SQUARE ONE'RS TO GRADUATES! Morale & energy is low, but we will not be beaten, BFPs WILL be achieved in this here thread!

Oh mimi I'm so so so sorry.

Oh mimi!! I'm so sorry! Not news any of us were expecting at all!

All that can be done is for you to be kind to yourself.

Baby is lovely Russ

I have sad news .had my scan and it showed no fetal pole and no yolk sac.I am so heartbroken

Hi ladies, I'm still here and following your stories. I'm sorry about BFNs, your frustration and everything else comes with it. Please don't give up as it'll happen. Sooner or later, it will!
In the meantime, my baby girl is 12 weeks today....and here we are...

I have been trying to formulate something useful for ages but feeling quite incompetent. Wishing for better days to everyone feeling down in the dumps and keeping my fingers crossed especially for Nim.

My period was late this month and I was so fatigued for no reason and massively bloated that I really got my hopes up. I'd been using the ovulation strips you kind ladies recommended and we'd been bonking dutifully. Then Aunt Flo and her best mate BFN flipped me the bird.

DTD is feeling more and more like a chore. At least it's forcing DH and I to be civil to each other in between so that it remains an option at all...

Been to the GP today for a first chat. She suggested that DH should get his semen analysed before we proceed with checks on me. Does anyone have experience of how long that takes between GP referral and the hospital/lab/wherever they take these samples?

Completely agree with you tee. What a crap attitude! I'm annoyed at myself for not making more of a point really.

Anyway.

It's the 1 September today and I'm feeling positive about it being Autumn. Cooler air suits me! As long as there are blue skies and red leaves 🍂

Off to Edinburgh for a hen do this weekend which will be a lot of fun. Hope you've all got lovely weekends ahead x

Nim how are you doing? Hope the spotting stopped

Hope you're all doing well girls xx

Sounds like once again confusing times for many of us!!

Nim I totally get that rational thinking!! I get frustrated when my rational head and emotional heart conflict...

Jam that is so funny about the spare room. Ours has become a total dumping ground... we moved in in Dec 2015, and it was empty for ages but now it's just full of random crap. I find it really frustrating...

Oh nim what a worry, keeping everything crossed for you.

Kate counselling sounds really positive. I really wish I'd had more through this experience. We have our appointment coming up in a weeks to see the counselling at our unit together.

Sorry AF got you tee, that indigestion sounds awful too. Hopefully you can manage it with diet changes.

Our appointment was fine but very rushed and the consultant was a bit ... patronising? I asked what the egg collection procedure was and she said we need to know that, you don't need to worry. Not a very good attitude. There's basically loads more waiting now. I call up when AF arrives in October and wait until day 21 to start down regulating. It feels like such a long way off. I've got used to my life being one long waiting room.

We decorated our spare room at the weekend. I had always wished for it to be a nursery but it was becoming too sad looking at it empty, so we've painted it bought a day bed and are looking at desks. Had a big cry that evening which DH didn't really understand. It feels to me like giving up a little.

The bleed was red then brown. But boobs have stopped hurting and no nausea. I know what will be will be but it still sucks. I have a scan next Monday, the earliest I could get a private scan would be Thursday so I'm not going to bother.

Hoping for the best, I know rationally things could go either way.

Oh Nim!! I am sending as many positive thoughts your way as possible... I do hope you're being kind to yourself.

The depression hits in waves - I'll be ok-ish for a few days and then pretty bad for a couple weeks when af hits... actually I think I a best between 2-8 dpo!

Dreading when work kicks in. Just haven't felt enough motivation to plan for the new courses I'm teaching next year. I know this is just going to add to the stress, but that's in the future...

Hi all,
I'm glad counselling seems to be helping Kate, I had some years ago when I had depression, it helped but I think the thing that really made a difference was antidepressants. I put off taking them for one reason and another but once I did it helped give me the motivation to get up in the morning.

Sorry about your indigestion Tee, I get bad indigestion too, I would be taking aspirin from the mc point of view but I know that would make my stomach worse.

I'm back from holiday, lovely being away but had a bleed on my last day and loads of stomach cramps today. 6 weeks and 3 days today. I will get round to calling epu but they won't scan me before 8 weeks. A little glum today, I really don't want another miscarriage.

Just checking in... 6 dpo. I think I managed to rid of the bv with tea tree oil!! Whoop!

Jam how did your appt go?? I'd definitely take any offers of counselling. I had a minor break-through at my last one, which helped a little. Trying to stay away from 'why haven't I fallen pregnant when he sneezed' types...

I realised that I've always been working towards something, my life is perpetual change! I'm not ok with stasis. But stasis is ok. 18 months isn't actually that long (even for me) and it's irrelevant how long anyone else took. I have to be ok. I probably can't explain it well, but it made sense...

Hope that clears up soon Kate, last thing your foof needs. Counselling sounds great. I need this!

Sorry about the BFN tee ☹️ hope you've bounced back x

Had another counselling session this afternoon. I feel a bit better but exhausted.

Have come to the conclusion that I'm feeling so mental because I am used to nearly constant upheaval - my parents always travelled so didn't have routine, then my mums alcoholism, then moving to a new country Yada yada Yada... so I'm not dealing well with stasis once I've made a decision to change my life.

But just throw into the mix I think I've got bacterial vaginosis!!!! Argh!! Gonna try one of those otc test things and treatment. Ugh.

Oh tee that's rough. I can't believe they say 10 dpo cause so many tests won't detect that early. Frer will detect something like 70% of pregnancies that early, which is too low for me to waste one...

Yup it is a rollercoaster mimi. I don't like rollercoasters. I want off!!

We've Dtd every other day since cd 10? It's now cd 22? And I think I'm 2 dpo. Going to do one more I think in two days. I think dh is pretty worn out. Damn my long cycles!!!!!

Sorry @tee, sending you massive hugs and .onwards indeed! !!
I cried for a good 20 min last night after reading through our last year's thread. This ttc is so emotional and we all have been through trying times. Honestly can't wait until everyone finally gets their bfps.

Hope you managed to do some more conga @kate.how are you doing now?

Glad you are less stressed @foot.hope you and the boys are doing well incl the bigger boy .

Hie @jam, hopeyou are feeling better and are getting excited for your next step soon.

I'm pretty sure I'm 1 dpo. Going to carry on with Dtd every other day for a bit though.

Had a bit of a FaceTime heart to heart with my sister. Took her about 5 months, but interestingly she didn't ov until way late in the cycle she conceived - 5 days before af due! Maybe an anomaly maybe not as it was her first cycle of opks.

Feeling resigned at the moment... next counselling session tomorrow.

How is counselling going foot??

I really hope your new protocol helps tee!! Not to get excited or hopes up or anything...

Jam I hope you're ok and keeping busy. Not long until a rollercoaster starts.

Hello all the grads!!