Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

Lissie, I'm so sorry to see you back here. I won't pretend to know what you're going through but I can understand why you don't want to ttc right now. I do hope you get some answers from the doctors. Big hugs.

Thanks Lissie. Likewise xxx

impatience, i really, really hope that this works out for you. maybe you and dp will be pg at the same time .

Oh Lissie, I'm so sorry. That's really really crap.

Am on bath duty here so best not neclect the wonderful son we already have. Thanks for the kindness. It helps. Lissie I hope something magic happens for you soon xxx

ps, yes I will keep trying for now. Won't yet know if dp is pg when it's time for me to try again... so at least one more try.

thank you. the saddest thing is that this time i wasnt even that surprised or shocked.

oh lissie - i am so sorry I was so hoping it would work for you this time

This is a bad day, even by hut standards.

Lissie sooo sorry. Don't know what else to say so won't.

for you too Impatience, will you keep trying?

dont know but the nurse that i spoke to at my bloods asked if i was sure it was a mc. i lost my rag and shouted that id had 4mc in 18m (confirmed) and i should know by now what it feels like.

fecking hell, 13yo's get knocked up! drug addicts get knocked up! thieves, violent abusers, murderers all conceive and carry a child! wheres the justice in that? i used to believe in a divine force that would look after me, i dont any more.

Impatience and lissie - I am angry and so sorry for you both - in fact I am angry for all of us - WTF's going on - are we on the dark side or something!!!

tbh, im really not. im so angry at my crappy useless body. i know that lots of ladies on here would love to get pg but im terrified of ttc again, and i so badly want another baby, but my body keeps killing them. i just dont understand why im finding this so fecking hard!

Oh Lissie, I'm so very sorry to hear that. Are you ok? Or is that just a stupid question?

yet another beanie didnt want to stay in my useless womb. i know i was only 4w, but i felt so positive about it. and this time it was really, really painful. am thoroughly sick of it now, ive lost 5 babies in 18m, thats not normal! maybe i should get wasted and f**k a total stranger, that should work.

went for bloods yesterday and they took so much that my arm went numb and my chest hurt, not that it'll work. the rest of my bodys willing, my womb isnt.

Impy - I'm so, so sorry.

Lissie - hey, what are you doing here? What's happened lovely one?

impatience, so sorry babe. its really shite isnt it.

am back in the hut with a vengance now.

Impatience,keep your chin up though!

Oh Impatience, really sorry chick! Fingers crossed for DP

OK it's all over. My period is well and truly here. At least I can put my hopes on dp now, but it feels really cruel to have had that increasing hope for me this month. I really thought I might have been pregnant, and it felt good to think that. Oh well. Thanks for all your good wishes my way.

Oh Impy - I'm so sorry you are still going through this. Am still keeping everything crossed for you.

Feedme and seaside - I was the same. Got preg with ds at the first time of asking so assumed I was super fertile, but it's just not the case. I'll be 38 this year and dh is 48 so it's not looking good on the age front. Am not even sure if it will be worth going for tests when I get to the year mark (in June), although I probably will. When I think about how I had this year planned and how I would be managing a summer baby etc etc Ha ha. They say that if you want to give God a good laugh, tell him your plans. I'm not a believer but it still rings true

Still, am off work today but need to do something else other than obsess about my 2ww and try to work out just how Life on Mars finished last night.

When is Duchesse back anyway? Perhaps she has had a bfp and emigrated (you go girl if you have, btw)

So, LNO, how did the egg-white go? Is it too much to ask how you used it? Head stand legs akimbo while dh tips the egg shell to shell? What did you do with the yolk?!

Um, still no answer here, although I'm too scared to go to the toilet because I really feel that my period will start. Felt distinctly periody yesterday, but not much. Temps did a wierd thing again this morning. Opposite of yesterday: Very disturbed sleep from about 4 to 6. Temp at 6am 36.6. I sank into depressed sleep because that's my period temp. Then woke after good couple of hours at 8: 36.9, which is my nice high post-ov-could-be-pregnant temp. (Clutching at straws much? ) LNO, according to your advise yesterday (which I liked because it suggested I go with the higher temp ) I should go with the lower one today. I'm desperately arguing for the higher one because I hadn't really slept much before the early (lower) one etc etc, and I just really really want my temp to still be up.

But I really feel periody. I do feel the target of a really nasty practical joke. Paranoid, me? Well, I mean it feels like that sneaking suspicion that I'm being set up for something, and I have complete sense of humour failure over practical jokes. It feels like that.

Torment continues.

Nelli - as a stepmum, I sympathise. It is none of her fing business if you are pg or not. I got annoyed with my dss's dm coz she kept going on about the fact "well i won't need to worry about my ds not having a db/s, because furrymummy will provide us with one" like I'm some kind of fing breeding machine grrr.
Still I'm lucky as I get on well with dh's exp. But I think a lot of it was to do with the fact that dh & and his ex split up before my dss was born and also she knew me anyway (we'd met when they were going out - we had mutual friends).
Just try to keep cool with your dsd, don't jump to conclusions about what her mum has been saying about her behaviour until you see her. We've had it when dss's dm has rung up and said dss has been doing this and that and won't do this and when he's been with us has been good as gold!

Ta

shh- here's a mug of Pimms Ready

Ill let you know tomorrow!...better go and prise him from the tv..