SQUARE ONE'RS TO GRADUATES! Morale & energy is low, but we will not be beaten, BFPs WILL be achieved in this here thread!

Here cheering you on lovelies. No news from me, still waiting to arrange drug delivery. I feel like all I ever post is that I’m waiting for stuff! New levels of patience...

Hugs xx

Hi tee, they didn't really say what size - she said they couldn't really say much and to speak to gp. The nurse just said there were lots of tiny follicles on my left. I just don't understand why they are not getting bigger to make me ovulate.?
Gp before wouldn't prescribe anything only when she sent me to gynae to check all was ok he put me on clomid. I only had a few good cycles on clomid. Been off of it for about 6 months now. I'll ask my gp again for something else to make me ovulate?
Yes day 60 with no ovulation. It sucks!

Sounds all very expensive for you. My Dh wouldn't even contemplate paying for tests. 🙄

Wasjust thinking I bet the mares don't have all this fertility worry like we do!
Hope you are doing ok Durez.xx

I just need something to push out the eggs!! So frustrating I just keep crying for a period. Sad isn't it.

Kate, glad you are getting tracked with US's at least you gave a clearer pic of what is what.

Jam, I struggle with mooncup at first and keep spilling it when I comes out. Hope you still are playing your music 🎶 for distraction with your plans. X

Tee super ovulation plan sounds good. Are u still on acupuncture?

Hi all,
My ultrasound scan results showed no abnormalities and ovaries looked fine. Lots of small follies on left ovary (which I was quite surprised as I only usually feel it from right side?? So back to the gp I go! No period day 60 grrr. They will probably do another blood test for hormone levels?

With mares just before they ovulate the follicle goes soft and slightly mishapen so look out for that too!

And mares tend to go off a similar size follicle each time...

Hi Durez - are you asking abut my ultrasound? They wouldn't tell me how big it was Wednesday, just that 'it's grown' from 13mm on Monday.... ov suspected Thursday/ during the early morning Friday. Wednesday's sonographer said she wouldn't tell me because I would start googling. She was right, except I already had been googling...

I don’t know anything about human ivf but very clued up on equestrian :-)

Did they tell you how big the follicles were both sides before you ovulated?

Definitely trying to distract yourself is a good idea. You need to be in the best head space possible for this part of you ‘journey’.

Last US today and follicle is gone. So looks like ov was yesterday. Dtd last night and two night before. Blood test next week to confirm. So clomid will definitely shorten my cycle. Seems sonographer was convinced I have pcos by appearance and how clomid shortened my cycle. Time will tell. Not holding my breath...

Sorry tee bfns never stop hurting do they? Super ovulation plan sounds fab though

AF came yesterday so a bit early. Got my new mooncup - they are a bit of a struggle to get in?! I called the nurses, they call back within a week to go through timeline and order drugs etc. Think I speak to the drug company after that to arrange delivery.

To be honest I'm going to try and think about other stuff for the next few weeks. We can't try this month so I'm going to try and enjoy a break from ttc and not think about it all too much. Relax and look after myself! Then get myself ready for down regulating on day 21. Just ready to get this show on the road really!

So at scan today I was told again it’s ‘tiny’ and within the endometrium bit that most women over 30 get them and that it won’t pose problems for me.

Follicle has ‘grown’ but she wouldn’t tell me how big. Negative opk, so I’m thinking I’m still an age away... but it is only cd 14!! I normally ov more like cd 18 or well beyond.

Kate can you get another opinion on the fibroid? Seems a bit ridiculous to ask you what you think about it. Fibroids can be overcome lovely and might make no difference xx

So I had my first tracking scan and feeling pretty shit. I’ve got a dominant follicle (13 mm) on my right ovary (even though ov pains other cycles are always on my left). The reason I feel shit is because the sonography said, ‘so what do you know about this fibroid?’ And I was like, ummmm. And then she said, ‘oh don’t worry I’m sure it won’t affect things!’. So now I’m pissed off there’s another potential issue and I’m just an infertile cow. Put me out to pasture. And yes, I’m fully aware I’m catastrophising!

Another scan Wednesday. It feels a bit hopeless today. My heads up my arse and people are chasing me for deadlines.

Yes, I've heard from my GP that it is all about insulin. I need to loose a bit more weight. I think pre inofolic/metformin when I ate I still felt hungry and also through out the day I'd have 'sugar?crashes' and feel really panicked about finding something to eat. I hope it helps me lose weight too.

It’s either the inofolic or clomid. I’m not more hungry. I reckon it’s just improving my silly metabolism and maybe getting rid of excess insulin in my blood stream? I’ve been reading that women with pcos have higher rates of type 2 diabetes and heart disease, might be linked to insulin? I’m no expert but I’m finding it’s getting pretty easy for me to latch on to one small idea if it gives me hope...

That is exciting! What about the inofolic do you think has helped with the weight? Do you just feel less hungry?

Not taking metformin, just inofolic. I sometimes take one sachet a day and it seems to help. I think my body’s getting used to it. I’ve lost a bit of weight with is too so im now comfortably in ‘normal’.

I think letrozole is just a different drug. Maybe newer? I wonder if it has many of the same long term effects of clomid like thin lining? Need to look into the pros and cons I think.

Off for ultrasound tomorrow! A bit nervous as to what they’ll see. I’ve been having a small amount of ov type cramping so I’m wondering if a cyst has burst. And only ever on the left so it’ll be interesting to discuss that with the sonography! But I’m glad I get to see the progress over a few days too.

Hi all,

I've been to the GP, they're doing blood tests, booking ultrasound in order to refer me to fertility specialists. I think it's quite reassuring like something is happening at least. Then I think they do whatever a 'lap and dye' is!!! I think you all are a few steps ahead of me!

What's the difference between clomid and letrozole? I literally know nothing!

physicskate how are you finding the metformin and inofolic? I've been on inofolic for almost two weeks now and I think it's grim!

Footy AF got me!

Scan was ok- thought I was going to pee my pants as had to drink a lot of water! I did quiz the nurse. She said she couldn't see anything to worry about, and said I had lots of follicles tiny ones on my right ovary.
She also did internal one. Confident that she had a good look around as she said she could see my c section scar inside. She said she can't really say much..
Results in 5 days. Another waiting game 😩

Kate I ovulated early on clomid a couple of times but also made it later another few times. It made me have hot flashes and night sweats. What mg you on? It did make the opks all nearly positive so hard to predict.

Jam I totally get that, ivf can cause so much emotional energy. Fingers crossed for this cycle though x

Hope you’re doing okay tee xxx

Fx for your results footy

Kate your DH sounds amazing. Glad all going well on clomid. It made me ovulate a day or two early

Same old here I’m afraid. I’m Day 23? Had to look that up. About 7-8 DPO. Got my instructions to call nurses on day 1 to get my drugs delivered - then still a long wait to day 21 to actually start.

Things been very strained with DH. The situation is like a pressure cooker. IVF is a massive emotional physical mental investment with absolutely no guarantees. Think he’s struggling to accept we’ve come to this whereas I’m ready to get started.