Ttc after miscarriage thread #8

Dance class sounds fun! I admire your energy

How are you doing today sock?

How's everyone?

Thank you for the support ladies. I honestly don't know where I would be without this forum.

I took myself off to a dance class this evening which I was hideously bad at, but I've come back feeling more level headed.

I had af 28 days after my MVA. Think I ovulated in the middle of that, so two weeks after surgery and before af zyla.

fluff, I can't imagine being in that position. My heart goes out to you.

zyla I've just my erpc date to date everything from then. Bled for a few days but didnt get a negative until 2 weeks later. Ovulated 2 weeks after too (so within a few says of negative test) that's why I am assuming im due on Wednesday but can't be sure x

Anne things are ok ish. I'm praying he'll change his mind but i don't think he will. I just need to decide if I can live with not trying again. Zyla my cycle seems to be a week behind just waiting for af anytime now.

Congrats put that's definitely a cross!

Quick question, when do you start your cycle from, day of surgery or day of negative pregnancy test? If it's surgery then I'm CD8, but had another positive pregnancy test today, getting fainter and fainter, but I don't know when I'm counting from?

sock holding your hand x

As fluff says, well done for putting your anger towards something productive and cathartic.

I wish there was something someone could say fluff Have things been manageable the last few days at home? I'm praying for a little miracle for you.

Congratulations put user I'd wait a few more days that was definitely a positive you got. anne it all sounds positive. theother well done for using your anger towards something positive me i threw my remote at the wall when i was really fed up. I'm really hoping i was lucky and didn't ov till late but i don't think i was keep getting on off tummy and back cramps had a sharp twinge yesterday left side but my boobs keep feeling funny i think af will show her ugly face and then I'll be out the running forever. As dp won't change his mind. it hurts just as much as losing my baby.

Can I have a hand hold?

I'm sitting here in tears as I'm feeling so hormonal, I'm due AF on Friday and definitely feel like she is rearing her ugly head. I've swung between anger and tears today.

I used my anger productively to write a letter to my doctors to tell them they have really upset me due to the way I was poorly looked after in my pregnancy which I feel contributed towards my mmc.

Sorry it was a bfn keepon and don't be annoyed with yourself. We've ALL been there. But fresh new cycle next time x Treat yourself to a proper drink!

And I haven't been good at all! Caved yesterday and got a bfn on free so going to just wait for af and give it a couple more days.

Congrats putputput! Fingers crossed for a sticky one.

user I agree with Anne. Try not to worry too much about the CB and try again in a few days.

Well I caved and did a test. OF COURSE it was a bfn! Feel cross with myself now. I used to be such a rational person! TTC really does drive you bonkers. And I bought a 2 pack so now I've got one in the house. I prefer to try and maintain a test free environment. Anyway, at least my whirring mind can have a rest now. Well, until the next TWW anyway.

Anne I am very impressed with your resolve to not test. If you make it to Wednesday you will deserve a medal!

Busy is good! Makes time move much faster. My day whizzed past thankfully.

I'm beyond shattered to be honest and feel the size of a bloody house. Boobs are killing me, sore back off and on, so bloated. I'm wearing a lot of scarves and drapey cardis! Most annoying thing is my super nose. DH and pickles smell gorgeous but nearly everything else is gross and makes me want to throw up.

When I saw the nurse for my b12 jab she said after 3 pregnancies in such quick succession I must be awash with hormones so I'm keeping that in mind and not pinning my hopes on this being a new one.

Long cycle for me, usually 26 days, but, again, it's a post mc one and I had a weird 30 dayer a cycle ago so just playing the waiting game.

Thanks Anne you are so lovely.

I did read they needed a higher level of HCG.like you said I will wait until Friday I think. I have a busy week anyway so that will keep me busy. How are you feeling now?

user, the digis need a much higher level of HCG - like 50 compared to 10 of the FRER. This happens to a lot of people because levels of all the tests are so varied.

You're due af Weds? A digi should be showing it by then, but maybe do another FRER Weds and wait till Friday for the digi? I know it's shit and confusing but try not to worry x

Yes I can deffo see a line! I've been squinting at my own all weekend. After getting a positive with a FR yesterday I've tested with a CB digital today and got a big fat not pregnant....not sure what to think now after googleing the shit out of it!

Thank you all. I feel sick with fear at facing this all again. Fuck, what I would give for some naivety right now.

That's lovely and clear! How exciting! x

Thanks ems. I keep forgetting this is a post mc cycle, not a normal one, and it might be longer than usual, symptoms could be general messed up hormones. You know.... Talking myself out if it.

Your ov timings sound excellent, really good news

putputput Yep I can see that too - congratulations!

Oh swim that really is awful.

I promised I wouldn't do this but- can anyone else see the second line, to make a cross?

I will test tomorrow first thing, I know I should probably just wait. Due AF in 4 days.

claire, congratulations! So delighted for you. user, I definitely see a line and really hope to be enthusiastically congratulating you very soon. And fingers very firmly crossed for you Anne!

I'm having textbook ovulation this month - all good timings, EWCM, strong LH+ surge right on time - so hoping that's a good sign...!

swim, keep making a fuss! I'm livid on your behalf with your EPU. Bunch of heartless wankers. Good your GP is being better.

Do it keepon, worst that happens is you get a bfn. Which might help ease your mind for now. And you never know anyway!

I got a bfn yesterday, couldn't help it. Still no AF. Still getting couple of bouts of back and tummy cramps a day but not for long at all. Boobs are like basketballs, I can feel them with my arms by my side (I used to get this for a week pre af but haven't had it when not pg since) and loads of creamy cm.

God knows. If no af Wednesday I might test again. I purposely didn't buy many and am rationing them!

So sorry you're still having a rubbish time with it swimchick. I'm glad your GP was helpful.

iecgi I'm sorry you feel you've reached the end of the road with trying. I hope you manage to find some closure soon and wish you all the best with your lovely family.

Congrats user! There's definitely a line there.

Anne any update? I hope AF has stayed away.

Well, I've gone back over to the irrational side. Although I know I had AF last week my boobs still feel prickly at times and I just can't get the what if out of my mind. I think there is nothing for it other than to pee on a bloody stick to shut my mind up once and for all.

GP called and was very nice. She said it was unlikely to still be MC as I has stopped bleeding previously and have had no discharge to indicate any sort of infection. Agreed it was odd that I've been bleeding so long now, was going to call me back on Wednesday morning but I cried so I am going to see her on Wednesday instead and she is going to check whether I'm anaemic and se how the bleeding is doing.

I know the folk at EPU have to be able to treat everyone just as patients and not get emotionally involved but i agree sully that they could be more compassionate. When my DS had a MC, the midwife said "and are you even married" as if that matters at all.........

i'm on CD31 now, loads of cramping and bit nausea i think (unless i'm just hoping)!! def ovulated on CD14 as i felt it and did a OPK so i'm definitely late but when i tested yday it was BFN! I honestly keep going to toilet at work to check if AF but now i'm scared - why would i have all these cramps? it will be 4 weeks tomorrow that i had mc! Did anyone else have continuous cramps after ovulated after mc? I hope all you ladies are ok - if it helps everyone who i've spoken to who has been through this says that it gets easier and you will have some bad days but i don't see that happeneing for me for a long time! It's all i can think about! I had a horrible experience at the EPU - treated me like i was in for an abortion or something and never said the words "you've lost the baby" so my partner could not register that it had happened until i explained it to him! I will never forget that woman's face and how cold she was with me! When i went in for my final scan to check i was clear the first thing she asked me was if i'd had a nice weekend!!!!! Urgh makes me so angry just thinking back!