TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

@DaisyMay25 thank you, thank god you see it too! Am now so nervous and may not sleep..will definitely retest in the morning. Xx

@BabynameEdie it's not even a squinted, I didn't have to click on it!!

@BabynameEdie I see it!! Retest in morning with fmu!!

Any thoughts? Sorry it's so late at night 🐧🐧

I couldn't stop myself..cracked open a frer and...... 😬😬😬 I think there's a line. It's definitely a squinter but..

So finally had my appointment tonight with a gynaecologist about the pains I get in my pelvis and back. Nothing was found but during internal exam she said there was a little swelling so book in for another scan in a couple of months time. What she explained was interesting. Since these pains only started after my mc she said maybe my mental health is effecting my physical, because I'm stressed and angry and grieving my body isn't healing. And I may just notice pains but now then before because I'm paying more attention.
Then she said what people keep telling me, and it just makes me angry more than reassures me, the old 'you've got pregnant before so you can do it again' it just makes my blood boil.
She did remind me only four months until we get referred for tests though...

@Cakelaur I have so much to learn still!! I thought the clear blue ones were so expensive that they would be the most sensitive. 4 frers arrived this afternoon. Going to do my best to wait until fmu tomorrow test. Got a bad feeling though - feel like af is coming 😡 ah well!

@BabynameEdie frer are about 12mui and clear blue digi is 50mui!! I think Superdrug's ones are also mega sensitive. If you desperately want you, you can pee in a cup with FMU and save it for when the tests arrive. But defo worth using FMU.

@HidCat I feel like it's dragging!! Haha!! But I'm just happy cos bub is doing well. Oooh 🤞🏻 for positive opk soon!! JKS!!

@weasledee so sorry AF got you!! She's so inconvenient. But maybe having secret sex will be fun! A quickie here and a quickie there!! 😉

@toots123 hopefully it'll become clearer soon. I'd suggest that your 1 day bleed could be ovulation bleeding. And therefore you've just got first AF. But who knows bodies are bizarre after loss!

@PassTheAfterEights 😂🤣😂 49 hpts?!! And I thought I was bad!!! That's gotta be a world record! Fingers crossed you get your bfp on the frer!

@Boboelephant of course you still get cake!!! Everyone can have Cake!! Can't wait to see what happens!

@Martydog I'm so pleased you've got a nice holiday booked. Much needed I would imagine!

I'm was feeling ok until I started watching this time next year and that set me off.
My stomach feels like I have done about 200 sit ups but no bleeding today and no pain unless I bend down so it looks like I will be able to use the swimming pools on holiday next week. 😁
Hope everyone is ok.

Definite tww craziness @BabynameEdie! Let's hope it's finally our turn hey!?
@Claire138 thanks hun! So glad to hear you're doing well. Fingers crossed everything is brilliant next Tuesday.
@hayleyfx thankyou!! Hope your JKS marathon is going well. You too @HidCat! Limber up time!! 🤣
@Cakelaur thanks hun. I so hope you're right!!! My LP is usually 13 days so due on your birthday. 🤞 Hopefully it really is birthday bfps! Does that still get me cake? 😉
@weasledee sorry af got you. Definite ninja sex for you!! Maybe encourage grandparents to do some outings with the kids?
@toots123 that's frustrating. Was it first af since MC? Hopefully your body sorts itself soon.
@PassTheAfterEights hope you're ok cycle twin. And that the witch stays where she firmly belongs... nowhere near us!!!

Sorry @weaseldee but sexathon hilarious, adopting that one. Hope you're OK as poss @martydog.
@Patienceofatoddler @Curlypop huuuuugest huge congrats!
Solidarity-in-frazzlement high five @boboelephant @yellowdaffodils86 @babynameedie & all tww'ers.

@cakelaur lovely pic :D thankfully finished the trial meaning can use OPK's and stuff from next cycle (going to!) but don't think they made us not test, just had to do it on their sticks on certain days, and post. £100 for my chromosomes, sure...
@strawberrye so glad you're feeling better and have some support IRL, helps so much! Hope the jetlag's gone, any updates from FF? I think I got the CB OPK's (one pack of 40 sticks, I think, which feels like it should be enough for two cycles?) and voucher code by email about two weeks after returning their stuff, maybe a little longer.
@peachesarenom there you aaare, how are you? x

Ordered x50 cheapies from Amazon last month and I peed on my last one last night what the actual??? What's more that was my first pee this cycle, so I was either short changed or peed on 49 in April. It was a pissy cycle but still. The shame!

BFN obviously, 10 dpo today, don't feel preggo. Do feel unspeakably irritable, negative and sad that'll be AF right on time for the weekend then FRER's arriving tomorrow JIC, had to order something this month.

Sorry she got you @weasledee

I think af has arrived but my cycles seem to be all over the place. I thought this was fertile week but obviously not. So it either means my 1 day af wasn't af and I had a 59 day cycle. Or it was and I had a 16 day cycle. Ok so the 50 day one seems more sensible. Argh

@HidCat haha I thought you meant you were limbering up 💃🏻🏃🏻‍♀️🤸‍♂️🧘‍♀️ and I was thinking "yeah get ready!" EWCM v positive sign tho 👌

@weasledee urgh sorry she got you 😡 and don't worry, nifty ninja style sexathon is def possible! 🤺🤺

AF has arrived! Bad enough but it now means we have to have a secret sexathon whilst on holiday with both sets of parents and DC!!!! in one cottage!!!!

That meant to say getting ewcm today. Bloody auto correct!

@BabynameEdie getting ready today but negative on opk this morning. Going to test again when I get home from work!

Thanks @Claire138!

@Cakelaur it's going so fast!

Haha @Cakelaur I love how BOLD you are 😂😀👏 no idea why that happens it does it all the time for me. Yes need to get a frer done - waiting for them to arrive in post!
Do frers show up earlier than clear blue? And should I wait til FMU tomorrow? (Am I patient enough....)
So glad you're at 9 weeks !! Woohoo 👏👏

Thanks @hidcat @babynameedie and @hayleyfx just trying to take it a day at a time. Hope you guys get that BFP really soon 🤞
@cakelaur I’m 6+3, at scan I’ll be 7+3. Last bub stopped growing at 6+4 last time so I’m at an anxious time. Hope you are doing well!!

And the award for making an entire bold message without realising.... goes to um... me!!! 🙈 sorry!!

@Boboelephant well you couldn't have timed BD better if you'd tried! Perfect example of JKS!!! I've got a great feeling about this month for you. Especially seeing as you're a little more relaxed about testing. You've done everything you could do! Dip looks great for implantation!! Temps are well up above coverline. How long is your LP usually?

@BabynameEdie crack open an frer!!!!! Temps are still up!! And implantation dip just like @Boboelephant eek!! I'm so excited for this week!!! I just know it's gonna be a mad month like it was last month for bfps!!! MAY MIRACLES!!!

Don't worry about individual dips and peaks. Look at the overall pattern. Every time it dips it's just oestrogen winning, every peak... progesterone wins. Look at my bfp charts...
both had weird highs and lows. My November one at least had an upwards projection. My March bfp was a rubbish chart and this bean is now 9 weeks!!

@Claire138 how far along are you now?

@Claire138 good luck, got everything crossed for you!! All day morning sickness is the one thing that I don’t miss (but will happily go through again) it’s a good sign that hormones are rising normally fx for your scan!! 🤞
Ooh got everything crossed for you both 🤞 @Boboelephant @BabynameEdie

@HidCat any news on LH surge? 🤞

@Claire138 ahh that's great news (well, I'm sure the sickness isn't great but as you say, it's def a good sign!). Let us know how scan goes on Tuesday. Hope you can keep busy until then xx

@Claire138 good luck with the scan! I hope the sickness isn't too bad for you.

Thanks @babynameedie it’s so lovely to have all you girls!! For TWW crazy, venting and just moral support! 😊
Still an anxious mess but all day morning sickness has kicked in these last few days. Really hoping it’s a good sign as I never had it with the bub I mc. Have my scan booked for next Tuesday but so nervous!! Hope you will be joining this other world of crazy very soon! ❤️

Thank you @Claire138 I know we just won't know for a few more days but it's so nice to have people who care share their thoughts! How are YOU?!! X