Ttc after miscarriage thread #8

Sorry I'm way behind on this thread. anne really sorry about AF.

I'm 5dpo today in my first cycle post mc (tried again straight away) and have had cramping since I ovulated (never had this before) but no other symptoms. Is anyone else testing next week?

Swim and keep do whatever it takes user fx for Monday. Hope everything turns out good for you. I could also do with going to slimming world anne maybe your body is giving you a couple of weeks to relax enjoy the naughty stuff before you have 9 months of "i can't have that I'm pregnant" sock was you due today? Is this the first after mc? Fx.

Eeeek! No sign of AF today although I wouldn't put it past my body to be playing a cruel joke on me. Sore chest area, but not sure if that is down to the fact I have a stinking cold.

My emotions are all over the place, I'm going to leave a few days to test though, I can't deal with a BFN right now.

Hi all,
Anne March is a fresh month so look at it that way :) my AF still hasn't shown up so really not sure what's going on. Had a week of crap and another friend announced her pregnancy to me yesterday. I looked at the scan and just filled up. Again happy for her but just took me back 5 weeks to when I was at the scan. Arghh!!!
Going for a load of blood tests on Monday and back for a scan to see what's happening down there. So wish my positive I had last weekend was the case, it's crazy how you can feel on top of the world to shit just by peeing on a sodding stick. Sorry for the negative rant. Other news I've gone back to slimming world. I've gained a stone since November...that's comfort eating for you!

Anyway ladies I hope all is well with you all. Positive thoughts to everyone...including myself! X

swimchick I'm away Sun-Wed next week and DH is away Wed-Thurs which is across my fertile week and DH suggested giving me some pots of ahem to take away with me. So you're not the only crazy one!

Sorry to hear that Anne. Hope the & was good at least!

My AF is due today. Feels like it might be coming but I've been having cramps for days which could be IBS type thing because of the stress. I'm still feeling nauseated & not quite right so I'll just ignore the fact that today's cramps seem to be a bit lower than previous ones...!

Anne, sorry that AF arrived but hopefully your body is regulating itself now. You've had such a sh!t time and it's totally ok to have days like that.

I think my bleeding my finally have stopped, woohoo! GP checked my tummy and stuff just to reassure me no infection. She said if this is just a one off it may just be my body regulating itself, but if it keeps happening over the next few months to go back again. Really hope it doesn't. I'm not going to see DH for a week at the end of next week and i just know that if I do ovulate it'll be in that week. Maybe I could get him to spunk in a cup and have a stash in the freezer. I know that I am officially a crazy person for even thinking that .

Sorry about AF Anne. Your body has been through a lot these past few months, hopefully it just needed a bit of a reset.

Emsler yeah I spoke to him yesterday all seems ok thanks. Although be said hes getting the snip so we have no more opportunities now. And the family house sounds promising once your in it will go swimmingly. Fx.
Oh anne I'm sorry. wine and baking sounds good. Get that holiday booked anne you need something exciting go look forward to.

Ah Anne, I feel awful for you about this whole shitty day! It's good to have a plan though; I think what you've decided to go with sounds like a better quality of life than counting down every hour until fw, then until af starts, then until af ends, etc. Hope you feel better in the morning--in the meantime, eat all the cakes!

Af arrived. Wish I'd just waited

I'm sore and sad but I have wine and I'm baking then early to bed.

Thanks for being there you lovely people x

Anne sorry it's all confusing and difficult

We're having a 'talk' this weekend because I can't make up my mind whether to try again or not, sometimes I'm desperate for a second, other times I think a third mc would break me and I know we're lucky to have DD and I also know it's getting easier with her. I need to know what we are doing as we're too old to leave it a while. If we decide to try it has to be now :(.
I hate not having a clear plan

Anne I'm so sorry you're feeling rough - you put exactly how I feel about it all into words, it's just completely rubbish. Every day someone else in my life gets pregnant and I just can't help but think "why not ME?!"

We're determined to keep trying for now but I know there will come a point when I pull the plug and we start to look at other options. Although we've just had an offer accepted on a family house which we definitely wouldn't have bought if we knew children weren't in our future, so fingers crossed! Cycle 6 post MMC now...

fluff, how are you feeling today? Have you managed to broach the subject with your DP? Congratulations!

Anne really sorry your having a rough day. Dates could be wrong lets hope so. Sounds like you deserve a holiday with the cocktails and fags. And some nice warm sun. Sun changes everything. I felt really lazy today so tired so we went for a nice walk although still tired less lazy.

Thank you all xxx

Had a lovely sit in the sun which is gorgeous here today, feeling slightly more mellow. Also had news that a friend had her bfp today from a round of ivf abroad. She's been through so much and it's lovely to hear happy news.

I usually keep a fairly positive head on me but I have a real wtf feeling about the whole thing. I see how worried DH is and I wish something could just pissing go to plan for us.

As you say keepon, if af is going to show up I wish it would just bloody do so now.

Anne please rant away. I'm sorry you're having a rubbish day. It is all so shitty, and some days it seems much bleaker and shitter than others. I say book the holiday and have the booze and the fags. We need to do whatever we need to do to get through and we need to continue living our lives and finding enjoyment in other areas. I hope you have some clarity on what is going on at the moment soon, even if it is the dreaded witch making a visit.

Thanks anne and sorry you're still in limbo - I think the waiting is the worst part - waiting for the mc to be over, then waiting to ovulate, then waiting to test... and then a big wait until you can be reasonably sure everything is going to be ok! It sounds like you do need a holiday, and it might even happen then while you're not driving yourself crazy thinking about it. Since my mc, DH and I have booked two weekends away over the next couple of months and ordered new carpets for our bedroom and stairs - we'd been saving like crazy for the baby and just thought f**k it, we'll have time to save again and we may as well give ourselves some things to look forward to now, rather than just waiting around to see if/when I get pregnant again. You deserve to enjoy yourself. Although saying that, fingers crossed af stays away and you do get your BFP soon....

Self indulgent rant warning

I'm pretty fucking miserable this morning. Another BFP, 2 days late, no af in sight, symptoms up to the eyeballs but clearly not pregnant and I generally feel a bit defective. I know you're not out till you're out and all that and I might have got my dates wrong, it's the first cycle post mc, all that. But the prospect of a healthy pregnancy and a baby at the end of it feels a million bastard miles away and I'm so so bloody tired and fed up of it all

We had a chat this morning and if af does eventually show we're going to ditch the app (which I do find priceless but is making me very crazy), spend some money on the house, book a decent holiday, I need to tackle the driving and get my license and we'll not try but not stop it either. I Might change my mind in a month but the way I'm feeling now I need off the crazy train I'm on.

Most of the time I'm fine and the rest of life is good. But it never goes away does it? I was due my precious baby in 2 months, it's gone so incredibly quickly. And all I feel like I've done in the time I should have been happy and healthy and chubby and pregnant is bleed and cry and worry. Which isn't really true, but that's what it feels like in the shit moments.

On the one hand I'm wedded to healthy eating, clean living vitamins, sleep, trying to be as good as I can. But maybe what I need is a holiday, a bucket full of cocktails, a few packets of fags, some late nights and a bit more sodding spontaneity.

All done xxx

So sorry for your loss halloumisandwich, but I love your name!

Hi all, can I join you please? So sorry to hear about all of your losses. I miscarried for the first time (first pregnancy) two weeks ago, got my BFN yesterday so back on the horse now. I was incredibly lucky and got pregnant first time trying so I'm hoping it'll happen quickly again and all will be well this time, but as others have said, the not knowing and worrying is so hard! I miscarried at nearly 11 weeks this time (paid for a private scan as I was so convinced something was wrong and EPU just told me that the spotting I'd been having was fairly common, which I'm sure it is, found out the baby had died nearly 2 weeks before, and then started properly bleeding that night before I could even phone the hospital, so at least I avoided any surgery!) so I know if I do get pregnant again I'm going to be stressed the entire 12 weeks. Sending lots of happy baby vibes to you all and hoping for lots of BFPs soon.

Ramble away Miami. It is the uncertainty that is so difficult. No one can tell us if or when we'll have our babies. In my mind I've always said I won't put us through more than 4 MCs but I can see that changing if I do have a 4th. And then there's getting pregnant for a 4th time in the first place. I'm not someone who falls pregnant easily and sadly the increased fertility after a MC theory doesn't seem to apply to me. It took 10 months last time.