STOP! Yammer time. 🍠

Yep star :)

FairyAnn I have a very high pain threshold! I did get uncomfortable cramps during mine but nothing I couldn’t handle but then again, I deal with pain well most of the time.

How come you have to wait another four months wonky?

My period has been a bit weird today. Was getting stabby pains in my left side. Then very mild cramps. But all I’ve had in my mooncup both times I’ve changed it has been a few drops of brown blood and a little bit of red tinged cm. Even after a bm this evening, not had anything. I’ve just taken it out now. The cramps have gone completely. So I guess my hopes of some decent periods finally have gone out of the window!

Ugh. Having a total grump today ladies. Still have four months before I can go back to the GP for referral for investigations, don't even know if they'll refer me to fertility clinic or if I'll have to go to gynae first even then. So fed up with waiting. I'm clearly broken somehow after this long.

I clearly have a low pain threshold or my uterus was more like a scrunched up balloon that needed a lot of inflating!

@Bubblegum89 is HSG where they put the dye through to check for blockages? My first one was fine last year and my second was during my laparoscopy for endometriosis and that was fine too. I was cooking dinner and putting the wash on that afternoon and the next day building a playhouse (it was Easter holidays because I didn't want a day off work). I even dtd the following night!

Yeah, sorry for scaring some folks. It was the dye going in that really hurt - like period cramping x 10. One of my tubes was taking its time to inflate and I was close to saying 'Nope! I'm done!'

But as Bubblegum89 says, for some people, it's okay so fingers crossed for you all I'm just a one-off!

Yeah, got the wrong contact lens solution back in the day when there were types that could really hurt

Hope sorry to hear your news :(

FairyAnn my hsg was a breeze lol funny how people have such different experiences. Also, acid in your eye..?

Well I found a frer when looking for socks this morning so figured I’d just do it and get it out of the way and as I wiped after doing it, there was a streak of red blood and I actually laughed out loud. I always say if you want your period to start, take a pregnancy test. So anyway, it’s not actually started yet, I’ve just gone back to getting white creamy cm but I assume it’ll be here in full force by this afternoon. So maybe I did ovulate after all but I genuinely think my sis/hycosy has messed me up. My opks etc were all fine up until I had it done and in the months since I had the tests, my opks haven’t worked and my cycles have been a bit patchy. I don’t know if that’s even a thing but I don’t know, seems a little coincidental to me...

Thanks guys. Have made him start taking multivitamins but don't know how much use it will be!

@FairyAnn Eek! But thank you for the honesty. I need to book my HSG once FP arrives so will make sure I don't have to go back to work afterwards.

So what's worse than FP? Being woken up at 3.15am for it to start and then not being able to get back to sleep when you have a full day of teaching. Watch out kids Miss is cranky for a million reasons! However we have a month off now because we might go on holiday and we won't dtd then due to having a 3yo in bed with us all fertile week!

Sorry to start the day with a whinge but it's a sucky world in star village today!

Sorry for the news @Hopeislost 
Hope you feel better tomorrow @FairyAnn

Xxx

Oh no @FairyAnn !! I had hysteroscopy today and found it was awful! Worst pain and felt faint all day since. I heard hycosy wasn't as bad (got that next month) 😱

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It was the worst pain I've ever been in, and I once got acid in my eye.
Thankfully everything was clear so I'll never have to go through that ever again.
Advice for anyone having it - take painkillers before you go in, take a sanitary pad, and book the day off work. You won't feel like doing anything but lying on the sofa afterwards.

Hopeislost I’m sorry it wasn’t better news.

@Hopeislost I'm sorry to hear that x x

Sorry for the crappy news @hope 💐

@bridget33 It just came as such a shock as we assumed the only problem was me. Clomid has been mentioned but I have to have a HSG first.

Oh @Hopeislost - sorry to hear this. He would need to have a second one to double check though. My DH was slightly low so is being re-tested next week. He also drank a lot the weekend before and the dr thinks that may have had something to do with it. If you're not ovulating has clomid been suggested yet? Don't lose hope just yet!

Just got the results back from DH's SA. Everything is way below the reference numbers. So I don't ovulate and he has no sperm. Absolutely devastated!

Exactly :) I don’t know how people do this for years and years. I just couldn’t. I’m annoyed at myself for already wasting so much time, I don’t want to waste any more!

I really hope so, but if not at least we are out there living. And won’t turn bitter at all the time we wasted TTC 😊

June are we the same person? Haha. Thats what I told myself a few months ago. After this month, I was stopping because not only is it not fair on myself but it’s not fair on my DD. I feel for my partner though because he has no biological children. But we have a very good life, we have my daughter so we can do family stuff and she also spends time with her dad so we are also able to do grown up stuff too. Obviously I’d rather we had a baby instead but our lives are still pretty good without one if that’s how it was meant to be. Who knows, maybe it’ll happen for us both while we’re just out there living our lives :)

@bubble it does suck, massively, but I know I’m better off than most people. I’ve got a lovely DD and at least I get to experience being a Mum. Some people never even get that. I just can’t live under that cloud anymore, waiting for each month to pass by, wishing my life away until I’m pregnant again, which might be never! It’s not fair on my DD putting so much effort into a child that doesn’t, and may never, exist at the expense of a child I already have.

Looking that doesn’t look positive to me :(
The second line has to be as dark or darker than the control.

June that’s exactly how I feel now. Would love a baby and would love to give DD a sibling especially as she’s nearly 10 but I just can’t and don’t want to live my life like this anymore! It gets too consuming. And like you said, if it happens it happens and if it doesn’t then it’s just something we’ll have to deal with. Sucks but I guess there’s not much more than that that you can do

@bubble the enforced break helped, gave me back some perspective and let me see that whilst yes I’m desperate for another baby and a sibling for DD but I can’t spend all my life thinking about either ovulating or my period arriving. In the last 3 or 4 weeks I’ve started eating better, working out again and actually just enjoying being TTC free and the whole rigmarole of sex at a certain time. I refuse to go back to that place that was making my world a bit dark. If it doesn’t happen then so be it, we’ll adjust and survive.

@looking none of those OPK’s are positive, the line needs to be darker or as dark as the control line. Looks like it should happen soon from the last one on CD15.

Man I'm crap at this whole opk thing - HELP ME! Lol - is the one at 10pm cd 15 positive?

And by 34 day cycle I meant 31! But yeah I suppose you’re both right. I don’t think I’d be bothered if now and again I’d had odd cycles but for 16 years of my life they’ve been spot on so of course, cue me losing my damn mind. I can’t really say much about ewcm as it’s only been the past 3 months I’ve had it, it used to be just watery when I first started ttc. Anyway, I’ll have to wait and see. And I absolutely will not be testing unless I’m at least 2 months late because I am not a fan of testing full stop lol I don’t know how people can test at like 7dpo.

june I think it’s good to have a break sometimes. Here’s me fretting over ovulation and fertile/non fertile cm, I just want to live my life lol. I’m trying to keep to the mantra of “it’ll happen when it happens” even though it might not actually happen. I think accepting it’s totally out of your control is good. Hard, but good. I hope it happens for you soon :)