TTC after recurrent miscarriage

Oh wow Lisa what a confusing few days. I'm really hoping that it all turns out OK. The waiting in the early days feels so long and worrying. I tried to tell myself there was nothing I could do to change outcome by worrying, so kept busy and ignored thinking about it too much - hard to do though. Hope you get bloods done soon to remove some of the limbo.

So weird! I have heard that FMU is sometimes a bit too much urine-to-hormone so maybe that was it?? But who knows. I do hope you get answers Lisa, and I feel positive for you, so try not to dwell on what might go wrong. Of course we don't mind BFPs here anyway - I do think this is quite a different kind of infertility thread, and we are probably less sensitive to BFPs, as a group, than people struggling in other ways.

Lisa I'm not surprised that your head is all over the place right now. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for you and I hope you can get some clarity over what is going on the next few days.

Anne and Miami I'm with you on the baby thank you cards. Straight in the bin in our house!

I'm just a lurker, but thinking of you Lisa. Would your GP not run hcg tests for you him / herself? They are allowed to. Xxx

Take tomorrow off. You don't need to be worrying about putting a front on when all this is going on.

Do whatever feels best to get through today and spend tomorrow getting hold of the doctor and either going to have your bloods done or resting up and looking after yourself at home. There are times when distraction and keeping busy is good and others when hiding out drinking tea in your pjs is better.

Crying when you're on this rollercoaster of emotions and possibilities is inevitable. You've been so strong and it's got to come out

I always suggest mindless action films. I got into Jason Statham shouting shooting stuff during my mmc when I couldn't focus on anything more subtle with feelings and dialogue. And lots of hugs with DH.

I hope they get you in soon. And that it's good news x

I'm alright thanks! Got a day of hopefully doing nothing ahead

Ah, that makes sense, sorry. Not long now, we're half way through Sunday. Do you have a time to go in?

Have you carried on temping lisa? Any insight there?

How's everyone today?

Holy fuck lisa! What a gorgeous line! I agree, stop boozing for now, try to keep distracted till Monday aha get thee to the hospital for bloods. If you get there early you should get the result the same day. Then get back two days later.

Lisa
Ok just take it easy for the rest of the weekend and get straight onto gp for bloods referral on Monday. I have everything crossed for you.
Don’t apologise it’s great.
Anne
One of DH friends did this, sent us a thank you from their daughter Anna with two pictures of a chubby baby on! Ffs - like we just had the funeral for our daughter 4 wks ago. Just a generic card would have been fine (or no card at all). People are stupid.

Well done on your list lisa and glad you're both doing okay today. Talk it out, you know we're here for you! Sorry your GP is a muppet. How some medical professionals stay so clueless is surely a mystery.

Same old this weekend here. The laundry seems to be breeding and cleaning the house is like painting the Forth bridge. I'm hiding out with a new book leaving DH and DSC to wreak havok downstairs.

I had a tiny strop earlier. My friend who's always been lovely but turned into smug mcsmuggerson when she was unexpectedly pregnant and said some breathtaking stupid and insensitive things about how unconvenient it all was for her even though she knew Id had my mmc a couple of months before sent a round robin thank you card for gifts. Double sided with photos of the baby and a generic thanks for your warm wishes for our precious boy blah blah message.

I opened it, said oh fuck off, and threw in the bin No one saw thankfully.

Af has gone which is good and I think I've lost a bit of weight. Which is something.

Lisa - sorry to hear what has happened. It's so hard getting that glimpse of hope, even if only for a couple of days, then it disappearing.

Re relax and it will happen - actually it has relaxed me somewhat not temping any more. I still know when I need to DTD but I don't seem to fixate so much on the 2WW. I thought that it was helping me feel in control too but I just don't really need it. Maybe try for one cycle and see if it helps or makes you feel worse?

Well if it shows unusual results you can then be referred for genetic counselling, I think on the NHS? They can then advise from there. Sometimes nothing can be done. Sometimes using donor sperm or donor eggs is the best option. Sometimes they can do some IVF magic and fix things. Mostly as I understand it they do PGD or PGS which is pre genetic screening/diagnosis (not sure what the difference is) - they do IVF but then take a certain number of embryos and test/screen them all to see which are healthy, and only put the healthy ones back in.

The most valuable thing to come from it is you should be able to get some odds on what your chances are of conceiving to term naturally. You can then use this information to make the decision whether you want to keep trying or stop.

Oh love Big hugs to you and brave DH, what a shitter of a day. Is there anything you like to drink to take the edge off tonight? It might not feel quite right but if it does then drown your sorrows. That's friendly, not medical, advice!

Yep, don't take it for now but starting again with the progesterone is a good idea. Usual advice about having it with food etc but loads of people are on it all the time with no ill affects so if you use it responsibly (which I think really only means make sure your stomach is lined) you're all good. Stopping it now will probably mean no change in your period, and it doesn't seem to change mine now, but for a couple of cycles when it was torrential I put two and two together and made four, and it could have been just post mc weirdness so I was actually making five, but I'll never know. I stop taking it as soon as I come on as it's not doing anything at that point in my cycle.

This period has been heavier than the last one, but it's still the same i.e. completely different to normal and I can only put that down to the acupuncture. Blood is a different texture and colour and it's heavier than before at night but not as much during the day. Just interesting to note the change. It sounds a bit daft, but the blood almost looks healthier. almost no clots and the very few I'd had have been tiny, and the bright red or cranberry colour miami described.

Lessened off today and no pain thankfully now. So back on it again soon....

Can't remember if I said the GP suggested taking a couple of months off and using contraception. Seems utterly insane tbh and I asked DH if he needed a break for his head to decompress but he looked at me like I was mad and said how could we know my cycle well now and not crack on when we roughly know when I'd be ovulating. I don't want to call again in January for tests only to be told it hasn't been a full 12 months as we've not even actively trying for two months and to come back later either!

Apart from wanting to punch in the face anyone who peddles that relax and it'll happen bullshit, when you know your cycle how the hell do you pretend you don't? I could stop temping but I'd still know from my normal symptoms, and I don't want to stop as it's the one thing that gives me any sense of control/insight.

I get she wants my mental health to be good as well as my physical, but I wonder if I sounded a bit nutty on the call for her to suggest i "step back".