SQUARE ONE'ers to GRADUATES - Supporting eachother on TTC journey

I'm so annoyed for all of us! Can't believe that with all the BDing no BFP's! Mother Nature is so....unfair!

oh boo tee, you're not out yet though xx

Tee I always struggle with the moderation part

Jem mine is 26th, though according to the study I'm in I have to take a test every day from 6dpo, so have been having bfns for a few days now, always analising the stick for that faint second line that never shows.

Radders I run the risk of being too forward here, but.. why don't you propose?

I find that rainymood.com helps me to relax. I love to keep it on just because. I know we do have a lot of rain here (I'm not originally from the uk), but the sound is so faint because of all the double glazing that I miss it.

Morning all! Almost afternoon but DH said last night that I seemed tired and he would like me to have a lie in...who am I to argue!

CD 21 7/8DPO eeeeekkkk

Radders i used to work for a really really big fussy supermarket in HO and I was involved in the packaging / design from that side and dealt with printers all the time. It is an awful steadily industry and some people I worked with liked to pick holes in things over nothing was awful! I'm quite a relaxed person and my favourite line was "ok so it's not exactly the same Pantone reference but no one has died!" You would have thought it was life or death to some of them! I'm glad I got out!

Come on Tee!! Have everything crossed for you...we are due a BFP!!

To those who replied about my diet / wanting to lose weight I think I'm going to put things in perspective- I am healthy. Ok I might need to cut down on Nutella and carbs and I will do that but generally I have a good diet (background also in food & nutrition) so I am going to just cut back and stop worrying! I want to enjoy my holiday.

How's this looking?

May
Tee - 21st
Spreadontoast - 25th
Nimisha - 29th
Jod - 29th
Purpleowl

June
Footprints
Summerblush
Psychickate - 16th
Jem - 18th
Radders
Mimi

Graduates
Parney
Newhair
January

To be fair we've only been together 18 months! But when you know you know.
So I can't really say he's dragging his feet. It will be this year though I'm 100% certain of that.
I'm so impatient though. I hate waiting

Sorry radders that should have been obvious! I assumed you were already married. Your oh sounds absolutely lovely from what you've said on here. What's holding him up?

DH and I were together for 8 years before we got engaged. It got to the point where I felt resentful towards him and questioning the relationship. I don't think he realised how much it affected me at the time. He's a lovely man, so kind and intelligent and loving, but he's not good with change or making decisions. He is a born worrier and this holds him back.

I hope yours doesn't keep you waiting much longer. That would be a nice distraction from ttc!

I work in the packaging industry - we manufacture cartons for supermarkets - they go to the food people to pack. I manage a team there of 22 who look after the customers. Words cannot explain how stressful this industry is. It's all want want want and when you throw that carton in the bin you have no idea what's gone into it. If the colour is slightly wrong it's rejected yet the day to day person really wouldn't notice!
I tell myself everyday it's just a job but from the moment you walk in to the moment you leave it is literally none stop. You can't do half measures.
Going to try my best this month to stay calm!

I will try that app as I feel like I'm struggling to breathe today etc definitely need calming down.

I'm going part time after maternity leave but I don't think back to the company I'm at. My job can't be done part time and I don't think I want to work in a stressful industry like that when it's only part time.

Jem I mean an engagement ring! Hehe wish he would hurry up and pop the question. That would also give me something else to think about it. Sorry to hear you're feeling upset. It is tough but we are in it together.

Physics I was going to study Physics in uni, after 2 years I saw it wasn't really for me and dropped out. Never regretted it.

Jodders For the past few months I kept thinking what's the point in losing weight now if I'm going to put it back on if I get pregnant? And then it just clicked that I couldn't keep waiting, I've been trying to get pregnant for months I could have been a size 12 by now if I had just started earlier. I hope I get pregnant soon but if I don't at least I'll be healthier.

Good luck on testing today, Tee!

2 days till my holiday! I'm really excited. Bad luck Radders and Jem. Fingers crossed tee. Hi summer. Mimi have you had your night out yet? Getting sprayed and shellaced and packing today. Great to take my mind off the dreaded 2ww.

Morning girls CD2

Horrible period pains and still feeling pretty shit, but had a lovely evening bowling with friends and you lovely lot always cheered me up loads too. It's so good to know you're not alone and others understand what you're going through.

That said I did wake up at 4ish this morning and have a big cry again. Somehow the middle of the night makes things seem a lot worse. I read your positive list again tee to help myself down! Also downloaded a breathing app - can recommend for relaxation - plus my mindfulness app. Both are free and have simple exercises to help you relax. Am going to try and do them daily this cycle.

jodders I sound a similar size to you - ten at best, usually more like a 12 and if I'm not careful could edge to 14. Your cleanse sounds quite drastic so maybe not the best idea for pregnancy or ttc? I think a more moderate approach might be better, cutting out carbs, sugar, sat fats. I really need to do this too so might join you.

radders so sorry AF got you and admiring your strength. I hope you feel a bit brighter and enjoy the wedding. What do you mean about the ring? Thanks for the vit c tip by the way. When we first started trying I bought his and hers conception tablets from boots - not cheap! DH did not take a single one think it's now dawning on him that it's not actually that easy / baby on demand so I think will now be more open to this.

This cycle for me will also be about trying to relax and be less stressed. Work is the biggest factor for me too. I'm frequently awake at night worrying about it. Like you guys I also am staying at my current job to have a baby. I get a good maternity package where I am - built up from working there 4 years so I want to make the most of this. Going to try and let things wash over me more, take breaks get fresh air and also keep doing my mindfulness app daily to practise. It's just called Mindful if anyone is interested.

Wishing you all a lovely Saturday. tee keeping everything crossed for you!

Tee it's funny you should say that because I was just thinking to myself that this AF is a lot more painful than last month. I had really bad pains yesterday before she showed which I don't normally get and today they're hurting.
I normally have pains for a day.

It's definitely heavier so I think you're right in being flushed out.

I think work is getting to me more than this. I really think the stress of it is preventing me from conceiving. When I conceived last month I wasn't at work - ha 2 weeks off. I'm going to see what happens this month being more laid back and if that doesn't work then I'm going to have to consider the job.

Hope nothing shows and you get your BFP. I will be checking back! Xx

Feeling bit down in the dumps today actually

Going to a wedding which is nice but then I think not only do I not have a baby but I also don't have a ring

One of those days hehe

Tee when are you testing? I'm excited xx

Good luck tee - looking forward to hearing the result xx