Morning all thanks so much for your kind thoughts and words. Im finding it pretty shit at the moment it's really hard because I'm still carrying the baby I can't get any closure just get. The cramps are starting to get worse on and off.
It's the weirdest feeling, I said to the sonographer that I knew it was going to be bad news but it still kicks you in the gut when they tell you. The cruelest thing of all was although my boobs stopped hurting (which I should have taken more notice of I guess) I felt nauseous the whole way through, it was only Thursday afternoon it stopped.
Hoping to potter about in the garden a bit today but too worried to go to far from home in case it starts properly. I'm back to epu on Monday and I'm hoping I can go down the surgical route as at least then I might get the closure I so desperately need.
Work are being amazing, taking Monday to Thursday off then off for Easter.
I haven't cried any more yet, don't think I've got any more tears to shed. I'm strong and I will get through this, forever in my heart I'll carry a little space for my baby who was not to be.
I'm really sorry if I shouldn't have posted or if it scares people it wasn't my intention. I've had so much love and support from you all I just really wanted to be honest about everything as it might help someone who's going through the same thing. This is my way of drawing my line in the sand and after Monday I'm hoping that things can only get better.
I hope you all have a beautiful sunny day. grumpy I'm glad you're home safe and sound and the flights were ok, Jupiter hope you're taking plenty of time to relax to get you through the symptoms. Dancing para I hope my journey isn't dragging up bad memories for you, you're both such strong amazing women. Everyone thanks for the beautiful messages of love and support, I showed my oh and he was as blown away as I've been, you've made a hard time that little bit better.