Anyone just starting the TWW..?

Hi my two fave fertility friends! My period came and I wallowed in self pity and wailed for half a day but I'm back on it today. Booked in some acupuncture and got a doc appointment to ask some questions. I also did some research on the vitamins I should be taking (on top of folic acid) and have bought a few different ones. That two week wait kills me as well, just the cycle of hope and disappointment and dread and horror and hope is too much to bear. @Hopefulbunny how long have you been trying? I am with @LG88 does the doctor test mean anything if you're getting positive opk each month? Also, can you go into the doctor and request this test? Another question - if we are definitely ovulating and doing opk tests which are positive, and have a regular cycle, what could be stopping us getting pregnant? X

Also I have been feeling yucky and had a tiny amount of spotting last night and today, not due until Friday so looks like it may make an early appearance for me too. 😣 Xx

Ah so sorry to hear this @Hopefulbunny. Even when you know it is going to come it is still so disappointing when it does isn't it. This may be a silly question but have you been using ovulation tests? If so does that not mean that fsh levels must be OK if you are getting peak days? No idea about it all. I have stopped bothering to test because it feels like a waste to use tests all the time when I am pretty sure of what the result is going to be. I figure I will only test once I am late - which is never! 😡 Xx

Well AF has arrived for me today which I sort of knew it would but had a bit of hope. When are you testing LG88 and buntingandstarcharts?

I've waiting for blood results this week to check FSH levels which will hopefully show all is okay if not I might start to panic.

@buntingandstarcharts oh no, I'm not silly enough to think it means I'm pregnant, I am already convinced that it hasn't happened again this month. I just wondered if it meant that my period was going to show super early.!! I know, it's only been 6 months but I am SO fed up of building my hopes up to then have to deal with crushing disappointment again. Every month that passes I am more convinced that something is actually wrong. Yer I have heard acupuncture is really good, definitely worth a try. I am honestly feeling so disheartened with it all at the moment. These 2ww and the disappointment every time kills me. 😣😣😣 Xx

@LG88 this sounds promising, maybe you're preg? The thing is, I know how it is, you want to be preg soooo much that every tiny symptom is analysed and you think 'maybe this is our month' and that doubles the disappointment when you get your period (though I'm not saying this won't be your month) The tww does get harder. At least we've all had mental breakdowns thus month 🤣 I might try acupuncture, I've heard it's great. Xx

@buntingandstarcharts @Hopefulbunny hope you are both OK, i have no idea what the frigg is wrong with me!! I feel like I do when I'm on my period, I am really tearful and tired and just want to eat everything in sight!! I am the most moody cow too. 🙈🙈 I know exactly what you mean, if one more person tells me to just stop thinking about it and it will happen I won't be heald responsible for my actions!! Also want to cry every time I see another post on an app that someone has a positive test for baby 4 or 6.. I just keep thinking, I can't even manage 1!!! 😣😣😭 Feeling very self indulgent tonight. 😂😂 Hope you guys are doing better than me. Xx

Hi Ladies,

I'm useless at keeping up, will have to make more of an effort to reply more frequently. I''m reading along though and seeing how you are doing. LG88, I'm TTC # 1. I think AF Is on the way how are you LG88 and buntingandstarcharts? Hope you are okay.

@LG88 Thanks so much for being so lovely! Honestly, have felt so bummed this week, probably due to lack of positive tests and feeling period coming and on top of that the period hormones flying around and then the argument with hubbie. He’s been so nice since and we’ve sat down and chatted, it is probably best that we don’t put our life on hold (he loves a beer!) and he would be so miserable without his man time. I am due to come on on Saturday, but I always get 5 day pre period symptoms which are very obvious period signs, sore boobs and cramps. I’ve done some first response tests (ummm everyday since 9dpo) and they’re all negative so that’s me out I think. When are you due on? I know that what works best once I know this isn’t our month, I have a choccie bar and a bath, watch some trashy girl tv, wear my fave pjs and have a night to myself, then I feel I can be positive for the next month. So I’m pretty accepting now that month 7 could be our month! You girls are still in with a chance though - fingers crossed! My husband and I have had some nice heart to hearts and I think he is secretly worried there’s something wrong too, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one worrying. It’s just so comforting having people here to chat and rant to! My two pet hates have become 1) ‘just relax and it will happen, stress is causing the problems’ (F.OFF) 2) the pity look when people ask when you’re having kids (only just married in Aug)! Do you girls get either of those? When are you due on?

Oh @buntingandstarcharts I am so sorry that you have had such a tough time lovely.
Don't give up on this month just yet though, a lot of women confuse early pregnancy symptoms for the start of periods. When are you actually due to come on?
It doesn't make any difference that other people have tried longer, it doesn't make it any easier to know that! If it helps at all I have done exactly the same thing as you other months, a couple of months back when my period showed I had a total melt down and said some really horrible things to my husband. I didn't mean any of it I was just hurting and frustrated.
My best advice there is let yourself have your moments of anger and frustration and then when you feel you can, apologise for anything that you said that you didn't mean but also be honest. I think sometimes we forget that they are in this too and although it doesn't feel like it matters as much to them it probably does. It must be a lot of pressure for them trying so hard to give us the only thing that we so desperately want. I'm sorry I can't do more, I wish I could make it happen for both of us, just know that you are not alone and that everything you are feeling I have felt too, you are very normal. We will get there! Hopefully together!🤞 But if you ever need a chat or a rant or anything at all, know that I am here! Sending huge hugs to you. Xx

@LG88 I know my period is coming. Tell tell signs. I feel totally gutted this month. I know people try for a lot longer but I just can't help thinking that it's not working. We couldn't be doing any more to help matters, I've been so chilled about it all, just feel disappointed. To make matters worse, I had a huge argument with my husband because he said I was putting too much pressure on it and I told him that he drank too much each week whilst out with friends. I'm sad and annoyed. Boo.

@buntingandstarcharts I am sure it is going to be lucky 6 for you, just sure!!
How are you feeling? When can you test??
I am OK, no symptoms for me but I honestly haven't thought about it all much this month at all because of moving. I don't think this is going to be my month, I have had too much on and been too distracted. Hopefully month 6 is yours and 7 will be mine. 🤞🤞🤞 Then you can tell me what to expect. 😊 Xx

How are we ladies? @LG88 and @Hopefulbunny @MaGratgarlik1983 ?

Me too @LG88 ! You guys are the first people I go to' my husband says I shouldn't be too optimistic to avoid disappointment heehee. I'd love us to go through the next bit together, lucky month6?

Agghh, @buntingandstarcharts they do say you can get sickness from very early on.. 🤞🤞🤞
@Hopefulbunny I know I have probably asked before but will this be your first?
I so want us to all get our BFP together, I feel like we have been on this little journey together and I love chatting to you guys and hearing how it's all going for you. Xx

@Hopefulbunny yay you're back! I know I said that I had read symptoms don't start til implantation - well I feel sick. Really fat and sick and hot! Could these be...?

Hi ladies,

LG88 , I'm good thank you, I'm on cycle day 20 I think, however I didn't get a positive opk this cycle so I have either ovulated earlier than usual or not at all which is a bit worrying. I'm pretty sure this cycle is a right off so I won't be that disappointed but I'm 36 so need to get moving! How are you all doing? It would be great for us all to get BFPS together.
Hope you are doing okay.

Hi ladies! Just started the tww yesterday I think. Eeekkkkkk!

(My typing is horrific! But you get the gist!)

@LG88 my cycle is 26 days in the dot, I get sore boobs about a week before which I've read is due to riding progesterone (initially of course I assumed it was a pregnancy symptom🤣🤣) Moving house sounds stressful but exciting, you just need the new addition! Also, I wonder if physically there can be any pregnancy symptoms before period is due? I've read that before implantation the little cells aren't even able to give off signals anyway. And implantation happens over a week after conception... so symptom spotting is useless anyway! X

Ah @buntingandstarcharts I'm really glad to have you too, I am extremely hopeful that we will both fall pregnant at the same time as I would absolutely love to continue the journey with you! I totally get what you are saying, I think each month that goes past I get a little less hopeful and just wait for my period to start without doubting that it will. Ah I really really hope that this is the month for you, I have a very good feeling for you this time! 🤞
No of course I don't mind, we are here to share, pretty much 28 days every cycle give or take a day or so. What about you? Xx

@LG88 every month I'm so grateful of you! I don't know what I will do when you get pregnant! 🤣 haha. I actually do feel hopeful this month. We did everything possible, maxxed out the sexytime, legs in the air, you name it! I think maybe rather than hopeful, I'm just less bothered, each month I'm getting less and less up tight about it as it feels far away. But there's nothing we can do! How long are your cycles by the way? Do you mind me asking?

@Hopefulbunny how are you? Where are you in cycle? @Rose2887 how's things with you? Xx

Hey @buntingandstarcharts how are you?
I had my peak ovulation test on Tuesday so literally just starting another 2ww. Why does it always seem to be the bloomin 2ww!!! I have been moving house so am not holding my breath for this month as it has been a pretty stressful time. You feeling positive this month? Xx

Heyyy everyone @Rose2887 how are you getting on? What are your updates? How are you @LG88 ? Month 6 for us! Have you ovulated yet? I'm apparently doing so right now x