Thread 26. TTC #1 - Calm as a hysterical cucumber

I think AF is here. On 8 DPO!

Jam, That's an interesting idea. At the moment, we're both getting home about 9pm and the priority then is normally food but I may suggest it tonight. Thank you!

I'm feeling exactly the same as you Pyjamas too. I'm supposed to be having a life/career chat with one of the partners this afternoon and I'm really not in the right head space for it. I'd really like a couple of weeks off from everything in my life right now. The idea of running away and going to lie on a beach and drink margaritas for a while is seriously appealing.

Flash, it's a pain isn't it? I do admire DH's dedication to his job and he's been very successful but I do wonder if it's worth it sometimes. Sorry about your symptoms and keeping everything crossed for you that your acupuncturist is wrong!

Pyjamas sorry you're feeling so crappy. I find I am generally happy, but definitely get more random low moods, that don't seem to be associated with AF as they used to be. The stress of all this, and the impact it has is unbelieveable. Make sure you do something nice for yourself this evening, sounds like you need a bit of spoiling/relaxing.

Sorry about AF winging and inspector.

Sorry to hear that Kath, my DH is also a workaholic, I just try to remind him from time to time all the things he's missing out on when he works unnecessarily (sometimes he has to work a lot and I understand that but other times it's just out of habit!)

Sorry about BFN Macs.

Had a pinky red splash of blood this morning, boobs look much bigger but don't feel as sore as yesterday (acupuncturist worked on some PMS points). And I have a spotty chin. Fairly sure it's all PMS, even my acupuncturist last night said 'Oh I'm hoping you're pregnant but your symptoms don't look promising'.

I think because I got pregnant 1st time last year, I thought maybe I'm really fertile (even though it turned out to be a dud) and I'll get pregnant again quickly even with one tube. But now I don't think that!

Sorry about AF penguin sorry about BFN mac 💐 It's all such a kick in the teeth sometimes.

Managed to HS last night despite my terrible mood - not going to lie, was glad when it was over so I could just be left the F alone! Mood not much better today - generally fed up with everything - TTC, my job, missing the life I had when I wasn't thinking about TTC etc etc. Sorry, I seem to be on moaning mode at the moment ☹️ Think today is going to be a earphones in day at work...

Used a soft cup for first time last night - think I ballsed it up when inserting so may have done more harm than good but oh well! They're much bigger than mooncups which threw me a bit!

Hope work doesn't drag too much for you today kath.

Right, am taking my dark cloud into a corner somewhere...

jam yeah it was 3 days early and very heavy from the outset with some clots, no warning spotting which I get most months.
I didn't test as have vowed never to test until AF late

It is like a moon cup Harriet but you get a box of loads of them - they are not as reusable as a moon cup or diva cup. I haven't had one of those so can't compare. I get mine from amazon - there are lots of reviews for using them for TTC and AF. You pop it up after DTD to keep the sperm close to your cervix. That's the theory anyway! I've now switched to them for AF and massively prefer them.

Oh sorry kath, alexia - how annoying! No idea what's happening with your opks either though so maybe the timing might work in your favour?

We were meant to HS last night on our EOD plan but I fell asleep - oops! Then had an amazing sex dream which though enjoyable probably isn't going to get me that bfp!!

jam what is a soft cup? Is it a moon cup type thing and what do you do with it? (Sorry I should probably know this). I'm trying everything this cycle!

Kaydee he didn't drink. He is however going away Saturday and a friend is meant to be going with him - this guy is very very boozy so I don't stand a hope in hells chance of him not drinking too much 😔

Alexia how frustrating 😣 could he cooperate another way - get some in a soft cup and diy? If your OPK is not positive yet there is definitely still time. Thanks for posting the FF BFP! That is amazing. Is this a paid version of fertility friends / an app? I've only been on the desktop site and there are hardly any posts on the MFI boards so I feel like I'm missing something..

Macs I'm still hopeful for you hon. I hate BFNs so much, I do sympathise.

Ugh kath how annoying! Can you switch HS to when you get in from work rather than waiting until bedtime? That's helped us before.

Miranda haha glad it's not just mine! 😂

Binky sorry I'm out of clues on that one. Have you made an appointment to follow up? My practice does telephone appointments which I find much easier to fit in

Pyjamas they used to be my drinking habits too! We both love our booze. I must say though I am enjoying the lack of hangovers. I feel better generally for drinking less. I hope you're feeling brighter today. Wednesdays are better than Tuesdays I think.

Winging did you test at all? I think you were caught out early? I'm sure I read that if your period comes early and is heavier that can indicate a CP. hope that's a promising sign of BFP to come soon.

Sorry about AF penguin. I hope you have a fabulous trip. With any luck it'll be your last big adventure before becoming parents 🌎

Ugh Alexia, I know how you feel. Pretty sure I'm going to ovulate today. DH knew we were supposed to have sex last night but ended up working until 1.30. I was so cross that I couldn't get to sleep and was just lying in bed fuming. I'm worried we're going to end up going down the IVF route purely because he prioritises work over everything else (which I know is unfair because I'm sure he'd rather have been shaggjng and getting to bed at a reasonable time than working but whatever). I ended up watching TV until about 3am and then getting a couple of hours of sleep on the sofa. Today is going to be a long day.

Sorry about the BFN macs and for the arrival of AF Inspector and Winging

Binky, I'll have a look at all my results when I get to work and see if there's anything about globulin. Sorry that you're worrying about it and I hope you can talk to your GP about it soon

binky I hope you get some answers soon. The rainbow post is lovely.

jam I've tested after AF once, it settled the stupid nagging feeling in my mind. It's so stupid how much this all messes with your head.

Sorry for AF winging and inspector 💐

kwick so lovely to hear from you. You've been in my thoughts. I'm hope you've got some good support to help you through this.

alexia sorry about DH. There might still be some sperm about waiting for your egg?

So I tested this morning and am now coping with the BFN with a FRER that confronted me. It's really knocked it out of me. I'm CD 32 and my longest cycle has been 33 days. My boobs are still the sorest they've been and big. So now I'm stuck in limbo waiting for AF so we can start this whole stupid process again.

PMA required today (as have barely slept from stressing about my blood results)..I'm trying to keep my focus on something that has been said on here many times- "we are one day closer to our babies". Ladies, our time WILL come, and all this stress and heartbreak will be worth it.

As popped up on my social media this morning, "after the rain comes the most beautiful rainbow" 🌈

LSFX all

(Waffling sleep deprived silly post over and out)

Sorry ladies, was so so busy yesterday I only had time to dip in quickly - just having a skin catch up

LSFX flash & jam, hope the TWW craziness doesn't get too bad

Kwick hope you have been getting lots of TLC from your family & looking after yourself

Binky, sorry no idea about the actual blood results but could you call your GPS for a telephone appointment??

Sorry for AF winging

Jam hope your DH is on his best behaviour for the rest of his work trip?!

Pyjamas I sometimes have days like that! Usually just go home, speak to no one, and hope for better the day after 😂 Hope you managed to HS!!

GOS plan is on track this cycle, last night ticked off & again tonight all being well!!

Sorry for AF penguin 💐 Good you've got holiday to look forward to- and the IVF referral might just be a step to getting your lovely baby in your arms. Stay strong x

Quick post from hotel on work trip to say I'm out. Next month is big holiday, then after that we'll start thinking about IVF referral. Ugh.

Sorry for self centred post. Due a big catch up read when I get some down time here.

(sending you love Kwick, we've all been thinking about you)

Ugh AF is so heavy and super crampy this month. Soaked a super tampax in under 3 hrs this morning. It's turned me into a crazy googling lady and trying to convince myself it could have been a chemical?

Hence totally sympathise with the delusional thoughts jam

I second ELH as an abbreviation! 😂😂

So lovely to see you kwick - you've been in my thoughts a lot.

I've had an absolutely shit day - for some reason my mood is absolutely shocking. Feel really short tempered and don't even want to talk to anyone in the office. It's like AF is about to arrive, but that's not possible on CD sodding 13! Have to HS tonight and seriously can't be arsed, but, we will!

You pretty much described my drinking habits jam 😂 Weirdly, I think my DH is actually more prepared for having a baby than I am - I'm the one who seems to freak out more at prospect of life changing! I know I'll love our baby when it's here though. My mum was the same, not maternal in the slightest until me and my brother came along!

jam as I was reading about your comment about your DH and your cat I looked over to my DH who was holding our cat like a baby and rocking him backwards and forwards in his arms 😂

I can see alcohol causing potential arguments here too, DH doesn't drink much but when he does he drinks a lot. He's got a few friends who are still very much into drinking games so it's hard for him to say no to it without saying why.

Sk1pper I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of it. Really hope things start to improve soon

Sorry for AF winging, it's the same with me on here too, as soon as I post symptoms on here AF appears!

Sorry Binky I have no idea what that is but I hope you get some answers soon!

Lovely to see you on here kwick, I hope you're doing as well as can be expected

Fx for all of you nearing the end of the TWW

Thanks for the replies yesterday guys- was a mental day and I crashed and burned when I got home. Collected my blood results today- anyone know anything about high sex binding hormone globulin??! The GP hasn't rung me about the results but it does have a star saying "appointment booked"- not sure if this means my scan follow up, but that's just a scan, I want to speak to someone! Especially as I'm going to have to change my scan appointment as have a work thing I can't get out of 😫 Dr Google not that much help so far and obviously now I'm driving myself crackers catastrophising! 😕

Thanks london for the list. Sorry that AF hit winging 😞

Hope your dream comes true flash...not long til testing date! FX for baby brain! And macs how's knicker watch going??

Skipper 💐 sorry to hear about your cramping and that you're feeling so down. Your OH sounds so supportive and that you've discussed possible future options is excellent. And don't some people say that once they think of another plan it just happens for them, like they take the stress off?- really hope that's the case for you

London sorry that you've had a disagreement with your DH. The ideas about rewarding good behaviour like a pet sound like a plan!

Hi bluebell, sorry you've had a bad time of it. FX that the shorter AF is a positive sign 👍

Good luck with the HS pyjamas- hoping sperm and egg are on collision course!

Harriet it must have been such a rollercoaster of emotions for you both, if your DH is anything like mine he might be trying to be pragmatic to help support you? Men often approach things in a totally different way don't they, maybe his way of coping, sure when it's your sticky bean he'll be a fab dad

That is another cracking description kathrino, can we adopt ELH as another thread abbreviation?!😂 I second the hay fever problem- and the meds I take aren't compatible with TTC 😞

Hey kwick, we've been thinking of you 💐 No apologies needed. Hope you've been looking after yourself and taking time to grieve, you have been through a truly shit time. So so sorry for your loss x