SQUARE ONE TO GRADUATES! Over here! Let's go find those BFPS!

Question for you moon cuppers or soft cuppers - would you ever lose one?? I mean are they easy to get in and out? I'm worried I'll stick one in but lose it?
Interestingly been googling them and both have high success rate for ttc. Might give them a pop also for AF.

Things bit better today with H, we're talking, and almost dtd last night but just held each other close instead. Trying not to rush things.
I'm still very sad, and if I'm honest I have no motivation to do anything all day. I've lost confidence & feel lonely. He's taken a step forward by organising further help with himself so that's really good and I'm pleased. He's working on himself, but I'm just left to get on with life alone while he does this. I know I need to be patient, as "us" won't get better until he sorts himself out. I'm ok though, just feel down.

Sorry for the bfn Kiki & Durez.
Strange cycle you have there durez if you bleed then stop then start? I spotted for a week on and off before my AF a couple of cycles back but not since.
Fingers crossed it will be a BFP in a couple of days.

Sorry to hear you are still poorly beagles. Are you run down or anything to effect your immune system?
Just finished season 3 of GOT, and I was a bit shocked by the brutality! It's good and addictive to watch but I was clutching the pillow so tight! It's a distraction for me to get engrossed into something so I'm not stressing about other things.

Nim glad you're ok. Have u got a midwife appt yet?

Day 16 here and I'm pretty sure I've ovulated. Got my +OPK Wednesday, had loads of EWCM and then almost constant O pain yesterday. Noticed this morning that my boobs were slightly sore. We have DTD daily since Tuesday so it's safe to say there are swimmers in place.

Will see if he fancies again tonight or tomorrow and will feel like we've done everything we can.

Still know that af will come in two weeks but what can we do but try?

Hope everyone doing well and happy Friday to you

Sorry to hear that, I hate bfns it is early days though so plenty of time to still get a BFP this cycle

Well expected bfn this morning. Dh seems to think try again Sunday but we will see might just need to wait for AF on Monday and start again next month.

Can't believe you're back on antibiotics again beagles are they looking into why you're not getting better?

Glad all going well nim

Did you test kiki? Fx! 🤞🏼

Durez I've had few odd AF on again off again along the way.

Beagles I used a moon cup this time (only once).

Footy and Kate hope your feeling OK.

I hope we will be seeing more BFP jam!

There is that with the bfn tee but I just can't help myself the not knowing for me is worse than a bfn. Trying to hold off!

Beagles - I use the cheapie dip tester ones you can get on Amazon because it's cheap for lots! I've only ever used CB to confirm a positive (and then we had to do 6 of them as my dh wouldn't believe it!). I will end up testing tomorrow as its the same cycle day we fell last time, been feeling really ropey but I have got a head cold! Then will try and wait for AF on Monday. Hope you get better soon - have they given you a different type of antibiotic?

Thanks for sharing nim it gives me hope that if I do get a bfn tomorrow there is still hope! Myself and tee are around the same time testing but I will inevitably test early.

Keep us posted durez and you are not alone I'm starting to obsess now it's getting near AF and already talking about trying again next month.

I am trying not to get too hung up for a while, it's easier because I am so busy with work but still at this time of the month it's hard not to get anxious and then rather down when AF arrives.

My cycle is acting a little bizarre but just done a CB Digi and it's a negative. I have been lightly spotting for a few days then bright red bleeding for literally one wipe and now nothing again. Usually just start AF and it's pretty consistent. God knows!!! I'm cd22 I think which is about right for AF too.

Happy Birthday Mimi and Tee! Tee I have never been able to wake until I was late to test but this time it was Bfn until I was officially late.

Feeling fine here, only symptom is (TMI ) slightly constipated but that was the same with previous pregnancies so I hope that's a good sign.

Jem, your dates look really good, fingers and toes crossed this is your month. And you kiki, are you next to test?

Gotta go well finish later.

She's doing great thanks Jam, he's gone very low so seems like he's getting ready to make his entrance! She has another scan tomorrow as they've had some concerns with his growth, just being extra cautious I think! That's awesome re. DTD! You've really nailed it!
Kiki it's not really will power on my part in all honesty. I just can't face BFNs, so I really only like to test when a BFP is the most likely outcome (several days late). I'd much rather have AF arrive and be CD1 of a new cycle.

How is your twin doing tee? It's exciting you will have a new niece or nephew soon.

Fingers tightly crossed for you and kiki, I think we will be seeing more BFP

Got a blazing positive OPK last night and we DTD. Will do it again tonight and probably tomorrow. Might try and keep up regular-ish DTD in the TWW too.

Durez - absolutely obsessed! Should have taken out shares in pregnancy tests companies some months with the amount of tests I'm ashamed to admit I've done in the hope that one will turn out positive!! Thankfully bit calmer now but still think about it all the time.

Footy - you are such a strong woman and taking note of your words onwards and upwards we climb to that BFP xx

Happy belated birthday MIM!

Jam - FX sounds like you have your timings spot on! Oh outside I'm happy for them inside I still have a pang of jealousy and sadness!!

Hey tee - we are nearly there!! Not much longer to go! I am really impressed I don't think I have the will power to not test early. Last month my cycle was 33 days so AF should be due Monday. I will probably end up testing Friday just because that was the cycle day our BFP showed before then try and wait to see if AF arrives on Monday. But I know what I'm like! Yesterday felt like AF would arrive any moment but cramps have gone today and am full of cold so generally achy and tired. Trying not to get obsessed now tww is coming towards its end! FX for the both of us! (My sister in law is just having another round of IVF so would be lovely to see pregnancies all round!) xx

Beagles that should have said *most likely

Thanks for the birthday wishes girls, and happy belated birthday to you Mim! Lovely to hear from you, I'm liking your relaxed approach not knowing where you are in your cycle, must feel a bit liberating!!
I was just working in the day then had a lovely meal with my (very) pregnant twin and our OHs.
Footy I think I'd feel very bitter in your situation, having to make his lunch like nothing's happened, and with no thanks! Having said that, I think you are doing the right thing to keep things stable for the boys. At least you can say you did everything you could, and hopefully DH will look back at this and realise what an incredible woman, wife and mother you are.
Jam glad you are in good terms with DH and nailing the dates so far! Keep it up, it's nice to be able to say after FW that you couldn't have given it a better shot!!
How are you feeling Beagles? Hope going back to work was ok! I've worried about endometriosis in the past because of the amount of cramps I seem to get throughout the month. Think my internal scan would have picked this up and mostly just the craziness and paranoia of ttc, try not to worry (or google) too much. But no harm mentioning to GP if you want to put your mind at rest.
Kate you certainly deserve a peaceful and relaxed 2017. You mustn't feel guilt! They should be feeling guilty making someone feel this low! It's not right! Hope the new job brings you more happiness, and a bfp will be the cherry on the top!
Kiki how are you cycle buddy?! Still crampy? I am! Feels like AF will show any minute. Not officially due on until Saturday (I usually have a 27 day cycle) BUT, I'm sure I ovulated 2 days late, so won't consider myself 'late' until Tuesday next week. I don't test early, will just wait out AF. I doubt I would test until next Friday. When are you expecting AF and when will you test?!
Yes DuRez, it's all I've thought about for 13 months! x

Beagles how are you feeling, have the pains settled down?

Durez I am beyond obsessed!

I know I don't post very long replies on here, I get little chance to come on. But I do read all the posts and I am hoping those AFs stay away!

Does anyone else feel they get a bit obsessed with TTC? I haven't thought about it at all this month due to having a few extra horses to work, but last month I was terrible and I found it hard not to get worked up about things.

Jam I know just how you feel. This whole ttc thing has been the final straw for me. Almost had a mental breakdown over the last couple of weeks. Trying not to want a baby, but it isn't working very well. I've been staying away from here to take my mind off things... but it hasn't worked very well. Not really sure what the solution is. I took anti-depressants for a couple days last week and they sent me totally loopy. They aren't for me.

Beagles stop murdering the kittens! I know I've been getting daggers since I said I was leaving at a time they won't be able to replace me and my school is too cheap to get in supply. Arseholes. Feel insanely guilty for moving jobs! Situation ridiculous!

Day 14 here and darkening OPK will likely be positive tomorrow. We DTD yesterday morning and probably again tonight. DH on board and in the country - hurrah! So at least we can hopefully give it a good go this cycle 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

Kiki I hope you get to enjoy pregnancy with your mate, that's great you're able to be happy and not overcome with envy. I think my best mate will be trying soon so I'm kind of bracing for them conceiving.

Thanks mimi good to see you lovely

Happy birthday tee 😊💛

Ah footy you are really going through it at the moment, it just be so hard seeing your LO upset. I'm glad he loves you I hope he shows it more and treasures you in the way you deserve 💐

Hey Mimi happy belated birthday! :)
Fingers crossed AF doesn't arrive.

Happy birthday tee!

Nim hope things progressing well.. anymore spotting? Xx

Hi ladies, hope our dreams all come true soon. It's such an horrible experience all this waiting. It feels like the cycles are going slower and just full of disappointment. We must not give up. Keep climbing that mountain. It's a huge thing and has so much impact on our lives and that's just ttc , it continues throughout.

Sorry you are all having a bad time of it lately.. I too wish things were simple in life. Sorry to hear your fears, trials and hardships. Lots of let downs already in January. I have been catching up on clomid board and so many of them have had miscarriages too, one with twins.. so so sad. It's not easy.

H still being the same..feel like the damage it is causing is just increasing. Had a very unsettled 7yr old last night who was tearful and questioning things at home. Says I don't look happy anymore and he's sad. At that point I broke down. I am trying to be strong but it's sucking the life out of me. Hard to hide it from boys as I have to do all the things I usually do and put on a cheerful mummy when really I just want to stay in bed and cry my heart out. I make all the pack lunches with the boys so making "h" lunch when I'm not being acknowledged or even a thankyou is difficult. They would say why u not doing daddy's lunch?! So I'm doing all these things but right now I'm not sure he deserves that ham cheese pickle sandwich, with homemade flapjacks but some rodent waste with some stones and grit in.
He says he loves me, so giving it a go.. so we will see. Next session tee is next Monday. I said I'd try so I will, I'll fight for it, if it fails after all this effort then at least I can say I tried everything.

You girls are great had so many good wishes from you all and lovely gifts from dear friends to cheer me up. I so appreciate your advice and ears.. hoping one day it will b a distant memory all this hardship and we can get on an share our baby moments.

Hie ladies. Sorry have been awol. It has been a hectic start to the year but here is hoping the best for everyone .loads to catch up on!!

Happy birthday tee 🎉🎊🎉🎂.hope you have a lovely day and a bfp present around the corner .sorry about your friend hey .

Sorry for af beagles.this ttc is not easy but fx for better luck this month. Hope your oh's birthday was a blast. Mine was on the 6th and l turned a miserable 36 with lots of bfns on her shoulder .

Sending you hugs jam and lots of luck my friend. Hope you feel better soon and you get that most wanted bfp soon hun.

Congrats nim.lts nice to come back to some good news. Praying for your sticky bean.

Waves to everyone new and old. Reading back now and will hopefully respond to all.l am somewhere in my cycle lol but hoping af never turns up

Oh beagles I am sorry it's such a mixed bag of emotions isn't it on the one hand it really isn't fair and why can't that happen for us and on the other hand the guilt of having those thoughts. Keep your chin up those bfps are out there for all of us xx

Thanks jam - we got sent the scan pictures from our friends and my other half pointed out the relief that they didn't have to go through what we did with our scan which made me feel more happy for them that actually it would be awful if anything bad happened so had a good excited chat with them. Just hope we fall soon so we can have babies close in ages. Sounds like we are all feeling it a bit at the moment - glad we have each other xx

Also hope all is well footy - how is the dh?

Happy birthday tee!! I hope you have something fabulous planned?
Sorry to hear about your friend - it's awful I hope she will be OK x
I think implantation can happen up to day 12 but fingers crossed for that nosebleed for you!! I've been really achy with the odd cramp almost to the point of getting a hot water bottle which is more than usual (but I don't know if that's because I'm watching for it) and Monday night I could not get warm for love nor money - went to bed and slept the night with two sets of PJs which is weird (unless I was just feeling sorry for myself after a bad day!) But last night back to the usual night sweats... Other than that just very emotional! Who knows! When are you testing?
Xx

I agree with you all I didn't know much about infertility or pregnancy loss u till we started trying and went through it why is it still a taboo subject?