Ttc after late miscarriage. Let's support each other. X

I'm out :( never have I seen such a negative pg test. I think it was another chemical pregnancy as the line was coming and going during the week.

Wasn't overly keen on a summer baby so we will take a break and relax (what's the bet I get pregnant during that time when I'm not stressing about it!!) and get back to ttc in January xx

Fingers crossed the line keeps getting darker xx

I did test again this morning and again only such a faint line it's almost invisible. I don't think AF due till the 5th so I have a few days left to worry and fret.

I was out to dinner last night with a big group of girlfriends and they asked why I wasn't drinking, I said "we are trying for baby no.2", some girls who I know well know my story but others were like "I didn't know you already had a kid!"... Hmm. It's a tricky one

Oh Again that is great news! Did you test again this morning? I'm so pleased for you.

Answer the question however you want to. I sometimes say I have 3 sons and sometimes I say 4 depending on who asks me and how.
Maybe something like... this is our second pregnancy but we sadly lost our first. Or whatever you feel comfortable with depending on who it is.
Really happy for you. I greeted af again at the weekend so I'm out again x

Hi everyone... I did a HPT this afternoon as I couldn't help myself even though I am only 11dpo. I had an ever so slightly faint positive. Will poas every morning next week to see if the line gets darker!

I'm excited but what I'd rather have is my first born in my arms and alive. I'm dreading the questions when I start showing "oh so is this your first?" What does someone who has been through what we've been through say to something like that?!

I completely understand your thoughts, but you will love this baby just as much.
Tested again today with same brand of test and another negative so I assume af will appear at some point.
Will wait until Feb to try again and in the meanwhile focus on being healthy and getting myself a new job yay!
I have a diabetes appointment on Wednesday as I had severe early onset diabetes with Finley which didn't disappear properly so probably a good idea to get that sorted first too. Can you tell I'm trying to console myself a bit?

Kimble have you tested again?! Any news?? xx

Wow Kimble that's amazing weight loss!

We had one egg transferred yesterday so I am officially pregnant until proven otherwise.

I'm having a break down though - I don't want a baby born in summer/being the youngest in the year. I want my son back who was to be born this December. I'm furious with the hospital for not doing their job properly and I had been let down by the system.

Will I love my summer baby as much as my first born who was due in December??

I know I'm being totally unreasonable but that's how I feel DH snapped at me this morning and said the most important thing is that we have a living baby to term this time around and I know he's right... But everything was perfect before all this happened/before we lost our son early.

... Uh

Good luck again! Fingers crossed for sticky embryos for you x

We are coming to the end of 2ww, tested today 11dpo and it was negative but then noticed it wasn't an early response and said to test on first day of missed period. I'm due on Thursday/Friday I think.
I have been ill with this bloody cold virus thing which is horrific so no specific signs, fell asleep twice today but totally could be because I have been ill and was home today. Otherwise no specific symptoms. Just hoping. However it has taken us up to 2 years to conceive before so not holding my breath!
I am however now a stone down, so feeling like my body is on the right track and I also have a job interview for a job I have wanted for about 5 years but hasn't been available. So good things are happening

Hi Kimble and all the other lovely ladies. We are doing IVF this month and have embryo transfer on Wednesday. Not holding out much hope because I just feel like I was lucky already with my son and I won't be lucky enough to get pregnant again (let alone try and carry to term this time around!!)

I know I should be excited but I'm not at all

How are you all doing now? X

Oh love I didn't mean it like that at all, like not in the slightest - I meant about being the youngest in the school year - I worried about that before he was born - lots of family members mentioned it repeatedly - like he was going to a third rate citizen or something

The thought of having another baby with a March due date makes me want to vomit. I totally understand what you meant

You are right, it shouldn't make a difference but I'm just very paranoid and anxious around those dates now

My DS1 is end of July - doesn't make any difference. He's happy and healthy which is what's important.

Stupidly checked my Facebook having avoided it for a while and low and behold someone else is pregnant and it's their third and they are 'soooo excited but hoping for a girl'

Yes God forbid you have a boy, like my beautiful boy who died the day before he was supposed to be born. People are idiots, utterly naive idiots.

I honestly despair of people I truly do.

This path is so so painful, I just want to get off

I'm sorry darling I didn't know Finley was due in September. I thought you were like me and didn't want to have a baby born in late July or August because they'd be the youngest in the year 🙈 I know how stupid I sound now because I'd cut off all my limbs just to have a healthy baby in my arms even if it meant they were born on 31st August!

It's funny how an experience like this changes your perspective on a whole bunch of things in life.

Just because Finley was due in September so I don't want a September baby again, August is a bad month in our family, 2 of my siblings were born in August and both died of cot death. Then we don't want to have a baby so close to Christmas as we have lots of birthdays around then so we will wait until May/June to try again I think d

Kimblesj why are you going to stop until next year? X

Impatient that is truly shit and I'm so sorry :(

I'm having a really tough day today. I was reading an article in OK magazine about Peter Andre and his wife who is pregnant and she was saying how they have all their baby stuff (prams, cot, etc.) and I looked in to our empty nursery and empty hallway - no cot, no pram, maternity clothes stashed at the back of the wardrobe... I cried for a good hour.

Will this grief ever go away??!

Oh goodness impatient poor you, I hope you are managing to look after yourself and taking things easy.
We are back in 2 week wait again but I think I got ovulation date wrong I think actually it happened on day 18 rather than 15 and husband has a bad back so it has either got there or it hasn't. This is my last month trying until next year so if we don't catch then that's that.

Thinking of you all, hope Molly is doing ok too x

Yes definitely miscarrying - my Hcg level was so low on Friday its definitely not viable.

Anyway last night I started cramping and bleeding so I'm glad it's happened quickly because my last miscarriage was a missed one and I ended up with surgery so wouldn't want to go down that road again.

I have to say I found the last week really tough knowing I was pregnant again - I did get the flutters of excitement and I tried to be positive but mainly just tried to get through each day.

Hope everyone is doing ok X

Oh Impatient I'm so sorry, what a roller coaster of emotions! Are you 100% sure that you are miscarrying? What did the blood tests reveal?

I'm excited to get pregnant again but I'm petrified going back to the hospital to do all of it all over again. I'll be on edge the whole time. I have no faith in the system after being sent home from A&E twice when I voiced concerns a week before going in to labour.

An old school friend of mine gave birth earlier this week and was posting loads of pics on social media and then PM'd me asking how was my pregnancy going (I'd be well in to my third trimester by now). I haven't responded to her and I wish I had never told her I was pregnant too.

Right well its all gone tits up here.

Got a faint positive a week ago and line was getting darker when I re tested. Got a positive on Wednesday again on a clearblue digital but I've been getting quite a lot of pain so was a bit concerned - got referred to EPU and spent the day there yesterday.

Had a scan and they've confirmed no ectopic thank goodness but after bloods taken yesterday looks like early miscarriage. I've not had any bleeding yet so waiting for it to start.

I found it so awful being at the hospital again and the consultant who scanned me and told us William had died was there and I've not seen her again since that morning so I found that terrifying.

Feel sad and cross. I was so nervous but excited about the possibility of a baby opening up again only to have it snatched away after a week again.

Molly I so hope you're doing ok

Just checking in to see if there's any news from Molly

How did you get on yesterday Molly?

Hello again, so sorry you too are in this boat and I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your son. Let's hope we all have a good month this month.
Hoping that you have a successful cycle this month and you get a sticky bean