Hello properly my loves, good to catch up with you all except obviously wish there was better news to catch up on.
No good news to report @Mimilicious013, think I've run the full spectrum of TTC emotion and lately feel - I don't know. It could be calmer, more accepting, more relaxed or like the fight's gone out of me. Probably all of it. We haven't stopped trying and we have accepted that the odds these past few months have not been in our favour, to quote Effie Trinket, it's been a hideously stressful period. But we have had a couple of serious - although not 'serious', just meaningful, but happy - conversations about adoption. We're not there yet but both of us have an eyebrow raised at the idea of IVF vs exploring that route. It's not for now, though - we'll give it a few more months. We'd be sent straight home right now anyway! Part of me can't even bear the idea of a chat with the GP about struggling with natural TTC and that whole process, I just dread the advice I (arrogantly, maybe) think I already know and - by then - will definitely not believe in. I guess I'm also afraid of a lovely life happening while I'm looking at one empty part of the picture and it all passing me by. It is such a melting pot of shit emotion, another good friend's DC2 born today and I'm 99% happy, 1% jealous, and I hate that 1%!!!
God nobody asked for that outpouring, I sincerely apologise! Must be hormonal 🙄🙄🙄 snapped out of it.
The much more level-headed and even-humoured @boboelephant is keeping me her usual solid and brilliant company (although I'm increasingly ill-disciplined about posting) over on TTC after miscarriage.
@Mimilicious013 what now, is there anything else you're considering (please don't feel you have to answer at all, very personal I know)? @EverythingNow @Daisymay25 very very best of luck for this cycle, hoping for good news for you both. Huge love to all xxxx