in the dumps about it, i called in sick to work as cant stop crying. This whole thing sucks. :-( i wish i had the sort of relationship with my boss that i could talk to her about these sorts of things, but she doesnt have a lot of empathy.

Ugh FP has arrived just as expected today. I find the disappointment even worse on cycles when I know we timed it well. I often feel sick on the first day of FP too... I guess hormone drop combined with the dread of another cycle ahead to navigate. Hope you ladies are faring better this week.

Ok fingers crossed for you xx

Yes I think I might get a pink dye test... the line is faint but it's blue so I guess time will tell x

Hi unicorn

Ah yes i have heard the same i didnt want to mention evap though at this stage and cause you more confusion . Can you get another test that is pink dye? If its an evap it tends to occur more with blue dyes than pink

The key to knowing if its evap is if the line is very thin and lacking in colour? If its thick and has some colour usally its not an evap though it can be a positive still if thin !.

I would say get another pink dye test to rule out all the guesswork xx

@herewegoagain18 hi thanks for getting back to me. My first test was a clear blue early detection one. I've read alot of bad reviews about them having evaporation lines but my line came up pretty much straight away even though it is faint. I'm hoping it's not an evap line 🤞

Hello to unicorn234

Was the first test a frer (first responce early results)? As it depends on the mul of the test (the amount needed to detect hcg) if it picks up a positive or not.

A frer is only 12.miu

Clearblue digitals are usally a minimum of 25miu (so more hcg needed to detect pregnancy). Unless the new rapid responce one which i dont think are readily avaliable.

Digitals are known for not showing positives early as usally higher miu.

Heres a link which shows a poster on another forums experience and some of the well known brands info
community.babycentre.co.uk/post/a726605/sensitivity_of_pregnancy_tests

Hopefully this helps and you get a stronger positive when its not so early. Good luck

Xx

Hi LexieJean (waves)
Thankyou and hope things are going ok for you? Xx

Hi there @herewegoagain Spunds like you’ve had a rollercoaster ride so far. Hope you find some relief/solace here.

Hi ladies I hope you don't mind my comment but would love some advice, been ttc since the start of the year..
I took a 6 day early pregnancy test yesterday and it came up with a faint line so i got all excited and bought the clear blue digital test and took it just now. It came up with not pregnant. I'm due on on Sunday, why's this happened to me?

Hi Booksandbaths1

Thankyou for the welcome and kind reply

Thats really good to know. OH isnt one to sit down and talk anyway so no chance of ranting to him. I think a even a saint would get fed up of hearing it anyway.

I Noticed your earlier posts regarding hyscopy i had a very similar conversation in the consultation for my ivf refferal. Thats actually the only test that has not been done a hyscopy feel free to ask if you wanted further details .

I meant to say in first post i hope as well as finding solice i can be of some help (for those that ask ,of course) with the process of moving onto fertility treatment. If i have the advantage of finding out first hand (not sure if good or bad thing!)the least i can do do is pass the experience on again only if asked .

Thanks again for the the welcome and kind reply Booksandbaths1 xx

@herewego Welcome! I'm sure you will find some comfort here. It can't take away the pain, sadness and utter shitness of it all but in the relatively short time I've been on this thread I've found solace and support in knowing I'm not alone in going through this journey. Plus having somewhere to rant that isnt at DP is so helpful. There's no judgement or advice unless requested - they're a just a lovely, yamtastic bunch of ladies. I'm sorry you're going through this and hopefully this thread will help you a little x

Hi

I have lurked on the other many threads for so long then lost them i cant remember if i posted so will delurk to introduce myself .

Herewegoagain18
Age 32
Ttc#1
Cycle#lost count
One early miscarriage at 5+1
One round of ivf, failed no eggs frozen

I had made the difficult transition over to the infertility boards as reffered for fertility treatment and felt i was too pessimistic for this board. Back in conception now as OH does not want to do any further fertility treatments so back to ttc again naturally. GAH!

Not sure where i fit really ,floating adrift.
I know i am long past the "have you tried this" and optimism of people. If i hear it will happen when you least expect one more time i might just scream and chew my hand off.

I didnt want to bring this board down which is why i made the jump. I rememberd this thread though and the theme not to offer "helpful advice" no matter how well intended. So hopefuly i fit in.

I have good friends and family around me that i love dearly. But who also all have children and have not had infertility /tt
struggles so just dont get it.

There are a few that HAVE had struggles which have been pretty profound so i feel im not in a position to complain and count my lucky stars really.

One family member was in exactly the same boat as me. We were each others outlet. I have just found out there round of ivf worked.

I am beyond happy for them and want nothing more for them to get their happy ending. I know how awful this all is.

However now I am offically the last one in the family and of my friends anyone that registers on my radar of importance without a child. I just feel left behind.

I am also really sad though as selfishly i feel like i have lost my confidant now. I just feel like im floating in limbo with no one to talk to who gets it in real life either because they havnt been through it or i dont want to upset them or them feel bad.

That was long (and hopefully not to depressing!) so will leave it there for now.

Xxx

So.. i dreamt of positive pregnancy tests last night.. and woke up to FP style cramps this morning... So im thinking she will raise her ugly head at some point today. :(

@sparks big hugs. I totally understand that feeling. 💐

Thanks @rubberduckies Yes it does seem weird. I think we're going to pay for another private consultation just to get a 2nd opinion/ask for a hycosy. Part of me really wants a proper reason for our struggles too.

On another note... self pitying rant alert! I went out for dinner with 2 new lovely friends last night. One has a child already & the other dropped the baby bomb. Cue long discussions about pregnancy, maternity clothes and babies 😣 I played along but inside I was just so so sad. Came home and cried.. ha not what DH wanted after the footie. I'm just so fecked off with it all. She 'tried' for 1 month! FP due imminently so feeling extra emotional. We really got it all lined up this month with those freaking expensive stupid smiley face tests, supplements etc and I know it'll be for nowt. Ugh just feeling so worn down by it all today.

@Booksandbaths1 That's odd, most things I've read seem to suggest that ruling out tubal issues and checking uterus lining is done before treatment.

Seems bonkers to fork out ivf money if actually there's a cause which could be fixed. Have they offered other uterus based investigations - is that why?

If you're private you can have whatever you want if you pay, and can 'shop around' at different clinics.

Good to hear it’s all going well @si1ver

Gah! on your behalf @spark Damn TTC

Let us know how tomorrow goes @si1ver. Nice to hear from you and glad you’re feeling ok.

I’m really wondering how much longer to go on for. It’s been over 2 years and 30+ cycles, and I’m 41. FP due any minute and I’m fucking sick of it. Gah.

I'm ok @Lexi, 10+2 and starting to feel a bit more human. I have another early scan tomorrow and then I get sucked into the NHS care cycle. My 12 week scan is on the 18th.

Of course @si1ver, it’s such a hard stage to get to. I think in my head I thought I was ok with it but I guess the letter made it more real and just messed my head up some more! How are you getting on?

@LexieJean I know exactly what you mean about time running out. Before our cycle of IVF started we had a two month wait and even though I knew it was basically impossible for us to get pregnant again naturally, I was still devastated each month when we didn't.

No one actually wants to put themselves through IVF if they don't have to.

Oh god @pink both mine and OH libido are seriously low now thanks to TTC-it just takes away all the spontaneity and we’re both feeling the pressure.

I don’t know what ovulation induction is @dino but I hope you get some answers/a plan you can work with on Thursday.