TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

Today's opks are just as light as negative can get.
Wondering if they might be dodgy as I did an hcg one by mistake. It came out with the same as my opks and it's impossible I can be pregnant!
So ignoring them and going by my body I have either O'd or about to (or not).
Hubbo pissed and asleep on the sofa I have the bed to myself. Hoorah. Not feeling horny anymore!!😉

On a serious note... well done to you all and thanks for sharing your happy and sad news. You're a wonderful group of strong ladies.

Yep, negative as ever here!

@Boboelephant glad to hear yours is darkening - woop woop! Hope @YellowDaffodils86 and I won't be much further behind.
Anyone else in the same FW waiting game? 😀

@strawberrye so sorry to hear your news, hope you're ok. Sending love & hugs x

Hey @YellowDaffodils86 all good here thanks, super busy at work (just got in 😒) so it's keeping me distracted but have got a bit I'm bored of opks so haven't done one today and now worried I'll have missed it! Ah well. Still keeping up the marathon but have to say we missed a day yesterday..both so knackered! Going to test now... poas Friday here I come!

@Boboelephant @Cakelaur Hehe yes to JKS!! 😂

Boom!!! @Boboelephant I'm gonna hold you to it!!! PLEASE LET THIS BE THE MONTH!!! It will go down in history!!! A baby named with the initials JKS!! It's perfect!! 😂

@Boboelephant todays one was negative. Sitting at the same as the others. I feel as if iv had a few fertile days, but app says ov day is 9/5. So as will JKS 😂

@Cakelaur ohhh lovely double rainbow 🌈
Gotta mean something!

@BabynameEdie hows it going?

@strawberrye im so sorry, but im pleased it wasn't ectopic. Hopefully be back in fw soon. Sending hugs.

@L1zz13 i will 😝 are you now in tww??

@sweetpea0318 i know how you feel with impatience, im always impatient with everything! TTC does not suit me!!
I think AF will come soon.

Haha @Cakelaur my surname actually starts with S so could totally work!! 🤣🤣

@strawberrye so sorry babe. I'm glad you finally have answer I'm just sad that it's what you suspected. But like you said.. silver lining it's not ectopic.
@KnitKitty sorry the witch got ya. But equally now it's a clean slate to start again.
@Eastend2015 hopefully the counselling can give you that avenue to vent. Hope it works for you.
@L1zz13 hope you do O in the next couple days. Cycles post mc are always a mystery.
@Boboelephant good luck with the shagging!! Hope your friends don't mind! Haha!! Maybe if you conceive you can name bub after them!! 😉 or alternatively give it the initials of JKS! 😂

@strawberrye so sorry but glad you're feeling fairly positive. 🤗

@Eastend2015 so good that you're getting the counselling that you need.

@strawberrye I'm so so sorry for your second MC. Really glad it wasn't an ectopic. I hope you get your sticky bean soon.
@L1zz13 I'm the same! Mine are all over the place and if I get 30 days it's a good cycle! I'm expecting to ovulate tomorrow too so fx for us both. Also have the killer back pain!! It is crap!
@Eastend2015 so glad they sorted it so quickly for you. I hope it helps.
@KnitKitty I'm sorry if af has got you but glad you know where you stand. Onto next month!! 🤞🤞
@hayleyfx thanks. Me too!!

I’m loving the JKS motto, that’s gonna be my motto for this month 🤣

@strawberrye I’m glad you finally have answers and also that it’s not an ectopic. I’m so sorry though, that’s rubbish. Sending you lots of hugs
@Boboelephant ooh getting close! I get so excited at positive OPK’s 🤣
@Eastend that’s great that you’ve got counselling sessions, I think somewhere to vent and let it all out will definitely help. I hope it does. Really hope you’re feeling more positive soon, it’s so hard though I know!

Fingers crossed for you ek78, but if it is AF arriving I hope she gets on with it soon so you can start a new cycle.

strawberrye always glad to put a smile on someone's face. Glad for you that you've not had an eptopic, but sorry to hear you've had a second MC. Hugs xx

Boboelephant I think she said 4 weeks from first negative pregnancy test just to help them with dating. The other doctor I saw and the nurse both said it's best to wait until after first period, but I think this lady took pity on me because it's been such a drawn out process from start to finish (MMC, two failed medical managements and eventual surgical management followed by very prolonged and slow drop in HCG), so she told me that in case I wanted to try straight away (but also made sure I knew she wasn't assuming I wanted to). Lovely lady, actually. Can't fault the care I've received. It makes the world of difference to feel supported and well looked after by the hospital staff.

sweetpea0318 Sorry about your BFN. Fingers firmly crossed for you.

Well I think my symptoms were all just signs of AF getting on her broomstick to come for a visit. Today on the way home I was just thinking that I hadn't had any signs or symptoms of either pregnancy or period and then felt a mini gush down there (I think my body has a serious irony issue). Thought it might have been CM, but it looks like AF has arrived. I totally forgot about PMS (never had it on the pill); that totally explains the mood swings!

Sending hugs @strawberrye

@cakelaur thanks for the rainbow!

So I had a call from a bereavement midwife and I have 12 weeks free counselling sessions starting in 2 weeks. All I had to do was ask and kinda kicking myself for not asking before. I just need somewhere I can go and cry for a bit. I’m so tired of trying to keep it together. Better things are coming!

Yes @Boboelephant I'm defo not 28 that would be far too normal. I was 30 on the occasion before mc so I'll go with that. I've never had a normal cycle in my life!
30 days would make my next Af on the 20/5 and O day tomorrow!
🤞🏻so all rosy in terms of bringing the right bun ingredients together

Back ache is proper killer. Took paracetamol earlier only took the edge off.

Just got my repeat hCG back - now less than 1. So that's a second miscarriage/biochemical pregnancy. Feeling part sad, part relief it's not an ectopic. Also relieved to finally know what has happened so I can draw a line under it and move on.

Thanks @bobotheelephant I think I’m cd27 if mc day is day 1- I even have some confusion over that as not 100% sure when I passed the sac. I might not have even ovulated yet! Will test in a few days if no af and if I’m still driving myself bonkers with ‘maybe’.
Hope you all have lovely weekends - and I’m taking on the suggested motto- JKS!!

@L1zz13 I agree with @Cakelaur. Didn't you say you had 30 day cycles? So that should make AF due 20th if April's started in the 20th too. You know you body though. I'd keep testing too for a few more days.
@YellowDaffodils86 thanks hun! Did you test again today?
@Cakelaur gorgeous!!!
@zarala haha JKS 🤣🤣
@sweetpea0318 ahh frustrating! You'll get there but I'm sure it's a pain. I'm impatient too! Hope you're out of limbo soon.

Off to stay with mates for the weekend and have to continue the shagathon (JKS) as I'm expecting ov tonight or tomorrow. Getting ready for some ninja moves! 🤺🛌

Thanks ladies, your posts have made me smile today! JKS is a great motto! Love the rainbows too :) I’m still feeling a little stressed today but a bit brighter than before.

@knitkitty - def with you on the crazy! Did a pg test today just to be sure that my bloated stomach didn’t mean anything exciting and it was BFN. Guess it must be all the chocolate I’ve been eating instead.

Aaaarh! Just want af to show already!! I’m not a patient person at the best of times & this wait is killing me!! Currently cd 36 since mc & no sign...

@Cakelaur love a double rainbow 🌈 🌈

I dunno if you ladies can see this. But I'm sat outside our room reading my book and it starts to rain. There is the biggest full rainbow I've ever seen and I'm not sure if it captured that well... but there's a second one above it too!!! That's gotta be a good sign!! 🌈

@Cakelaur the Af date should have read 20/4. April's Af. May Af due (according to Flo) 17th May.
I'm taking that with a pinch of salt as who know for sure, certainly after mc's.
My body is speaking O. Maybe it's anovulatory.

Just Keep Shagging - JKS
Is my new favourite phrase!
Once I get on this TTC bus I'll just stick to that philosophy and hopefully be as lucky as @Cakelaur
JKS marathons all the way!

😂😂😂

Anyway happy Friday all!
Any more POAS results?!

Oooh @Boboelephant looking good. Defo close!!
@L1zz13 I'm gonna say not yet. But it is possible you missed the surge. But I still go by the next couple days. If af is due 20/5... I'm guessing maybe 6th or 7th for ov.

Roll up roll up suggestions please!

Noticed 2/3 days of scant EWCM The rest was practically nothing with bits of translucent white jelly.

@Boboelephant 🎉 still not sure where the hell i am🤷🏻‍♀️

@strawberrye I didn’t mean to imply that how you are feeling isn’t perfectly natural- I feel like that a lot of the time at the moment and then feel awful and think I must be an awful person to be so jealous so a double whammy!! But yes I do try and be mindful of others when I am having a moan!

Fx @L1zz13!