Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

I'm going for the rank outsider - that she'll be charming all weekend, a real delight to be with.

Very generous of you Duchesse. I've noted your Sat 11-12 bid.

Other distinct possibilities to guide you other betters are just as I'm clinging on to see who wins the marathon (so what's that, 11.19 Sunday? The fact I'll be very distracted will compensate for the fact she'll be sober), or just as I drive her to the station and am navigating a particularly tricky bit of road, est 4pm Sun.

Winner will get delicious carrot cake muffins cooked with specially ghee'd hash, to be swilled with my experimental vodka-skunk brew. They say we should relax to get pregnant. This is my solution

SunChoc, I find myself pretty excited by your IVF starting. You have officially joined the Big League! Good luck, not least of all with the wagon...

Beansprout, is this the 19yr old with Leukaemia? That's so awful, and as you say a bit of a reality check. Not meant as any kind of 'come along girls let's pull our socks up' of course. Good luck with your sanity. Oh, sorry, too late

(I am still being aloof outside, but only just outside, with some of that pimms on the windowsill

My mum is coming to stay for a few days later this week. Can we have bets on when the first comment is made about 'my baby'? Ie, the biological child that I am so far missing out on? Ie, not dp's baby (the one that I've just spent an hour putting to sleep) but my own. You get the idea. She arrives about 7pm on Thursday. I bet 3.30pm Friday, half-way through our second pint. Any advance?

Evening -
Just popped in to mix a very strong jug of Pimmms - it's on the bar - help yourselves, but hurry up as I've developed a real thirst ..... my af came today, which means I start the IVF roller coaster in 20 days time and I am officially on the wagon in RL.

This is pretty scary.

Glug, glug, glug.

Impatience - always good to hear from you. Please don't hang around outside too much - we'll miss you!

Am going quietly mad here as I enter the final days of the 2ww. It is becoming a form of torture that just seems to get worse each time. Am back to work tomorrow though so will have something to distract me. Also, my colleague's son died (I mentioned he was ill) so that's a good reminder of where I sit in the scheme of things.

Just wanted to wave in at the window to say Hi. I haven't had anything to say and have been fairly content mooching about kicking sand outside by myself. But I'm still around. I'm still trying, although it feels v different with dp on the go now too. We're now into her 2nd week wait so I am symptom spotting from the outside! She didn't test positive till 12 dpo with ds, which would be next Monday if she is miraculous again, which will be after I expect to insem, so we'll be Running The Risk again (pah, as if I will conceive...). But her trying breaks things up a lot. I had almost forgotten about my FTC because I've had excitement about her. I just haven't defined myself by my current position in my cycle, IYKWIM. Normally I know exactly where I am and it feels like the continuous roller coaster. Even though I haven't skipped a cycle I feel somehow as though I stepped off for a bit, and that's nice.

Anyway, having said I didn't have anything to say I've now hogged the sofa for far too long so it's back to the sand for me.

[whistles off into the distance]

tbh i dont trust our hospital any more. so will prob try to go private. cant do this much more tho. im still spotting and still have backache, sop am toatally paranoid coz this is how my ep went.

24th april? christ, how are you doing? have you got anything planned for that day?

hi all, missed you duchesse & soreheart!

have booked our hol today for my ep due date so im not around for it. its odd but most dates now seem to have failed pg conotations, agree, need a frank chat with the doc. does anyone know anything about natural cycle ivf?

Woo-hoo!! Duchesse and Soreheart are BACK!!

Evening All, been away doing WORK. Who'd've thought it. . CD23 today so only DAYS to wait to er...um....well, who knows. No symptoms of anything at all, what so ever at the moment. DP is doing well with the new regime which is brilliant.

I'm so sorry, Lissielou, to hear your news. I do think a rest might be in order, plus some very serious 'what else can medical science do for me' discussion with the experts up the hospital. Knowledge is power and all that.

Also agree with Bsprout (?) that the Hut of Doom is saving NHS masses of money on counselling. It really has been so good to find you lovely ladies.

Impy, please don't leave us - if you do stop TTC. We'd miss you badly.

OK, time to eat. Hope you are all outside with your white wines / lager tops / Vimtos.

I see that there is no-one in today but just thought I'd let you know that I was out last night at bingo so my phone was switched off, but when I turned it on I had an urgent message from dp. I called and he said that the beardie had laid her eggs!!! He reckons somewhere in the region of 20-25, but she has now buried them so we don't know exactly! I'm gob smacked cos we have only suspected for less than a week!
Anyway, will be buying an incubator tomorrow so will count the eggs when I transfer them.
Beansprout, we will have to sell them. We never intended to breed them (only planned to get one originally, but felt sorry for the "runt" so got him too. And even then we had no idea we had a boy and a girl!!) The thing is that she can apparently do this 5 times a year, so that is 125 eggs a year Mind you, we can probably sell them for £30 each (cost about £65 in the shops!) Imagine, 125 x 30....thats £3750!!!! Blimey, maybe I should take this up full-time!!
hose that want to see, I am going to put a piccie of my beardies on my profile so now you'll all know what they look like!

Lissie - hope you are ok today. Totally understand your decision to have a break. Give yourself some time and then see how you feel

Seaside - your dh's betting is a classic. How could the completely random selection of a National winner possibly be pulled off by a bird? Far better to leave all that stuff to the men

Am already a bit bored with the hot weather. Cor, what a bleedin' misery I turned out to be!!

thank you all. have decided to def not ttc for a while. dont think i could take much more tbh.

congrats on your wins ladies, im impressed. my horse fell at the 1st!

Evening all
lissie - so sorry for all you are going through - I do not have anything to make you feel better except to say you are a strong beautiful woman and hopefully the hut can give you a little relief however brief. Here's a fish bowl of Tequila Sunrise just for you

feedmenow - OK I too have no idea what bearded dragons are but talk about rubbing your nose in it - its bad enough with most pets having litters of 6-8 but 25 FFS - whats her secret - spread some of that fertility around please!

LNO - congrats on the win - I had that one and the winner too - yippee - except stoopid cocky DH thought my bets were not as valid as his and put £3 on each of his horses and only £1 on mine crap - I could have won over £100 - so basically even with my winnings we were only up £20 cos of all of his doozies!!! Fricking men! Cue HUUUGE barney in the seaside house!

so sorry lissielou that you sound so down - I think you need time in the hut to air your views and for us to spoil you rotten. There's plenty of out of date eastereggs under the bar....

Beansprout - my views too, never seen a bearded dragon before - unless you count my boss in as that and I think 25 of them would be telling me to resign quick!

FME maybe you ought to rename the hut "dragon's den" ....

Anyway brought in some bottles of vino cos my horse came 3rd in the grand national and I won all my money back and a bit more - (mind you TTC is a bit like the grand national isnt it - I always appear to fall at the first two hurdles!) Enjoy folks - Im going to see if Ive won on the lotto now too

Hi Lissie. I'm sorry it's so hard for you at the moment. I hope you are being kind to yourself.

Hello to everyone else. FMN - I don't even know what a bearded dragon looks like, let alone what I would do with 25 of them! What do you do with 25 dragons?!

tbh im too scared to ttc again at the mo. this last mc (considering i was only 4w) was v painful and i dont know how much more my body can cope with.

its fine to be angry,tearful and all the other things you are feeling.its normal and allowed.

sorry if personal (we havent 'met' very much) but are you going to ttc again?because looking forward to it may help?i understand it may frighten you though.

we are here to listen.moan as much as you like!

im so angry with everyone and everything. have put my maternity clothes into storage. my SiL is about to pop, and im still spotting. im so fed up of having such a shitty, useless body. its supposed to be the most natural process in the world but im failing miserabley at it.

i'm here.are you ok?

anyone here? i need a rant. fmn, sorry and glad about your bearded dragon. its not fair is it!

Well, I have pregnancy news in my household, so exciting......looks like my bearded dragon is going to have babies!! Hows that just to rub my nose in it????? And if we're right, she won't just have one or two, she'll have up to 25 of the little blighters!!! Do you think I've REALLY lost it when I start to feel jealous of a reptile while still getting excited and "clucky" about it?
Perhaps I should stop thinking about this and think more rationally, about more sensible things.....like being similar to a half price easter egg