When the going gets tough, the tough get Yams

@limp huge hugs, keeping everything crossed for you this time.

@looking I’m so sorry that today has been so shit. I’m dreading my EDD in June. And I’m sorry that DH is being a bit daft. I agree that you need answers either way. I hope you manage to get chance to talk properly tonight.

limp sending loads of Hugs, really hopping this little bean sticks for you.

Things feel really shit here. It's my EDD today. My first ever EDD without a baby. What's made it even harder is my DH, without actually saying it, has more or less back out of our baby plans.

It happened last night. He hasn't mentioned it since. He basically said that TTC had sucked all the fun out. I am heartbroken. I had stenciled another little person in my family. Yesterday afternoon I'd sat looking at cute little outfits (the first time I had been able to since losing the baby).

I'm hoping that he's just having a moment. I don't know what I'm supposed to do with all that want and longing for another baby if he decides it's not what he wants. He seemed so into it. I had my Mum and Dad round earlier whilst DH was out and they said I need answers as I can't live in some uncomfortable limbo and they are right.

Sorry for the rant!!

S1lver that sounds so stressful. Hope your DH feels better fast. Pink too.

Bubblegum you sound so frustrated. I'd hug you if I could.

I'm still getting faint purple lines. Darkened a bit but not much on internet cheapies. Had to pop to Sainsbury's for a few bits on the way to a friends so thought I'd get a frer. Turns out everything they do is blue dye, so went with the cheap own brand as I figure they're much the same as CB. Surreptitiously poas at friends house, 3 hours between wees. Thick, dark as control line cross in less than a minute. So I'm definitely upduffed again. With no period in between and no idea of ov. Still no rmc referral either. Fuck sakes. I'm going to try ringing the clinic tomo if I can because this waiting to miscarry again is just ridiculous and upsetting.

Thanks all again for the wonderful comments on my frock, btw. Really heartwarming.

And sorry to hear so many of you are having such a rough time. Don't want to appear like I'm only talking about my stuff

Well, bad news is af came again this month. Good news is we have our appointment with the fertility clinic for April! Yay!

Thanks guys, it usually takes a year or 2 to fully recover but should be able to get back to ttc in the next month or 2 hopefully, like I say crap timing with the fertility clinic referal though. He's not as poorly as he has been in the past though so hopefully the recovery won't be as long this time.

S1lver, hope that plane gets in soon.

@SoozC haha it was a very timy wedding and we went on the mountsin fir pics! We looked mad, which is fitting really.
Hope ypu get some good karma your way!

@pinkdonkey hope your DH gets better soon.

@Bubblegum89 I call that the "period shit" ha, it is also what starts of my periods without fail!

Oh @Si1ver what a nightmare with the plane cancellation 😡 is your husband okay after the seizure? Also hope your dog survived. That does sound like an awful week.

Si1ver hugs to you. I care for a child who has severe epilepsy and I know just how tough and scary seizures can be

Hope, not how. Sorry

pinkdonkey that sounds miserable. How things pick up soon.

S1lver if it's any consolation I'm about to enter fw and not convinced DH will be well enough to dtd at all this month. He's not completely on another planet but he's not fully on this one either at the moment.

sooz spoke too soon. Just checked my mooncup and there was about half a teaspoon worth of dark red/brown blood. Don’t know why I get my hopes up for things.

@Si1ver sounds like you've had a hell of a week. Glad DH is ok. Big hugs 🤗

He's fine @SoozC, he's epileptic. But he been a year seizure free and just about to start driving again so this feels like a massive set back for him. Also he's always scared and confused post seizure so I feel bad that I wasn't there to look after him.

We had a video chat which helped him a bit.

Thanks for the sympathy lovelies.

He'll be back tonight, but not until midnight. I'd planned a lovely dinner for him and some energetic sex after a week apart. Instead it's going to be some quick and mechanical shagging and I'm bloody bitter about it.

It's been a long and shit week, highlights have included an emergency dash to the vets after the dog poisoned herself with chocolate and my husband having a seizure while he was abroad. I might try setting my hair on fire later to see if that makes things better.

Oh si1ver that’s crap. Will he be back tomorrow? The fertility dr told me that dtd the day after ov is actually the best time.

sooz not sure whether it was because I took the mooncup out right away so the blood wasn’t sitting there for a while. Not sure if blood gets darker if it’s in the mooncup for a while or whether it’s dark because the lining is crap. Hoping when I take it out to clean it later, there’s lots of nice red blood lol I’m cramping now so fingers crossed.

I don’t have any infections are anything (apparently) justwaiting but dark blood to me doesn’t indicate healthy blood so I’m hoping this is a good thing! I get cm like that too but usually right after I ov

Bubblegum I can totally relate to that. When we went to the GP last time, it turned out I had a nasty case of BV which I hadn’t known about and since the antibiotics ( vaginal cream) my periods have been red and healthy looking, not almost black in colour like before!

CD 11 today and I’ve just had the weirdest EWCM. Sorry for the TMI but it was honestly like wallpaper paste 😶

Hugs S1lver, so frustrating! Jump on him when he gets home just in case though.

That seems positive @bubblegum89

Fingers tightly crossed for you @SoozC. I hope next weekend brings you some good news.

I ovulate today, my husband's flight back had been cancelled due to snow. That's my last chance before we start IVF gone. I don't know why I'm even surprised.