Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

OMG OMG its a May bonanaza!!! I can see the headlines now - January 08 Maternity Ward crisis!!

Well, my period arrived with a vengeance this morning. I knew it was coming and have felt fine about it all day, but am now "slumping". You know, I never imagined for one moment that I wouldn't be well and truly pg by the time my due date came around, but it is only 10 weeks away now. Thats only 2 more cycles. What if it doesn't happen?

Feedme - please don't put yourself down. We had ds at the drop of a hat and this is all rather different - there is just no way of knowing. It's not a punishment and there is nothing wrong with assuming that it wouldn't be this hard.

Duchesse - are there any other GPs at your surgery? I am at a group practise and I refuse to see some of the more useless ones if I want anything more than a prescription for Calpol.

I haven't quite made it into the 6 month category then. I just feel sooo disheartened cos I thought it would be so quick and easy. Silly me

How old are you feedme? It's supposed to be after 12 months, unless you are over 35 in which case it is 6 months. That said, I was practically told to bog off when I went after 6 months and I am 37. Luck of the draw I suspect. Why not go anyway and see if you can at least get some reassurance. I have found the sheer length of time some people have had to try for reassuring in itself, but I have to hear it over and over again!!!

I can't believe that nobody is around! You don't all have lives offline do you? Personally, am on CD29 and am feeling every single little twinge, ache and pain so don't seem able to stop thinking about my looming period. I feel really rather hacked off - last month I really thought I'd be lucky cos it was my birthday and getting a bfp just before my birthday would have been perfect. Then when that didn't happen I thought that getting a bfp after having spent that weekend in France from CD14-17 would have been perfect. But now that isn't going to happen either.For all you ladies out there who have been ftc for so much longer than me, I really don't know how you do it! Its just like feckin torture!
Tell me, how soon is too soon to discuss with the gp? I have some idea that you are meant to have been trying for a year before consulting your gp. Only having gotten pg twice in the past by accident, then this time pg 3 mths after coil removed (followed by mc) and now 5 mths since mc. It just seems so bloody ironic that now when I really want it, it just isn't happening. I know 5 mths is nothing compared to some people but I just really thought that between me and dp we must have some super-fertile combo going on, and now I'm starting to get a little worried.....

Sorehut (or can I call you "cyclebud"? ) I have never had a single moment of joy from the weestix myself. I know I haven't used them by the book but I have pretty much given up on them. It seems that the windows for using them are so small that you have to use them 2-3 times a day. I prefer gunkwatching, but hey, I'm still here, so don't listen to me!!!!

Am miserable and fed up today. Am making ds (2.5) look like a rational human being compared to my sulky behaviour. It may be 2ww-itis. Am at the "don't even think I could manage another one so what the feck am I doing?" bit of cycle which is always a joy. Still, at least I am not trying to fathom out a test that would give me a reliable result at this stage of things....

Chuckling, even! All this farmyard talk making me think of chicks!!

RIGHT. Hello All, Just had to spend 30 minutes catching up with posts. Very pleased for Seaside, and I'm really amazed by her list of 'help'. Very inspiring. Must have a think about this as have only been covering affirmations / spell and some medical tests which said I was ok. Herumph.

Fancy the new Turkish Spa, Duchesse. And sorry that AF managed to find you. I don't know how she gets around - a similar trick to F. Christmas, I expect.

Meanwhile, I am on CD23 today. Weestix say I haven't 'had a surge' at all this month. Great. Totally great. However, I am still absurdly optimistic that something might happen. Symptom spotting at Masters level.

I'm leaving fish & chips in the Hut - it is Friday after all. Get 'em while they're hot!

Either the County Show or you have been swapping gags with my dad?

Maybe sheep can't always conceive, but they don't have Sheepnet?

grass -another spliff needs to be rolled I think!

Maybe its cos they don't smoke, drink, take drugs or suffer from exucutive stress, sexual harrassment or depression. I reckon they probably eat a well balanced diet and get regular and varied exercise too!!!! Other than that, I certainly don't see why they pop out their offspring year in, year out with nothing more than a little "Baaaaa" (substitute appropriate noise for each animal, obviously! Don't know of any "baaa"ing cats!) and off they go!

feedme
LOL about the animal kingdom - IKWYM - at the moment we are surrounded by sheep with lambs and I find myself thinking - they have one shag and pop out at least one, if not twins or triplets - year after year - whats up with that??

Anyhow, what I really logged on to say was that I am sooo fecking stupid and am really cross with myseld
Although I say I'm not hopeful this month, I obviously am cos dp just asked me to help him move the washing machine and I thought I ought not to if I might be pg so I did a test and got a -tive. Of course I did! I'm only cd27. Possibly 13 days after ov, possibly only 11 days after ov, so what the hell was I thinking of? Now I just feel suitably disappointed and somewhat stupid

Yeah! Why is it that no other creature seems to have trouble with conception? I mean, they get to the age where they are able, they have mating season and shag and then x-weeks/months later out pop the appropriate number of offspring! How many friggin infertile cats or dogs are there? Or cos? What about bloody rabbits, or mice!! How many of them have trouble with conception?????