When the going gets tough, the tough get Yams

Thanks yammers. It does actually help. So few people know and DP is upset enough. I've literally just started bleeding, so hopefully it'll pass quickly and I can start to think forward a bit. I'm just so lost and angry.

Found the new thread! Have realised I mostly ignore MN at start of cycle then leap back in at 2wW when it's all on my mind again. Relentless baby bombs just now, sigh. 5dpo here and hoping the next 9 days pass quickly with no fake symptoms please. Still no word on when our first fertility appt will be so just keeping on trying! Sorry some of you are having such a crap time - this is such a lovely supportive group though

Can I join, been trying 7 months now :(

This wonderful group of yammers is exactly what I need when feeling angry/sad/self-indulgent/stupid/puzzled etc as I hope it is for everyone else.
Yes @limp what @milk and @bubble say is true we’re all here feeling the unfairness for you and wishing you well 💐

Limp you’re really going through it right now and I think I speak for everyone when I say you can be as self indulgent as you want here, this is EXACTLY the place for it. I wish you weren’t having such a shitty time, it’s just not fair, especially having it all dragging out like this too. I feel for you, I really do. I pop on here every day just to see if you have updated. I’m sorry this seems to be happening to you again

You are better at writing than you think you are Milk. This whole thread is filled with articulate, bright women and a distinct lack of huns.

It is a bit of both. I am angry, furious. Why do I have to keep waiting before I can move on, why am I stuck carrying dead tissue, why is this happening again, why does it seem to work out instantly for horrible, vacuous, stupid feckless people but I can't give DP this one thing?

We stupidly got our hopes up yet again, and now the last few weeks before our wedding are shit.

Milk he said 10-14 days because things were still very early and that gives it time to grow. Except it isn't going to, HCG rose 10% in 2 days, which is like a 14 day doubling time instead of 48 hours. At this level they prefer to go by scans than bloods (once they get over 1200 or a sac is seen) as it all slows down. I could book a scan but don't really see the point at this stage. Presumably it is time saving for them - 2 weeks gives me ample time to bleed and they will need to scan again to make sure it has all gone.

I wrote a very self indulgent post and deleted it, this is not the right place for it, but by god I feel bad.

Oh Limp I'm so sorry you are going through this.

Milk I hope another test puts your mind at rest.

Big congrats to Biscay too.

As for me, I have had enough. Ten more days of this limbo. Still no bleed, no cramps. Boobs hurt, headaches, but somehow I don't feel pregnant any more. Would be heading for 7 weeks now but that bitchy old cow mw was right. I am back at work waiting for the flood. It is 11 weeks til our wedding and right now neither of us give a shit about any of it. I just want it over so I can grieve.

2x and a CP might not be bad luck, either. We are going to have to reevaluate tttc which is breaking both of our hearts.

@Milknosugar1 how are you today? Have you tested again at all?

@LimpLettice still thinking of you lovely and have my fingers crossed for you

Just waiting for AF to finish - this month I will be throwing myself full force at ttc...doing OPKs and temping properly (haven't so far) as well as taking folic acid and EPO, have also ordered some zinc for dp - tempted by the maca root but may try that next month if this all fails x

I've just requested copies of all of our medical tests to send over to the IVF clinic. If we have everything they need already then we'd be looking at starting treatment in April.

Slight* not slighte, phone has gone rogue

Lexie I’m convinced that I have unexplained infertility as there seems to actually be nothing physically wrong with me so I’m going to ttc for another 3 months and if nothing happens then I’m giving up for this year. Still going to stay off contraception but just no regimented dtd and opks etc. Then I might look into IVF next year. I just can’t do another year of this!

sooz is the acupuncture good? I’ve heard so many people praising it but obviously have a slighte aversion to having needles stuck around my body lol

@bubble I know what you mean- I relaxed more than I expected when we were doing our tests too as there’s 100% no chance. Was kind of nice to have the mental break. I was thinking that even if I wanted an actual TTC break I wouldn’t be able to because even without poas I now know all my body’s ov signs and I can’t just forget them.

I’m kind of liking this tww. Weird as it sounds lol. I know 100% I’m not pregnant so I’m not second guessing all the time and after my last tww where my boobs were unbearably painful for pretty much the whole fortnight, they’re not even a tiny bit tender now. Although time is dragging SO slowly, I want af out of the way so we can start ttc again since we had a few months break while having our fertility tests done. Also I’m watching Friends and it’s the one where Monica and Chandler decide to ttc and they have a fight and Monica tricks Chandler into dtd because she’s ovulating, sounds familiar...

Thanks all! Tentatively overjoyed as still early days and am petrified of a chemical. Arghhh - why can't my brain let me relax and be happy.

Things I did differently this month:
Temped and used OPKs properly including twice a day around ovulation.

Not taken antihistamines. I take them for some kind of itching allergy I get. Just over the counter stuff. Anyway, I found out that embryos actually secrete histamine and that this could possibly help them implant! Could well be coincidence but bfp the first cycle of not taking them although I have been very itchy!

Symptom wise, if anyone's interested:
Sore breasts in a different way to pmt - shooting pains and sore nipples.

Constant headache for 5 days now on one side of head which feels sinusy.

I've been determined not to symptom spot so have been ignoring them!

Congratulations Biscay! Fantastic news!

Eek, congratulations Biscay x

We’ve bought maca root tablets to tr6 this month. Hubby has started them and I’m just finishing my seven seas tablets first! I’ve heard good things about them!

*two more at work already expecting - I clearly can't type after spin class 🤦🏽‍♀️

Congratulations @BiscayTrafalgarFitzroy !!!! Wonderful news. My friend had their first this morning, and a colleague showed me his fiancé's first scan pic (plus two more at work already at work)... must be something in the air - I hope it's infectious 🤞🏼😂