TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

Clearest pic i can get.

Morning ladies. Been quiet this wkend as af due Monday and thought i was out. Had a little tiny bit of spotting friday and TMI warning brown / yellow spotting yesterday. Not loads wore same pantliner all day but enough to see.

Anyway poas this morning just because i like to i suppose and im sure i can see a squinter. A little shadow of a line. Now dp is adamant there isnt one but he said that with our son so...had anyone had implantation bleeding around af was due and would mind sharing?

Sorry I missed your birthday yesterday @Cakelaur hope you had a great day!

Today is was my edd, I don't even know how I feel about it, it's very strange.

@MrsLCW so sorry for what you went through, i cant imagine how hard that was.
It just proves that even after 12 weeks there is so guarantee, which is sad.

Lovely name.
Good luck for this FW

@hayleyfx good luck for end of tww, hope you dont go too crazy 😂 FX its a bfp at the end.

Due dates are rubbish, i still think about how many weeks id be.

@Boboelephant Thanks, i hope she comes today too. Despite pretty much knowing im out, until she comes your mind still taunts you with that 'what if/maybe'
@Cakelaur Funny you say that, iv had a sore throat since 12dpo nothing else, feel a bit ribbish with it and maybe a bit of a runny/congested nose now and again.
I also feel queasy when i wake up but it passes. I cuddled DH this morning and he smelt like sour milk, weird.

Im 14dpo today and bfn on frer yesterday so im betting on af.

@YellowDaffodils86 so sorry for the bfn. It is so crap. If she's coming I hope af comes today so you can look forward and get out of the limbo. I'll be here with you for next month. Hopefully it'll be us soon!
@Anyday88 glad af is finishing and it's almost go time. Fx!
@L1zz13 glad your body is getting back to normal too. Hope your hcg goes down and you can crack on too.
@hayleyfx ooh I hope this is your month! Fx for next weekend!! I feel your pain too. I had a little big brother top for my DS that won't fit anymore and my due date is in 7 weeks. Sending hugs.
Same to you @MrsLCW. Due dates are really hard. And I'm so so sorry you lost your little girl at 20 weeks. I can't even begin to imagine your pain.
@Cakelaur what happened to part time??? 🤣 Hope you have a nice dinner tonight.

Thank you all so much! I'm feeling much brighter after a good nights sleep!
I hope today will be a better day! X

@MrsLCW I’m so sorry for the loss of your little girl, how awful. Penelope is a beautiful name. I’m sorry your due date is approaching too, it just seems so unfair. Sending you lots of love too hun xx

@Cakelaur thank you, that’s a great idea. It’ll be nice to have something to look forward to on that day instead of just dreading it!

Thanks for all the birthday messages ladies!! Had a bit of a hormonal crazy lady day yesterday. But hey ho. My OH is home tonight and I think taking me out for a nice dinner and we both have tomorrow off to celebrate.

@Mistymeow don't wanna put thoughts in your head, but when a baby implants... your body's immune system drops so your body doesn't reject with both bfps a cold was my first symptom! 🤞🏻

@MrsLCW sorry your a bit up and down at the mo. And I'm so sorry you lost your little girl. What a gorgeous name. I was very similar to you (although I lost mine a lot earlier) I took a lot out on my amazing OH. I don't think he realised how hard it hit me. I don't think I realised how hard it hit me. Sending massive hugs. Good luck with FW. 😉

@hayleyfx I'm so sorry your due date is approaching. Maybe plan something nice to remember the day? We booked a trip away to France with our best mates quite soon after we lost ours, so I didn't have to be in the country for the due date.

Hope everyone has a lovely Sunday. I'm off to work again!! 😭 a 7 day work week this week. So much for turning part time!!! 😂

@MrsLCW didn't want to just read your post and go to bed.
Your story is heartbreaking. Any loss is devastating but gosh 20 weeks! You must be a truly brave and courageous lady coming through this ordeal. Strong and ready for fighting. An inspiration x
Huge hugs to everyone. Nighty nite xx

Mrslcw what a difficult date for you coming up... we lost ours at 14 weeks,
I never knew the exact due date
And that was hard enough! Just can't imagine how you must be feeling :(
What a lovely name Penelope.....

@hayleyfx I'm the exact same lovely, and also should have been due with our little girl in 6 weeks. We found out she'd died at our 20 week scan, and called her Penelope. She was absolutely beautiful and we were due on June 27th. I'm absolutely dreading that date coming round. Sending you loads of love xxx

@Boboelephant I’m in TWW now! 4dpo, planning on testing next weekend and so ridiculously nervous 🤦‍♀️😂
@Cakelaur happy birthday! Hope you had a fab day!
@L1zz13 sorry af is arriving however it’s great that you’re positive! I know what you mean, it’s a relief knowing that everything is getting back on track. Fingers crossed for the new cycle! 🤞

Hope everyone has had a good day, the weather has been gorgeous ☀️ I’ve been having a lovely day but a friend visited with her baby today and at the time I was happy of course, he’s absolutely adorable. However now I’m looking through my box of baby clothes/stuff, getting weepy at the “Born in 2018” onesie I bought and thinking about how I should be giving birth in about 6 weeks 🙄 why do I do this to myself!! I’m sure I’ll feel more positive tomorrow but you just get those days and moments don’t you 🤦‍♀️

Hi everyone!
So sorry for all your BFNs and huge hug and congrats to the lovely lady with a BFP!! Amazing news!!
I am in my fertile window just now and we DTD twice this morning
However I've been sooo down and truly bloody awful to my poor hubby! I keep snapping at him and being super grumpy and teary! Thankfully he totally gets it and is wonderful, but that almost makes me feel worse!
It's still so recently that we lost our little girl, I think I maybe need to give myself a little bit of a break, but I deffo need to give him a break too!
He's away for work Mon-Fri (annoying when it's our FW) so I feel we really need to make the most of our time together!

Ahh sorry for the rant everyone. Xx

Thank you for the warm welcome everyone. My immune system must be totally crap right now cos as well as the UTI I've got a cold, I'm like an old woman!

Also waiting for AF so I can at least have cd1 and start planning again. Still got that dream that I've managed to conceive but I think I would be setting myself up for disappointment.

AF imminent! Phew. Don't need to paint a tmi picture.
Such a release of emotions. Been in a very dark place the last phew days. Of course I was hoping to be pg again but AF is second best for me.
Hope your all having a good weekend xx

Happy Birthday @Cakelaur 🎂

Glad they said it's nothing serious @laney79
So sorry @Boboelephant and @lilimum4

First Af since the mc has just finished for me so currently eagerly anticipating fertile window! Looking forward to enjoying some time as a family on holiday too!

Good luck to those of you that are still in the tww.

Sorry @mistymeow and welcome 😊

@Cakelaur Happy Birthday 🎁🎉

Thanks @Boboelephant

@Boboelephant hey, used a frer earlier on, also a bfn. So waiting for AF now and i guess in to the next month.

@Blondcat thanks. I hope your cycle returns to normal soon. I'm feeling ok. Still fed up but I'm getting used to that. Must remain optimistic!
@Laney79 I'm so sorry glad they've said it's not serious. Hope you get af soon and can start ttc again.
@Mistymeow so sorry that you've had to join us but you're very welcome. Hope your body sorts itself out soon.
@YellowDaffodils86 agghh sorry!! Bfns are the worst. Have you used a frer yet? Fx for better news.

@Cakelaur happy birthday!!!! 🎉🎈

@Mistymeow I'm so sorry but welcome to the huddle. 🐧 🤞 for the fertility cape.

@Laney79 glad all is ok. Hopefully af arrives soon so you can know where you are.

@Mistymeow sorry for your loss. Things seem to be a little up in the air after mcs, hopefully you get an answer to where you are at soon. I understand your frustration.

So i cracked yesterday and did a boots own early pregnancy test. It shone a big bright whiter than white BFN! Have pretty much been sulking since.
Its 13dpo today and i have saved some fmu(glamorous) and am off to buy a FRER.
Im pretty sure AF is coming tomorrow though.

Laney pleased all is ok. Fx it's AF and business can resume as normal soon x

Cakelaur I love the scratchcard idea!! So much more fun than angling a pee stick in the direction of different light sources

Hi everyone, I hope you don't mind me joining (I have read all 34 pages, what a lovely bunch you are!)

I had a MMC at 9 weeks 4 days. I actually started to bleed heavily during the scan, but two weeks later they found some lingering tissue so I had an ERPC. This was our first pregnancy, we didn't expect to conceive naturally (DH has existing fertility issue which causes low sperm count), so we were devatated to lose the little one. We started TTC as soon as the bleeding stopped (I felt ready and I wanted to capitalise on potentially higher fertility conditions). I took a test two weeks after the ERPC and it was a BFN thankfully. It's now been 3 weeks since the ERPC and I have no clue about my ovulation or when to expect AF! My breasts have becoming enlarged and sore the past day, my temps are raised but haven't seen any EWCM which is what I would usually see. I'm totally clueless! I can't BD right now anyway because of a UTI (booooo!). Obviously I'm yearning for a BFP and am symptom spotting like a crazy person, but I would be satisfied with AF because then I would know the body is getting back to normal!