Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

Welcome, MsLucy! Make sure you join us on the more recent version - follow Duchesse's link below. There's only manky ashtrays and camel droppings in here now.

Oh, and us, apparantly! Come to the nicer hut .

Hooray for the hut.

I'm new to this and am loving it already

Will will your eggs along. Take care of yourself xx

will be thinking of you all week.

Hi All
OK. I've had a pep talk from my other web chat room:
My new mantra is "It ain't over til it's over"
It iss not all over for me yet - I have egg collection in a few days and though I may only get 2 (3 at a stretch|) - but (as I have been reminded numerous times by the IVF forum I'm on) we only need ONE fertilised egg.

S0 - if any of you have earthy / hippy / spiritual tendancies please can you be kind enoug to send me positive vibes / reiki / prayers or sing the fab Style Council song with me in mind.

with love and thanks
Cxx

Lissie, I hear you. Poor us. I don't check those threads at all now.

Suddenly in RL I know a few people who have been trying for a while, some of whom conceived first babies 1st time. That makes me feel a bit more normal. My hypothesis is that the damaging thing is the public myth that conception is always easy and it's just a matter of deciding and trying (or slipping up). If there was a bit more awareness perhaps us unlucky ones might not feel quite so much like failing freaks. If all the women in my office declared when they started trying, and then we all saw month after month of nothing, the occassional success would be really celebrated, and then anyone who had been trying for a while would get a more accurate picture of the stats and feel less miserable about themselves!

I think I've dribbled on in this fashion before on here!

Nice to be missed xx (said that before, too, haven't I!)

ok, spot the person with much to do before 5...

oh impatience, i have missed you. am thinking of abandoning the ttc boards and just staying in the hut. too many BFPs too soon. i know i should be grateful that i have ds etc, but im sick of all this now. i just want to not think about it for a while, i hate this knowledge that my body is failing and there's nothing i can do about it.

by the way have been loitering a little lately, kicking that sand outside the door again. Tried last month (oops, look, saying 'last' as though psychologically I've already moved on...). Period due today, and I do feel it's on the way. The month I didn't try I felt fab, was really happy with life. This month I've done ok, but the last few days have been a bit ropey, and another friend has just got pregnant and I just want to make her go and live somewhere else. Only FTCers around me, please. I've been throwing myself heavily into my running, and doing rather well with it too. Er, not to mention drinking like a person who doesn't care that they might be pickling their insides . I'm so fed up with putting life on hold for something that bloody well isn't happening.

Anyway, sorry I keep popping in with a ME ME ME then buggering off for days. Such a selfish unreliable dweller. The way I'm feeling at the moment, I might be rather more present soon.

C'days, I really am sorry that the IVF hasn't been the magic wand you wanted, although there is still hope xxx

So sorry to hear that Chocolatedays. It was supposed to work, DAMMIT

My fingers crossed that things will still work out x

oh chocolatedays, im sorry!

Dear Chocolatedays don't despair, sometimes eggs grow faster in the last few days of taking the drugs - have they upped your drug dose??

Remember that it only takes one good egg so lets keep our fingers crossed for you.

I am now taking DHEA after talking with my consultant about it. There are trials in the US that give indications that for older women if taken over a 4 month period can increase egg quality and production. Happy to give more info if you want. But think you should hold tight with the IVF drugs and see if you can go one round with them.
take care and thinking of you
LNO

Chocolatedays - I am so sorry the IVF is not going as planned - I do not have any solid experiential advise but I know when I was looking at IVF I found this US study I talked to my natural health doc and he thought it looked really interesting and could be worth a try. I even ordered some DHEA online in readiness.

You are probably already having acupuncture but if you are not I would really recommend it as there are also loads of studies proving it increases success in IVF. (I also started having it in readiness)

I am so sorry if that all sounds meddling and simplistic but I am a try anything and everything kinda gal.

In a more Hut-like vain - this sucks and is not fair - here are some expensive ornaments to throw at the wall and a huge goldfish bowl of Pimms.

Dear Fellow Hut Dwellers,
Things are not going well with my IVF.

I am not producing enough eggs - so may not even make it to 2 ww.

Not much else to say - but could really do with some support.

Our dreams of becoming parents seem desperately far away.

i want a baby [stamps feet]

im now cd44 and still waiting for my period...

Ooooh, Sideways and Beansprout, well bloody done! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Thought I'd just procrastinate, see what I'm missing. Hello MrsMc: Are you pregnant too? Fantastic!

I'm not pregnant, although i am in a 2ww, so, you know, a miracle MIGHT happen. Dp isn't pregnant either. I've entered a healthy state of denial.

Anyway, gotta dash, have so much to do. Roll on end of June when everything slows down for me. Tarrah you lovelies xxx

Away for a bit from today. Take it easy everyone. Will be doing my utmost to do the same.

thanks

Too right - well done lissie! and dont forget that when you are in there next! You have a right to all the tests now!! so don't forget it - especially after what happened to you - they should be bending over backwards to ensure everything goes well for you now. Take care and will look out for your post on progress soon.

lol, i took in pages on the research linking uterine group b strep to early mc's and tell the nurses off if they try to fob me off. my last mc they tried to tell me that they couldnt scan to rule out another ep till i was 6w pg, i went mad and asked them about the swelling on tubes and excess fluid thats visible with an ep from 5w.

they do try to fool us sometimes dont they?

Best of luck Lissie with the hospital - I think my consultant dreads me walking in cos Im like a walking encyclopedia with all the info from these websites, - even took research papers re. drugs trials this time and felt like I was have a doctor to doctor moment poor soul! they must hate the internet dont you think? All those years at med school and here we are challenging them on the latest thinking! Nothing like keeping the medical profession on their toes..

LNO, hope this one works for you. its wierd but the anniversary of my 2nd or 4th (however you look at it) mc was on sun but apart from being a bit snappy i was really ok-ish. tbh i think the events of feb have just wiped me out! go back to specialist on mon (havent even been able to have all the tests done so prob wont even have any answers)

anyhoo, how is everyone?

Hi Ladies
I've been lurking around but not posting much - lazy yes but also cos DP thinks Im obsessed with computer and thinks I have a secret luvvvvveerrrr so been lying low.

Congratualations - Great news Beansprout, Seaside and MrsMcJnr - I guess folks we will have to move home now - you know what they say, new house new baby! who knows a new hut may bring us some more great news.

All the best to you too Chocolatedays, I know the 2WW is simply the worst on IVF every twinge feels like a potential BFP. Im hoping to go through it all again in July and then that's it ladies I will give up cos Ive lost count of how many yrs we've been FTC. Lets share a few virtual cocktails to forget the anniversaries eh Lissie?

Dutchess - re the furry beast - are you sure its not a mink! cos thinking you could make a nice hat out of it (images of furry critter on Dutchess' head)

promised this would be a quick post so better nip off now. Will leave you all with a case of red wine (good for blood count) and green and black (organic naturally) chocolate bars..
see you late folks

Do you think my terrible typing skills are why mother nature / god has decided I'm not worthy of motherhood?

Soreheart.
I hear you hun... and feel the same - it's shit. I'm contenplating hypnotherapy to help me forget / try to forget / get over the empty feeling ... and build a like without constantly dreaming of the family life I long for.It makes me feel physically sick at the thought we're going to remain childless.
Where are you with investigations / tests and all that bollocks?