TTC After MC 12: Hopeful Twats and Emotional Wrecks welcome!

I'm so sorry about your loss, SJ. Of course you should start trying again whenever you feel ready, and if that's now then that's the right time. What you say about being ready to be parents makes perfect sense.

It sounds like you've got it covered tracking-wise. We've had quite a lot of discussion on here about temping - some women (including me) really like the extra information, but others find it too full on. If you're worried about how your cycles are regulating you might find it helpful. I like it because it's very cheap and I find a certain nerdy pleasure in it - it does mean that you think about TTC first thing every single day, though, and that can be a bit rough depending on how you're feeling.

Thanks everyone it has been (and still is) an utterly horrific time for me & dh. So glad it's ok to join here. Can't tell anyone in real life our ttc plans because most people will think it's too soon or that we are trying to replace our little girl which absolutely isn't the case at all. We would love to bring another brother or sister home for her.. we were so ready to become parents and bring a baby home and that hasn't changed at all. Almost feel like we are stuck in life limbo at the minute - not where we were but not where we should be either. Anyway sorry for the rant I don't want this to seem like I want it to be a pity party for me. Everyone here has experienced loss in their lives and it's lovely to have the support from others who know how we are feeling! Cd9 today and empty circle (negative) on clear blue opk - to be expected I used them the month I convinced last time and think I had a positive on cd13/14 - used them last month too but didn't get a positive until cd18 in a 28 day cycle which i don't think is good? I don't know I'm kind of a novice at all this tracking stuff - so far I've started taking the seven seas trying for a baby, downloaded Ovia and got the clear blue sticks - anyone any other good tips or advice? Xx

SJ words can't say how utterly horrific that must be, I'm so so sorry

Welcome to our little ragtag gang though, we're all quite lovely hopeful twats!

SJ, I am so, so sorry for what you have been through. That sounds absolutely horrendous. You are more than welcome here. We're a friendly little community, you'll find yourself we'll looked-after x

SJ you poor love. That's awful and must have been just so traumatic. You're very welcome to be a wreck with us

SJ that's awful I'm so sorry. I hope it happens quickly for you and you have a safe delivery and a healthy baby.

Hi
Not sure if it will be ok for me to join this thread. I lost my little girl at 41 weeks during labour in February this year and am starting to try again this month. I looked at some of the ttc groups on here and don't really fit into any not ttc number 1 but at the same time I don't fit into the group with people taking about ttc with a baby / toddler at home either.
I am as this thread title says an emotional wreck and hopeful twat lol so I thought this seems like a good place to be with other mums who have experienced some loss too.
I'm on cd8 today will start clear blue opks tomorrow - I had an emergency csection with my little girl so quite nervous about the small gap but my consultant and gp have both given me the go ahead. It took 5/6 months of trying before I got a bfp last time so not holding out too much for hope things to happen to quickly.
So sorry for all of your losses and hope it's ok if I join this thread? Xx

Dude, hugs and a hand hold. That does sound like a proper shitty day. People can be really thoughtless. I'm sure she thought she was trying to give you a compliment but, Christ, she should have known having gone through the same thing herself. Hope you manage to sleep it out of your system and the world looks better in the morning x

MsJuniper, I hear you. And that stupid ticking clock. I'll be 41 in September and have been trying to conceive since I was 39. I had my daughter when I was 38 and didn't think 18 months would make such a difference. My Mum and Dad have offered to pay for IVF but still in a bit of a quandary, like you, as to whether it will actually change the outcome. The consultant seemed to think not i.e. I've as much chance of having a baby by keeping on trying as by having IVF. I'd just like to talk to someone who could discuss endo scratch, progesterone, Clomid etc that might help me get and stay pregnant naturally. I feel like an idiot for thinking I'd have another baby easily and terrified it's never going to happen now x

Hi Girls,
I hope everyones battling through alright this weekend, Ive had a particularly shit day today and had a mini meltdown at work in the staff canteen. Ive been quite open at work about the miscarriage and actually don't mind talking about it......on my terms of course. Well, a colleague who didn't know began talking about her own miscarriage and ectopic pregnancy and had said that i was dealing with it in the right way and just getting on with it!! I'm sure she didn't mean anything by it but it felt like a careless comment suggesting i appear like I'm not letting it bother me!! She left, then my bottom lip began to quiver and i ran to the loos and cried my eyes out. I wondered if everyone thinks i don't give a shit that my baby is dead and cried some more. If only they knew how heartbroken i really am. I guess I'm trying to say that i kind of feel like two people at the moment. On one hand I'm at home feeling the experience first hand and going through the waves of sadness and also being fine mostly. Then on the other hand there is this person (me) who shares the experience and its like its happened to someone else and i can be very matter of fact about it. Its my way of dealing with people who are well meaning etc and not wanting them to feel awkward seeing me emotional or something i don't know what I'm trying to say lol but it was a tough day. Fuck peoples careless comments.

I am feeling a lot more relaxed about this cycle as there is a lot less riding on it, whether it's this cycle or next makes little difference now. I'm going to be on holiday during TWW which I hope will make it easier.

Flash - have you tried acupuncture to lengthen your LP? I have just restarted going, but before my miscarriages after Xmas it had lengthened my cycle from 25 days up to 28 days typically? Obviously didn't stop me mis carrying again, but am sure it helped my cycles.

Sorry about all the BFNs ladies- 🍷For lots of us and here's to a new positive cycle!

Stepaway I feel the same and if I knew where best to put some money I would try and find/borrow it, but it all feels like a stab in the dark. I looked into IVF but it would be a huge waste of money if I can't carry a baby to term. St Mary's said I have sticky blood and advised 150mg aspirin next time I have a positive test. But at 41 and with only 10 cycles per year I feel like I have a big countdown clock above my head.

Aw, bugger to all the AFs and BFNs. Trying to conceive sucks.

emvy, not much enlightenment here but I think your cycles can just be a bit squiffy for a while after miscarriage.

Anne, I've got some ABs - thank goodness - although they are making me feel horribly sick. Think that's me out this month now. Can't even contemplate dtd with a UTI. Also still getting the flashy smiley face on the OPK - 9 days in and cd17. Grrr. Either means I've not ovulated or it's not picking my LH surge up. Either way not v helpful with getting pregnant.

Thanks for the info, MsJuniper, am contemplating going private to get one done. In fact, am contemplating going private full stop. Just want to spend some time with a professional to get some advice on my specific situation (3 mcs over 40). At the moment I feel like I'm on an NHS conveyor belt...

AF for me too today or tomorrow..had some cramps and red spotting this morning. Think the Agnus castus stopping the spotting for the first week of LP gave me false hope. Also hoped it might lengthen my LP as 11 days feels a bit on the short side still.

Hi to all newbies, sorry you find yourselves here.

Sorry to those who have greeted af over the past few days . Msjuniper, I have everything crossed that you get a bfp this cycle.

Lime, I get lots of twinges in my ovaries over a day or two around ovulation. And seemingly at random other times in the month as well. I just keep telling myself I'm only aware them because I'm paying so much attention to everything my body is doing.

So can anyone shed any light on my latest situation? I thought that I'd got af (almost bang on time at 31 days post mc). However, lime mentioned that she'd read there should be 3 weeks between bleeds? This definitely wasn't the case after my first mc but I was so sure that was af bleeding and I'm not sure about this one. It was brown and clotty, although did last the right number of days for af. However, one day after it ended, on cycle day 7, I got absolutely loads of ewcm. Like a tonne of it (sorry tmi), which I usually get once around ovulation and no other time (the only other time I got it after ovulation was when I had my second bfp). My boobs are also really twingy and sore and I've been having what feel like ovary twinges (basically all ovulation signs). What is going on?

Sorry bertie, af arriving here today too I think. Fuck bags. Really quite gutted tbh.

I usually get ov pain lime but one cycle this year I got v mild ov spotting which was a first so all sorts of weird things can happen but I agree, tell the doc if you're worried.

Bugger step, that sucks. Got ABs? Hope it's not too bad.

BFN obviously.

The scratch was a research thing - there are quite a few trials and so on which were advertised at the RMC (DH did a male one). I was contacted directly about this one as they thought I was a good match and it helps their research while hopefully benefitting me too. They said there is a currently unexplained increase in pregnancy for the scratch which they think is to do with assisting implantation. It's offered in private IVF I think for this reason.

It was like a more invasive smear, but didn't take long and was more icky than painful.

Batmans, that sucks. Sorry to hear.

MsJuniper, we all know the boob prodding, HT TWW! Hope it's a BFP for you. Do you mind me asking about the endo scratch? Did you get that done NHS or private?

Evening all- thanks for having me.

Turns out it's not AF after all just random MC bleeding for a day and a half

And to top it off I've got the PILs here for the weekend ffs 😬

Hello everyone, hello & to the newbies.

I am being a stupidly hopeful twat, prodding away at my chest and analysing every little tummy twinge. No matter that even if I get a bfp, it is probably meaningless. All the RMC investigations, extra supplements and endo scratch have given me a stupid twattish amount of hope though.

Still only 8dpo but I know I will cave and test in the morning like a fool.

Lime I had something similar last month... I think I actually posted on last thread about it... mine was sharp and came and went over the course of a full day or two never for very long at any one time and wasn't something I've felt/ noticed before.. Fingers crossed for you and everyone that there are more bfps to come v.soon!!

Here you all are! Wondered why all my email alerts had stopped!

Welcome newbies. Very sorry that you have to be here but we're a very friendly, supportive lot. These women are lovely.

Yellow, glad your first day back was as good as could be expected.

I've gone and got a UTI from all the bloody dtd over the last week! Typical!

Oh sorry Bertie. [Gin] for you. I've been peeing on opks the last 2 days to avoid peeing in actual pregnancy tests! Brown spotting has turned to red here. Boobs are still agonising but looks like AF will be right on time on Sunday.